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heal me | 양정원 - 1/3 -

warning - abusive household, mentions of scars, blood & death, reader having a hard time sharing her personal life with jungwon, violence, depression, anxiety, curse words, pet names.

genre - angst.

“i’ll be with you, always.”

it was hard telling your feelings towards your boyfriend jungwon because you didn’t want him worrying about you as you were being treated badly at home. being close with him, you felt happier and more relaxed than being at home where you were constantly getting yelled at, which caused you to become depressed. of course jungwon hasn’t realized that yet because you were always smiling towards him. until he saw scars on your face and on your arms.

“babe, what the hell happened to you?” your boyfriend asked as he looked at you with his worried look as he touched the dried up scars that was days old.

“nothing, won. i just hurt myself as i got home last night.” you lied and softly took his hands away from your face as you smiled. you knew he wasn’t stupid to believe what you said because the scars were deep.

“i’m not stupid, love. tell me who did this to you.”

you shook your head as you looked down, not looking directly at jungwon who is clearly confused on who did it. your eyes got watery from remembering the fact that you were almost dead living in that abusive relationship with your parents. which you never told anyone, not even jungwon.

“are you sure you want to know?” you looked up with tears falling from your eyes and down your cheeks. this is the first time you cried in front of him and you crying like that made him feel like shit.

“my parents are abusive. they..” your voice started to sound weak as you cried harder and jungwon processing everything through on why you didn’t tell him earlier. so he pulled you closer to him and lets you cry on his chest.

“i’m so sorry.” he hugged you softly as your eyes started to feel heavy, not knowing that you fell asleep next to him.

hours later…

you not realizing that you slept in jungwon’s arms, you slowly woke up, seeing the window already pitched black out then seeing jungwon next to you sleeping peacefully. you didn’t wanna wake him up so you quietly got off of the couch and looked at your watch. 8:30pm.

you forgot that jungwon was a really light sleeper so as you got ready to leave, you heard his voice from a distance. “babe?” in his sleepy voice, he slowly pulled himself up while rubbing his eyes. you sighed softly, “sorry won, i didn’t want to wake you.”

he shook his head, “no worries. are you going back now?” he asked, planning to convince me to stay at his place.

you nodded, “i had too. all of my stuff is there.”

“don’t. not now, love. if you do, you’ll be worse than before. so i’m telling you to not go back. unless i help you pack quickly.” jungwon wasn’t playing when he said he’ll help me.

you were hesitant because you didn’t want him getting hurt if your abusive parents actually wakes up. “but..”

“believe me i can protect myself. i just need to protect you so that you won’t get hurt again.”

“if you allow me to help you, we’ll get your stuff asap.” jungwon added as if he wasn’t afraid of being attacked.

you knew that he could defend himself but hasn’t showed me this side of him yet.

“what are you thinking, babe?” jungwon asked as he stopped his tracks.

you took a deep breath. “don’t worry about me. although you know about the situation between me and my parents. it has nothing to do with you.” now you’re not making eye contact with jungwon.

“babe, it does. you getting hurt made me feel like i couldn’t protect you at all. and now you going back to your parents house is gonna make me feel like i regret letting you go back there and i can’t let you get hurt anymore. so how about i help you pack up tomorrow?”

you nodded. “what about tonight?” you asked.

“no need to worry about it. i’ll help with the wounds once you’re done.” you smiled as jungwon took the tote bag off of you and puts it in the closet.

“i’ll prepare your clothes for tonight. come on.”

you followed jungwon to his room where the bathroom was connected. soon enough, he handed you a brand new towel. “feel free to take your time.” jungwon grabbing his clothes from his wardrobe before leaving you alone, closing the door behind him.

[seunqwu]

you was all i had left • 양정원

warnings - angst, mentions of death. - feel free to add more if i missed any!

— "Not being with you was hard enough. But not being able to see you next to me was even harder." —

You didn't know when the day was coming, the day you were gonna die. Leaving everything behind, your boyfriend, soon to be husband Yang Jungwon. He was the one who made you happy. Felt happier than you were before. He was your soulmate. He wanted to be there with you in every way possible because of how bad you were treated during your younger days, but due to work he wasn't able to. Keeping in contact with you was good enough for you so that he could keep going.

The day Jungwon came home from work, he got a call from you. But that wasn't you. His expression changed when he heard the word, "Car accident," that's when he realized he needed to be at the hospital as soon as possible. He tried to hold onto his tears as he was driving but tears just kept rolling down his face. "Joohyun, please be alive." He says in his mind repeatedly trying to think positive before not knowing that you had died at the hospital.

Jungwon seeing you being covered in a white cloth in a hospital bed, he almost dropped his whole body onto the floor because he couldn't believe that you were dead right in front of him. Tears kept falling through his face and he couldn't help but to cry even harder when he pulled down the white cloth over you, seeing cuts all over your face. He saw your hand and immediately held it while crying.

A year later...

Jungwon went to your grave since it's been a year since you passed. He brought you your favorite flowers, White Roses. He placed them in front of your grave. "I hope you're doing well up there, Joohyun.." He says as he tries to hold back his tears. "I just wanted to let you know that it's been hard for me to get past the whole thing.."

"So I hope I'll see you soon, my love.."

"Thank you so much for being there with me."