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NOTES APP NOTE #17 (Date: April 20, 2025)

(I was hallucinating and delusional)

It's a demon bitch telling me all my intrusive thoughts and getting louder. She followed me all the way to the store and back, shook the ground. She made the cat say HELLO after I told the cat to say hi. Made the neighbors say something and is telling me that he's here to get me. I fight back.

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I genuinely can't write in my diary anymore. I am so dead inside and restless and now I'm posting this shit on the internet for pathetic amounts of attention I'll only achieve after whatever happens to me. I pace, smoke, walk, masturbate. None of it helps me. The sleeping pills I was prescribed only knock me out a few hours after I take them. I'm so restless I'm like an overcharged battery or something. It's an itch I can't figure out how to scratch and I hate it. I'm so alone.

ps I'm gonna post more notes app posts

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me when I got out of the psych ward

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halloween 2 (rob zombie version) was like my life lol

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https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1IX5wdgtB3-FZwxvXlwRrSC7rqAp-eHZJ

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1oBcJOozON1ClDpTpNaPOxIHOoMe4fGNL

https://mega.nz/folder/eiR03BpA#l1bypcgYY2q7nzzyRikscA

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NOTES APP NOTE #16 (Date: April 19, 2025 2:25 PM

When he pushes down on the plumger and it seeps in I suddenly feel a presence standing beside him. I turn and it's my mother.

"Hi, honey! Are you coming home soon?"

"Mom?" I whisper out. Jeffrey also turns to look and sees her...

"You're almost there. Are you excited yet? Everyone's waiting."

In my head he speaks his last words to me as I pass into a sleep I will never awake from, "Sleep gently now, my sweet child."

He sighs under his breath, feels my carotid pulse and waits for a minute. Then he grabs the hacksaw and holds it to my throat. Then with a heavy mounful sensation he begins hacking, deeper and deeper. He stops and sees my throat, and then the white of a neck bone sticking through. It feels way longer than it really was.

(yeah it's a sick fantasy about jeffrey dahmer)

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Everytime I stop I remember

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NOTES APP NOTE #15 (Date: April 19, 2025 9:59 AM)

can't run away from the PAAAST

I can only run in

right into the present

x2

(heavy metal 80s vibe with drums and it's a man singing it like Trent reznor)

(emphasis on

ONLy runnING IN right into the preSENT

only running in right into the future

(sad guitar)

you can leave it all behind

when everything you do is grey

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NOTES APP NOTE #14 (Date: April 17, 2025 8:12 PM)

okay so I literally passed out on my bedroom floor by my dresser last night drunk as he'll cause i was dancing for fun and to kill the intrusive thoughts and stuff and it was like wow bro wow oh shit I drooled on the carpet I still gotta drink tho goodnight

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buddy just why... why would you say something like this?

in defense of little me she was 13 and undiagnosed

edit: 12 actually

Can you imagine what he’d think, like “Ahh fuck, another granny..well..fuck it, I’m already here.”

The poor man, he kept gettin those grannies. And he had to go through with it, I mean, it’s not like he could crawl back out their window being all “oh, sorry, wrong house.” 

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i cant believe i thought of this omg

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dang

sorry i keep posting a lot today rn but i just wish i had a time machine so i could go back in time and see all those killers and shit like i wanna go back a couple of years and message elliot rodger on facebook and just know him and go back in time and meet a bunch of aerial killers and shit before they got locked up

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2017 Eric Harris would be up in Home Depot right now with a gun strapped to his jorts because he’s “open carrying”, his cellphone would be in a velcro pouch that clips to his belt, and he’d be wearing beige crocs while shopping down the aisles (in that position some people do where they lean over the cart and their ass is just kinda sticking out while they slowly browse along) for tools to build a “man cave” in his basement to have a place to “crack open a cold one with the boys”

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Man I really hate….*looks at smudged writing on hand* Rapist Martinez

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please somebody say sonething to me