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There’s been a while since he’d hung up the phone call, but there was still an echo ghosting over his ears reverberating that disgusting voice all over his body, his eyes were blank facing the phone screen, which was still glowing. His eyes rolled up slowly meeting the calendar, a red circle indicated today was March 1st, what meant it was Jongjin’s birthday. The brunette sighed deeply before getting up from the couch to find his cigarette pack, he wanted to erase the past hour from his memory, he just couldn’t understand why his mother couldn’t leave him alone, their hatred was mutual, therefore she needn’t bother calling him today.

As the smoke went up the room, Jongjin started considering his options, it was a Thursday afternoon so for the next 6 hours there wouldn’t be any parties that would actually worth his presence; his apartment was organized and cleaned and he was alone so no one to enjoy his clean sheets. His gaze fell on his shelf, well he could open a book and start studying until his eyes become so heavy he would force himself to sleep and then boom he’d wake up on March 2nd and it all would be over.

“Fair enough” – J shrugged and lit up another cigarette, going towards his books, choosing the most boring subject he could find, throwing his body on his bed, reaching for his ipod to choose a calmer song while he prepared himself to study. Little by little, the birthday boy forgot about his surroundings getting concentrated for real on those pages and its content, not even the task of lighting up another cigarette distracted him from what the student was reading. The former model was so focused that he didn’t hear the sound of his door being opened,he could swear he heard a “hyung” though.

-Last time I checked I was just getting older, not becoming a clown or something to be joking. – Jongjin coldly teased, he was so used to have Danny appearing in his apartment that he didn’t get surprised anymore; his tone might be bellow zero but there was a smirk on his lips betraying all his act. –If you don’t have anything that will get us high or drunk you can leave my apartment now because you’re interrupting my study. – J closed the book and grinned, he knew the british would never let him down.

- By the way… I am feeling like your wife ew, the heater is turned on because somehow I felt that if you appeared here, you’d be almost naked and wearing that tacky as fuck flip flops… And I was so right… Damn, I think I am going to throw up… -he faked a vomiting scene, before laughing a little, already in a way better mood.

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His gaze was focused on the smoke leaving his lips when Jongjin’s face appeared between his thoughts. It was already the first day of March, and though the memories Daniel had of this same day in the last year were quite peculiar, he couldn’t forget what it meant. It was Won Jongjin’s birthday, and despite the fact that for the korean style he was the worst hyung already seen, Danny just couldn’t waste such a good excuse for kidnapping Jin and take him to wherever he wanted. After all, it was always like this that their birthdays started when they were able to be with each other on those dates; ending such a lovely tradition was definitely out of question. But then, where he could take Jongjin, - supposing, of course, that he was actually free? At London Danny knew what to do, but at Korea things were still quite difficult.

But as the brunet took another drag from his cigarette, he was already standing by his bed’s side, putting his flip flops on. Not planning was the best choice when uncertain about what to do, and holding tight at this piece of wisdom, Daniel picked his car’s keys and the first jacket he found at his messy room to walk from his apartment ignoring his nude upper body and the bloody cold weather as he took the stairs to leave the building. Jongjin’s gift was already at his car’s trunk, and it would take less than 10 minutes with the heater on to get there, so why bother? He just had to take his way to the younger’s dorm and find out what to do next after seeing him.

And so he did. By the time he parked at the Nakseon Hall, Daniel was already freezing and cursing at his own laziness. Walking from his own comfort by wearing just the black skinny trousers was definitely a bad idea, but it was also too late to regret as he put the jacket on to get out the car and pick the younger’s gift at the trunk. Soon the smile took place at his countenance at the view of the Kah’s handpainted Day of the Dead skull bottle, and before he could properly think about the matter, Daniel was already taking the black ribbon he tied on the top of the Tequila bottle to settle it around his neck. This year he would surprise Jongjin in a brand new way, indeed.

Still smiling, the british threw the rest of his addiction way to light up another one and finally ran all the way to the building with the funny sound of his flip flops against the pavement. When he got to the brunet’s door, the smile was already gone as his countenance came to its normal cold form, but the excitement was still there. The words of the Tequila’s seller were in an eternal loop inside his head. Kah’s sweet caramel flavor would certainly make Jongjin curse at Daniel, but it still was distilled at a whopping of 110 proof, the maximum allowed by U.S law, and a good drinker as Jongjin would never turn it down. 

The british picked the extra key under the rug in front of Jongjin’s door and opened it while resting the cigarette between his lips and the birthday gift at one hand. - Jongjin-ah, hyung came to see you! - was the first thing he managed to say as he closed the door right before unzipping the uncomfortable tight jacket with his free hand. Being honest, he just wanted to take that thing off and stop it from pricking his skin, but it was still too cold to do it, so having it open to properly allow his movements was all that he could afford for now.

By that time, his flip flops were already somewhere else in the dorm as the british crossed the place in bare feet to find Won Jongjin studying at his bedroom. And that was a way too much for him to handle. At his own birthday that brat decided to open a book? - You gotta be kidding me… - the elder said as his countenance was already filled with a genuine horror caused by the scene right in front of his eyes.

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He had already lit up another cigarette and was alternating between a sip from his coffee and a long drag from the paper cylinder, J was looking through the window trying to come up with a plan, he knew it wouldn't be easy to make Tao talk to him. When a guy with a basketball uniform heading to the dorms passed by, J remembered that he’d heard somewhere Zitao was in the team… A grin crossed his lips as a perfect plan started to draw itself in fron of him, it seemed easy: he just had to go after someone well informed about the teams and find out where the younger one was living. Jongjin grabbed his phone, checking for new texts, sighing when none was found; quickly he got out from the apartment to start the first step of his scheme. It was easier than he thought it would be, he didn’t even had to go far, the guy who was his neighbor was on his way to enter his own place and he knew who Zitao was. -Oh you mean the basketball captain? If yes you are lucky! He lives in the 309 apartment. – the guy said with enthusiasm. -Captain huh? Thank you! – Jongjin smiled, a feeling of victory spreading through his chest, his phone buzzed again and he quickly unlocked it already aware of who was.

<sms to Panda> I am a better liar than you, I’m sure of it. <sms to Panda> If I wanted to talk to you through text messages I’d have done it already… I’ll try to make it quick, so come on.. Come out to play, I’ll be waiting near the cafeteria.

Lies. The brunette was already casually leaning against the wall in front of the 309’s door, Zitao would have to come out from that room sometime, didn’t he?

Rapt )( Jongjin & Tao

Tao reluctantly left his phone back on his bedside table as he got changed for the day. His thoughts flying a million miles per hour, all of it regarding his ex-lover. Hopefully with his last reply, J would have gotten the message, that the young junior no longer wanted anything to do with him. But alas, as he was putting on a white tank top just above his black skinny jeans, his phone went off again. 

Knowing full well on who was responsible for the buzzing device, Tao had to literally battle himself from stopping to grab hold of his phone again. Instead, he went into his kitchen got himself some beer, despite the fact that it was barely noon. With small dose of alcohol on his system, and a couple of paces back and fort between his leaving room and kitchen, the basketball captain stalked back into his room only to check his communicating device. He snorts, and slightly glares at the screen as he read through the others replies. 

<sms to J(ackass)> That’s hard to believe. You grown up? Ha! God, you are a terrible liar!

<sms to J(ackass)> If you’ve really got something to say then just text it to me. I cba to make any effort just to see your ungrateful face.

After hitting send, Tao went on to grab himself another bottle of beer. Although on the way to the kitchen, he had decided to put his phone, keys and wallet into his pockets. Somehow unconsciously getting ready to meet the other any, even if he did say otherwise.    

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Jongjin was feeling restless, nothing was capturing his attention for more than two minutes, he was facing the ceiling for god knows how many minutes, trying his best not to smoke his last pack of cigarettes available; but thinking of it, going out for a walk didn’t seem a bad idea since he was feeling that the younger one wouldn’t answer him anyway. With a heavy sigh. J reached for his lighter so he could at least play with the smoke coming out from his mouth while he mentally set a deadline to his waiting, Tao had a whole cigarette to reply. When the brunette was on the middle of it his phone buzzed,making his stomach vibrate.

-Who is this? God, you are a terrible liar. –he murmured to himself after reading the reply, when he was just about to text back, the phone vibrated again,making him smirk.

<sms to Panda> I am aware you are not, if I wanted one I would be at a stand-up comedy show or I’d have hired a stripper.

J laughed at how annoying he could be, he indeed have changed but he hadn’t been brainwashed.

<sms to Panda> Truth is, I need to talk to you, I know I was and I still am a jackass but I’ve grown up enough to know I fucked up and that I need to at least try to be a decent person.

<sms to Panda> Btw, you can’t ignore it, bc you still know me, I am sure of it; and you also know that I won’t stop until I get your attention.

Jongjin put out his cigarette, standing up to make himself some coffee, he had done his part for now, and J hoped Tao’s curiosity would be enough to make him contact J back.

Rapt )( Jongjin & Tao

His hands wiped away the steam off the bathroom mirror. The junior feeling refreshed from his hot shower. Tao had just gotten back from his morning run, about an hour back, to continue on with the rest of the day, a shower was well and truly needed. Grabbing another towel off the rack, he dried his hair as he left the toilet, only to be welcomed by his buzzing phone. 

By the time he reached his phone, the vibrating device had stop alerting him of the messages he’d just received. He literally took a double glance, at the sms and the sender’s name. Tao stumbled into his bed, unbelieving of the current situation. Well will you look at that…

<sms to J(ackass)> “I’m sorry… who is this?”

So he might have lied on his first response, but knowing J, the older boy would know his lying, so he might as well just go with whatever the other wanted.

<sms to J(ackass)> “I’m not your entertainer.” 

Hopefully, J wont bother him now, even though he was curious onto why the he was being contacted again. Specially since they haven’t really spoken to each other for a good couple of years now. But then again, it’s not like J hasn’t already told him what he was needed for. Tao was nothing more but some play-toy to the older male, he always had been. 

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[2 m ago] Feel like getting drunk as fuck before I go out from my room and break your bones.

[2 m ago] There's been a while since I last felt that angry....

[4 m ago] That's what I get for being nice....

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Rapt )( Jongjin & Tao

There were two options available when it came to that case, either Jongjin was clearly going crazy or that person was actually back to make him go insane. He couldn’t really tell why he still felt so attached to the other male but the brunette could tell why they weren’t together anymore, he knew he was a jackass to the other. Thank god time flies and changes people, even though Jongjin was still a dick, he’d gotten a lot better and was wondering if his panda still hated him.

J never was the type that thought too much before making a decision, so from the moment he spotted Tao, he already made the decision to contact him and hope for the best. He rushed into his apartment getting his phone as soon as his body fell on the bed, texting the other:

“I hope you didn’t change your number and that you still know who this number belongs to…”

Jongjin hit send and smirked, typing again:

“So panda, are you free? If the answer is yes, so am I and please save me from this infinite boredom I am feeling right now.”

He rested his phone on his chest, facing the ceiling, his smirking getting wider, God when did his heart warmed up a few degrees?

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Watch it go up as I blow it...

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Shadow Flash )( Jongjin & Baekhyun

Jongjin never was really the type that went to parties to dance all night, he enjoyed being around all those different people moving on their own way to the beat of a song, simply because the brunette liked observing, every once in a while he found someone who was worth his attention, and that was the moment when he finally starts moving. If he is unlucky and no one lures him in, he’ll probably get so drunk he’ll forget his name and end up on the dancefloor.

Today was one of those unlucky nights, not only unlucky, it was being atypical too. J had had a few shots and drinks and for a heavy drinker like him, those were nothing; what meant he was more sober than drunk, you could add bored too. The student was scanning the club when something (finally) caught his eye, there was a very attractive guy stumbling on his own feet, using the walls like they were an anchor keeping him standing up. At first, Jongjin only watched, thinking the scene was rather entertaining until two guys show up, they were taller,stronger and much more sober than the poor drunk kid; J knew that kind of people quite well: they would smile at you,whisper a couple of sweet things hoping you will hop on their laps… In case you don’t, oh well, they will force you to and when you wake up on the morning after you’ll be alone somewhere you don’t know, feeling like a trash can. So far,the scene unraveling in front of his eyes was going just like he’d imagined, J wasn’t exactly pitying the guy, in fact he’d been that boy so many times, the unknown had a bright smile and glossy eyes, he seemed like a kind person someone that didn’t deserve being used and thrown away, he was worth being saved from waking up feeling like nothing; with a sigh Jongjin put his empty glass on the counter. “Don’t think you won or anything, ok?” –he murmured looking up, metaphorically talking to whoever ran that shit called universe, god or whatever.

-Uh, excuse me, why are you two here? – he said simply appearing there. “We’re getting lucky, of course. Do you want to join the party?” –typical. Jongjin rolled his eyes at the answer. –I’m afraid your party is private, and I didn’t remember inviting any of you. – He said seriously. “Says who? You?” –J sighed. “Because if he was with you, he didn’t need to be around us, begging for us to use him.” –I am not seeing him begging right now, he seems a little scared, plus you are probably hurting him, he is drunk, he isn't a lego game that is going to fall apart if you let go. – the brunette coldly stated,leaning closer to the guys so that he could whisper to them. – He is with me now…Say otherwise and we will play something hot colored, red hot. – Jongjin smirked creepily maneuvering his butterfly knife in a way even dumb and dumber standing there would get the hint. “Whatever dude, if he is that important to you, have fun.” – J put away the knife, smiling victorious, that one was quite easy. Without giving any explanation, he held the shorter one’s arm and dragged him somewhere the song wasn’t so loud. -So, can you remember your name? – Jongjin asked, taking a better look at him, it was too dark for the brunette to note something, he couldn’t tell if those two were having fun with the other’s body before leading him out of the club or if they were planning to go somewhere else after stabilizing the guy on his own feet.

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"We’ve already tried this."

-Yeah we did... -Jongjin sighed, they've been trying to come up with a solution to the jammed door keeping both of them trapped in the empty room, he was starting to get really bored and was craving for a cigarette,which he couldn't light up since that room was equipped with a smoke detector. -I can't think of anything else, don't take it personally but I am not planning to spend another hour locked here.

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"There's plenty of fish in the sea"

Jongjin chuckled softly looking at the one trying to comfort him. -Oh I think you got me wrong... I am not sad about finishing a relationship... He could leave me anytime but why did he brought my favorite lighter with him? -he was one big jerk and he knew it, his heart was still a stone, he knew pretty well that there was plenty of fish in the sea. -But yes, you are right about that, I'll just have to go fishing again, right? Thanks anyway. -J smiled amused with the fact people still cared about each other.

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"Were you going through my computer?!"

Jongjin simply turned his head back, staring at the female defiantly, grinning at her. -Yes I was, I thought you might have something interesting but meh. -J shrugged and chuckled, he was having a blast being annoying, after all it was one of his favorite pastimes . -I mean you simply go away and leave your computer unprotected on a table in the middle of the cafeteria and you didn't want me to go through it? 

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"What went wrong?"

At first, the student was startled by the sound of the professor's voice, he didn't have classes with her but the knew the woman. - I have no idea, I mean I didn't do anything she just looked at me and started crying... -Jongjin said almost in a sigh, he'd ran into a little girl and assumed she was lost, all he did was waving at her and trying to start a conversation so that she could tell why she was wandering alone in a university. -I tried to make her talk to me but I guess I wasn't born to be around kids... -the child's crying was making his head hurt, Jongjin looked more closely to the girl's and Hyuna's features and noticed they were quite alike. -Uh, is she by any chance related to you? If yes, I'm sorry for making her cry. - J wished with all his heart the female could take that crying thing away from him, "and that's why I am not good to people" he thought to himself.

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"Are you high?"

Jongjin slowly opened his eyes and was glad he had sunglasses on, otherwise the sun would've hurt his vision; he didn't bother taking them off to look at the owner of the voice that woke him up. The brunette realized then that he was lying on a random spot at snu's field and had no memories about how he got there. -Hm, now I am surely not but I probably was. -he answered with a sarcastic laugh. -Thanks for waking me up though. - J said before getting up.

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"I saw your browser history."

"Do you even know what you’re doing?"

"We’ve already tried this."

"You don’t even know what you’re doing."

"Beyonce isn’t that great."

"How many times do I have to tell you?"

"You have five seconds…"

"I don’t even know who you are."

"Didn’t your parents ever tell you that?"

"Is this where you live?"

"… Why are your hands down your pants?"

"Is that a lobster?"

"You’re late on child support."

"You never go ass to mouth."

"One ring to rule them all…"

"He doesn’t even go here!"

"Did you just take that?"

"Is that a unicorn?"

"You’re a muggle."

"It’s your turn to do the dishes."

"Were you going through my computer?!"

"Are you pregnant?"

"You need to be honest with yourself, no one likes Nickelback."

"Shut up."

"I know you’re having an affair."

"They’re dead."

"Voldemort isn’t dead."

"Let me see your phone."

"I can’t believe it’s over."

"How high are you right now?"

"I was with someone."

"It’s not necessary to replace you, you’re not missed."

"Why do you think we never worked out?"

"What went wrong?"

"You’re the most ridiculous person I know."

"Are you okay?"

"I’m having an affair."

"Too little too late."

"Snoop Dog just came into the diner."

"You said we could get a puppy."

"I need to move out."

"You ordered a moon bounce?"

"Don’t you want me?"

"Meeting your mother changed my life."

"Janitor’s closet NOW."

"Is that for sale?"

"Do you want to get a drink sometime?"

"Your resilience is comparable to that of a cockroach."

"He has a knife!"

"I was on an episode of Cops once."

"Are you a hoarder?"

"We’re alone out here, you know?"

"I killed her."

"I need to go."

"Why did you invite me to your wedding?"

"You always do this!"

"You’re the master of excuses."

"Did you hire a stripper?"

"I just got out of jail."

"It was you all along?"

"I know you don’t want to be with me anymore."

"Were you ever happy?"

"You’ve been in that same exact spot since 9 this morning."

"There’s plenty of fish in the sea."

"This is it."

"I can’t believe it’s you."

"We’re getting evicted."

"I know who you are."

"I wrote you a letter… Every single day."

"They’re going to kill me."

"You had sex with a serial killer."

"Are you drunk?"

"I didn’t love you anyways."

"That was the worst day ever."

"That was the best day ever."

"Is this your first date?"

"I’ve never been kissed before."

"You’re famous!"

"I can’t see you anymore."

"What’re you here for?"

"It’s always been you."

"If this were a movie…"

"Are you high?"

"Stick a sock in it."

"You’re better off without me.’

"I’m better off without you."

"You’re like a freaking Taylor Swift song."

"What do you want?"

"Fuck it."

"That’s the worst advice I’ve ever heard."

"Who ARE you anymore?"

"Can I get a refill?"

"Well you don’t see that everyday."

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[2m ago] Things will not be ok if you are back...

[1 h ago] I don't know how to feel about that... Gotta go back to sleep since nothing here will make me drunk lol

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I will love you best Best when I forgive I will love you best when I forgive Cause you made your promises Not a one of them you kept  I will love you best when I forget, when I forget I will love you better then