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I Will Never Forget You

“Johnathan’s whereabouts have been located and he is heard to be in Edom”. Silence filled the room as Alec gave his speech to the whole institute. “Our main priority is to bring Johnathan back to Idris…dead or alive. I, personally, will take my team there and successfully follow out with this mission. Everyone else, you’re my eyes and ears. If Johnathan is seen or heard from by anyone at all I want to know about it, no matter how small the detail is. Everything matters…dismissed”. With that final word everyone, slowly, returned to their work stations and resumed with their work. “We are meeting Magnus later on today to summon the demon who will take us there. Guys, this is an extremely dangerous mission, we might not all make it”, Jace said as he put his arm around Clary. “God you are such a drama queen”, I said trying to lighten the mood whilst winking at Jace. Alec came over and wrapped his arms around me from behind, feeling his warm embrace was reassuring. “I’m bringing Simon”, Izzy demanded. Before Alec could start refusing she finished, “If there is a chance I’m not gonna make it I want to be with him”. I tightened my grip around Alec’s hand, telling him to just agree. Why shouldn’t Izzy be with the one she loved, especially at this time. I had Alec by my side, Clary had Jace.

Alec and Jace went to have one last meeting with the inquisitor before the mission. I went back up to mine and Alec’s shared room to get ready when Izzy and Clary knocked on the door. “You ready to kick ass?”, Izzy asked as she jumped onto my bed. “When am I not?”, I grabbed my weapon holsters and wrapped them around my waist and legs. Clary sat next to Izzy, “How are you feeling?”, she asked with a hint of sympathy. I lived life as a mundane for the first 16 years of my life, I had only been a Shadowhunter for 3 years. My parents didn’t know anything about the shadow world, all they knew was that I was going through a gothic phase with an obsession with ‘weird looking tattoos’. I always made sure that I made time to see my family, however that was ripped away from me a few months back. Johnathan had killed them, whether it was an attempt for answers…I didn’t know. All I knew was that it was evil. I took a deep breath before answering, “Truthfully…I’ve never felt more ready”.

We met up with Magnus in the courtyard of the institute. “The demon I’m summoning is a greater demon. He will ask what he gets in return in which we will offer a trade of his choice. You do not break the circle at ANY point. Do you all understand me?”. Sheepish nods were given from everyone as we stood in a circle at different points of the pentagram. We joined hands and Magnus said the words. There was a loud cracking noise like really close thunder and a gush of strong wind whirled around us forming a grey looking cloud in the centre of the circle. A deep booming voice echoed, “Who dare summon the great Azazel”. Magnus was speechless, he had summoned demons before but not ones as powerful as Azazel as it was a death wish. He finally spoke with a stutter, “A-Azazel, it is I, Magnus Bane, the high warlock of Brooklyn. We would like acceptance to enter Edom”. Azazel laughed, “And what do I get in return of this?…”, he thought for a minute. “I get one special memory from each of you with the person you cherish the most”.

Izzy went first, it appeared in front of us like a projection. It was of her first date with Simon, he had taken her to a Star Wars movie marathon at the movie theatre and although it wouldn’t have been her first choice for a date…or any of her choices for that matter, watching his face light up in the hope of her liking something he enjoyed so much was all she cared about. She started crying after the memory had disappeared and Simon was trying to hold back the tears.

He was next, it was of the both of them sitting in the Jade Wolf. It had just been after there first date and they had gone there from the movies for a ‘romantic’ meal/the only place Simon could afford. She was trying to reassure him that she loved Star Wars even though she got all the questions wrong from the quiz he made her do. But he didn’t say that she was wrong, he realised that she was trying for him and that was all he needed.

Clary’s memory was of her trying to teach Jace mundane driving. He kept stalling the car and even nearly ran an old lady over as he got the accelerate and brake pedal mixed up. All Clary did was sit there and hysterically laughed, she was the one who was meant to be guiding him but she couldn’t even see the road from the tears forming in her eyes from how hilarious she found the whole thing. But it was special to her because it finally shown something that Jace Herondale couldn’t do, and she loved him even more for that.

Jace’s was simple, it was his first kiss with Clary. From the outside it didn’t look like anything special and it certainly didn’t look romantic as they were covered in demon blood and surrounded by bodies however for Jace, it was when he finally realised that Valentine was wrong. All his life he was taught that to love is to destroy and that to be loved is to be the one destroyed but this moment proved that not be true. It proved that love didn’t make you weak, it made you stronger.

Magnus was the next person in the circle and it wasn’t hard to guess where he was and what he was doing. He was in his apartment…in his blue chair…with a glass of whisky in his hand with the rest of the bottle not too far away. He was accompanied by Camille Belcourt, the person who he had loved for centuries, and one of his closest friends, Ragnor Fell. He had lost them both to Valentine’s army and the number of warlocks were decreasing. It was a memory of old times, it was his memory of the only people he once called family.

After it had disappeared into the grey smoke, it was Alec’s turn. It was the night of our first time, luckily it didn’t show anything inappropriate but it was the lead up to it. It was passionate and it was the first night we opened up to each other. I opened up about my family and he opened up about his feelings and told me how he felt, it was the first night he realised that he could love and he could actually have a happy ending. His grip on my hand became tighter as he watched that memory vanish forever.

It was finally my turn, it shown the night I introduced Alec to my parents. I brought him round to my parents house and we all had dinner. My dad was so protective and asked him loads of questions and the look of panic on Alec’s face was priceless! It was the only time I had actually seen his scared of someone, my mum loved him. She said he was kind and she knew that he was the one for me. It was the night I realised that Alec was my soul mate. I wanted to break the circle and just run to my room. When my memory had gone I couldn’t hold it in any longer and I just burst into tears. Alec didn’t know what to do, he wanted to come and comfort me but we couldn’t break the circle.

He started shouting, “Y/N it’s gonna be okay!”. I looked at him but I couldn’t hear anything else, the thunder noise grew louder and louder and we were swept up for a second and crashed back down onto the ground. It took a minute for me to get to my feet but when I did I realised we weren’t in the courtyard of the institute anymore. We were in Edom. It was dull, everywhere was near enough pitch black apart from fire and flames that lit the place up a bit. The screams, roars and screeches of demons filled the atmosphere. But we didn’t have time to take the beautiful surroundings in as demons came running towards us from every direction. “GUYS QUICK”, I shouted, grabbing my seraph blade from my holster, as they were all only just recovering from the fall.

After several arrows, knives, blades and axes had been thrown there was only 1 figure in the distance and we all knew who it was. So much anger and hate grew inside of me. Alec recognised this and pulled me back by gabbing my arm. Johnathan started to run at us, I jolted out of Alec’s grip and ran at him. “Y/N NO!”. Alec shouted behind me but nothing was enough to stop me now. Our blades clang together as they collided in the air. I swung for his stomach, he defended himself. He swung for my face, I ducked. He kicked the blade out of my hands, knowing I had no other weapons left I swung my fist and it made contact with his face. He stood back, wiping the blood away from his bust lip. I picked up my blade from the ground and readied myself again. I looked over at the others, more and more demons were circling them. “Do you even remember them?”. I asked, squinting my eyes in hatred. We walked in circles facing each other, like lions prowling and waiting for the other to make the next move. “Do you remember slaughtering my parents?”, I spat the question out with as much poison I could muster. He smirked and lunged towards me, knocking me to the ground. He stood over me, gliding his finger tips on the surface of his seraph blade. Every move was threatening. “I do remember killing your parents. I remember their screams and their pathetic plea to spare their lives, it was music to my ears. I rather enjoyed killing them, watching them suffer. You see I did it because of you, I wanted you to crumble. You were the one that I was most worried about, you were strong and powerful but once I killed them, I took that all away. Now you’re pathetic and weak because thats what happens when you love someone. I’ll slaughter Alec and everyone of your friends until everyone you care about is dead”, his smirk took form of a full smile now. Rage filled inside of me, he did not get to take the rest of my family away from me. I kicked at both of his legs and he fell on his back letting out a grunt. I grabbed my blade and stood over him. “I forgive you. Because I feel sorry for you. You’ve never loved and you’ve never been loved. You’ll never have something special with anyone…”. I crouched down and looked him in the eye, “…that’s weakness”. I drove my sword into his chest and backed away, watching the black demon blood spill from his mouth and run from his wound. Then he lay motionless. I heard footsteps grow louder and louder behind me but I couldn’t take my eyes off of Johnathan’s body. “Y/N are you okay?! Are you hurt?”. Alec pulled me into a tight hug and then assessed my body to see if there were any wounds. All the others caught up and stared at the body that lay before them. Alec noticed that I was in shock, “He can’t hurt you anymore”. “He said he was going to kill you guys…I couldn’t lose you too”. I burst into tears and buried myself into his chest.

After I had calmed down, Magnus arranged us into a circle again to summon Azazel so we could get home. The thunder and the smoke came once again and the booming voice echoed. “If you wish to go back, someone must pay the price”. Magnus spoke, elements of curiosity and worry visible in his voice, “And what would that be?”. Azazel broke into a laugh, “I want more than one memory. From one of you I want your entire memory and knowledge of the shadow world”. Izzy gasped. “Azazel please, there has to be something else you could desire from us”, Jace pleaded but it was no use. Azazel had made up his mind and it was final. No one spoke for a while, we were allowed to break the circle until we made a decision, Azazel could take form in Edom so he didn’t need to stay in the pentagram. “I’ll do it”, I whispered, too quiet for anyone to hear. “What?”, Alec asked coming closer to me. “I’ll do it”, I shouted so that everyone could hear me. Alec flipped, “NO NO NO! You’re not doing it and thats final”. “Alec if I forget about the shadow world, I forget about knowing how my parents died”. “Y/N if you do this you will be a mundane-“. I cut him off, “Alec I was a mundane for 16 years of my life”. I walked and placed a hand on his cheek, “I’ll be okay”. Jace walked closer to me, “Y/N you can’t do this, we can find another way”. “Jace we know there isn’t another way, we can’t compromise with a greater demon…You guys have been in this world way longer than me, I’ve only been here for 3 years-“. This time Alec interrupted “You’ll forget about me…you’ll forget about all of us”. He was crying, he was too upset to hide it and there wasn’t a dry eye from anyone. “Alec I will never forget you. And in my heart I will always be sure that I will never forget any of you”. I turned to face him and lifted his chin up so his eyes met mine. “I can’t express how much I love you Alec. You are my everything. But I have to do this, for me..and I can’t let anyone else do it, it’s not fair”. “I’ll do it, just please don’t do it. I need you, you’re the only person I have ever loved and you’re the one who taught me how. I can’t do any of this without you. Please Y/N”. Every word made everything harder and harder to the point where I was uncontrollably crying. “We’ll meet again Alec. I’m sure of it. We have something so special t-that it will make us find our…our way back to each other”. I tried to smile as I lifted his head up again, “And hey, we can fall in love all over again and it will be the most amazing thing”.

After we had a minute, I wiped my tears away and turned to the others to see Clary gasping for air in Jace’s arms because she was crying that bad. Jace was staring at me with tears rolling down his face and Izzy and Simon were buried into each other. Magnus stood with Clary, looking down at the floor. I moved from Alec’s side, ready to say my goodbyes.

I went to Magnus first, “Bye poppet…I will always look out for you, I promise”. “You always have”, I smiled, making my grip on our hug get tighter. “Thank you for everything Magnus, I can’t thank you enough for what you have done for me”.

Next was Clary, she went from Jace’s arms to mine, still hysterically sniffling into my shoulder. “My little ginger nut! Don’t cry, everything is going to be fine”. I held in the urge to cry will her because I knew things weren’t going to be fine, far from it. “Thank you for being the best best friend. You’ve grown so much and I’m so lucky I got to witness that. You’ve gone from the clumsy oaf that I knew from the get go that I wanted to be best friends with to one bad ass demon slayer that I am in awe over! I love you”. She pulled away, wiping her hair away from her face, “Thank you for being the best best friend a girl could ask for”. I gave her another tight hug and a kiss and then it was Jace’s turn.

He gathered me in his arms and held me tight. “Thank you so much for protecting me all these years Jace. No matter what the situation you always had my back, you don’t know how much it all meant to me”. “Hey what are big bros for”, he winked as he let me go. I always said Jace was like the big brother I never had, he was always there ready to beat someone up whenever I was upset (that included Alec sometimes).

Next up was Simon, “The only vamp that I have ever liked!”, I said with a teasing smirk, “I never saw you as a vampire Simon, you were always just Simon to me. Whatever you were none of that mattered and I want you to remember that. But if you hurt Izzy I will find you…and I will kill you”. He nodded and smiled, appreciating the ‘Taken” quote, too upset for words. I hugged him and whispered in his ear, “When you pop the question make sure you take her to a star wars marathon, it will be so romantic!”. He had been planning on proposing to Izzy after the Jonathan situation had be handled. He nodded again and stepped back so I could get to Izzy.

“Where do I start with you Iz. You were the best parabatai I could’ve ever asked for. We were one and we will forever be one. I will always cherish and I will never forget our times together, like that time we both got ridiculously drunk and stumbled into the institute and your mum was stood waiting for us and you puked all over her shoes! She was so pissed”. She eventually formed a smile and stood to give me a hug. She whispered in my ear, “We’ll be parabatai forever, no matter what”. “No matter what”, I repeated.

Alec was the last one. I looked over to where I had left him, still slumped on the floor, staring in the same place. I walked over and knelt next to him. I put my head on his shoulder and he cuddled me into his chest. “You were my first love…the first person I have ever loved…the person I will always love. I love y-you Alec Lightwood, and nothing will ever make me forget that. This isn’t the end for us”. We just sat there, in each others arms. That was until Azazel’s voice was heard again, “Have you come to a decision?”. He really was evil. Everyone stood. I kissed Alec, wrapping my hands around his neck. It was the most passionate kiss we had ever had and it felt like it lasted for hours. We broke off and formed the circle again, “You can take my memories, just get me and my friends home”. Azazel spoke a language that none of us recognised and we started to lift from the ground again. “Y/N! I LOVE YOU”. Alec screamed over the thunder. “I LOVE YOU TOO”.

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“Module 2 exam is on Monday folks so please use this weekend to revise and don’t leave it last minute, class dismissed”. I walked out of college and headed to the library to get a head start on my studying when someone walked into the side of me, knocking me and all of my books to the floor. “Hey watch where you’re going jerk!”. I shouted, picking myself up. “I’m so sorry, here let me help”. I got up and dusted the mud off my jeans. The guy stood up from picking my books up and my knees went weak. He was so tall and so gorgeous, messy dark hair and deep brown puppy dog eyes. He did an adorable smirk, obviously knowing that I was staring at him. “Th-thanks for picking my books up”. “Oh yeah no problem”, he handed me them back and our hands touched. I was freaking out on the inside but tried to keep my cool on the outside. I kept staring, it was weird. I recognised him but I had no clue who he was, “Have we ever met before? There’s just something about you that seems so familiar”. He scratched behind his head and smiled adorably, “I’m sure I would have remembered…well it was nice-“. Before I could process what I was going to say my words came out like word vomit, “Do you fancy getting some coffee sometime or something?”. The minute I said it I regretted it, he was going to turn me down and it will officially be the worst and most embarrassing moment of my life. He kept on smiling and he looked me in the eyes, “I would love to get coffee with you”. I grinned so widely that I began to think that I started to look like a serial killer. “I’m free now?”. “That’s perfect…here let me”. He took my books off me and carried them as we walked to the nearest coffee shop. “I’m Y/N by the way”. “Alec”.

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"I'm gonna kill him" -- Pt 2

After I confided in Jace he would not leave me alone. “I’m gonna go take a shower”. I wiped my eyes with the sleeve of my jumper and placed my weapons back on the rack. “C-can I use your shower, erm mines broken”. He stuttered, obviously trying to find an excuse so I didn’t have to go into that room by myself. I smiled at him showing my appreciation, “He’s in Idris until the end of the week don’t worry”. I heard the training room door open, I turned to see who it was and I immediately wish I hadn’t. It was Alec. He saw me and hesitated to come in. I looked away, tears starting to rise. “Hey Jace”, I never realised how much I missed his voice. I hadn’t spoken to him for just over a week but it honestly felt like a lifetime. Jace stuttered with his reply, obviously feeling like he was in the middle, “H-hey Alec”. “What are you doing tonight? Magnus has invited me, you, Izzy, Simon and Clary to one of his parties”. He raised his voice wanting me to hear him, wanting me to know that he still hadn’t forgiven me. I mean I couldn’t blame him. Jace huffed, “Alec…don’t blame Y/N-“. I knew he was going to tell him and Alec was the last person I wanted to know about this. I spun round to face them from the weapons rack, “JACE”, I shouted, subtly shaking my head before Alec could turn to face me. Jace saw the desperation in my eyes from across the room., “Go”. I told him, not wanting to look at Alec, “Have a nice time”. I walked out of the room with the fake smile still plastered onto my face.

I had been sat staring at the same spot for hours in my room, hair still dripping from the shower. There was a knock on the door, I flinched, “Who is it?”. I asked wearily. “It’s Izzy”. I opened the door to her and she skipped in wearing a very short sparkly dress. “Why aren’t you ready yet! We are leaving in 5 minutes!”, She frowned. I was confused for a second when I finally realised she was talking about Magnus’ party. “I’m not invited”, I said quietly, slumping back down on my bed. Izzy looked confused, “What are you talking about? I was there when Magnus invited us, you were the first name he said actually”. “Alec said…it doesn’t matter anyway, he doesn’t want me there, he’s not ready yet…and who can blame him. I don’t want to make things worse Iz”. She sat next to me on my bed and put my hand in hers. “None of this is your fault, you were forced into this, you need to stop blaming yourself”. There was a short silence in the room where I processed what she said and took it on board. This wasn’t my fault, I was forced into this, I didn’t ask for any of this and I certainly didn’t want any of this. “Now you can sit here feeling sorry for yourself or you can come out and have an amazing night with me. Forget about Alec, if he can’t understand then thats his loss. Anyway, you’ll always have the best Lightwood by your side”. She said with a wink and a smile. I pulled her into a tight hug, I was truly blessed to have heron my life, she was more to me than just my parabati.

I was finally ready. Izzy had told the others to go on without her, she didn’t want to tell them I was coming because she knew Alec would back out and then all the others would and she didn’t want that. She kept Clary behind as she knew that I would want her there as well whilst Simon drove Alec and Jace to the party as they were already late. I couldn’t wear anything revealing or anything that showed skin, only Jace knew about my bruises and I didn’t want anyone else knowing, it was my burden to bear not anyone else. I walked out in a long sleeve black top and my well worn go to black jeans with my black and white converse. I literally looked like I was just going on a mission. I grabbed my key for my room and took my phone off charge. I looked up at the two awaiting faces that were sat on my bed, “Lets go”. My face was showing one emotion: happiness. But on the inside I was feeling the complete opposite: nervous, dread, anger, regret, worry, guilt and most of all scared. I didn’t know what was going to happen tonight, with Alec and just in general. I didn’t know what was going to happen to me anymore. But no one ever noticed, I never let them see, I was a professional at hiding it all especially now.

We walked up to the entrance of Magnus’ apartment, I went to open the door, as a knock would not be heard from the volume of the music playing, but I hesitated. Izzy and Clary came to my side, “You aren’t going though this alone, you’ll be with us, don’t worry”. And with their reassuring smiles I pulled on the door handle and entered. My eyes immediately fell on Alec and Jace standing near the bar but they hadn’t noticed that we were there.

Throughout the night I just mingled. Clary had gone with Jace and Izzy had gone to Simon, I wanted them to have a good time, not just babysitting me and following me around. “Hey Y/N, congrats on your wedding! We heard about it but we haven’t seen you in the institute in days, but you are probably having your alone time with you new hubby”. I had never seen her before but obviously the news had be travelling round, I felt sick to my stomach with what everyone was saying. It was the 500th conversation I had had about the marriage in the last hour alone, I just smiled and tried to find a corner to go sit in but she clung onto my arm, “Your hubster is in the other room if you are looking for him”. My eyes went wide and panic took over my body completely. “W-what do you mean? He’s in Idris!”. I stuttered but the music was too loud for her to hear me so she just turned back to her friends and continued dancing. The whole room started to feel like it was swinging left to right, I looked around frantically. I wanted to find someone. Jace, Izzy, Simon…just anyone. I saw Magnus and Dot out on the balcony, I started to go towards them when I was grabbed and shoved into the nearest room. From the force of the push I fell onto the floor of what I assumed was Magnus’ room because of the glittery curtains and sparkly duvet. This action was all too familiar, it was him. I looked up as he was closing and locking the door. “Are you telling people things about me?!”, he screamed. “No”, I couldn’t even look him in the eye, I was terrified. I wanted someone to hear him but it was impossible, the music was way too loud for anyone to hear anything. “Then do tell me why Jace Herondale has asked the clave for a meeting concerning me, and please do explain why he has asked for my private and personal files to be transferred from my old institute to New York’s!”. I wasn’t annoyed at Jace, I knew he was doing this all for me and he wanted to protect me, I just wish he had warned me about it and gave me a heads up on what he was doing. I could have prepared myself for the consequences. “Why don’t you go and ask him and leave me alone!”, I hissed back. I had mixed emotions, I wanted to show that I wasn’t afraid even though I was terrified and that I wasn’t affected by what he was doing even though I was broken. Completely broken. “You’re a liar. Do you know what happens to liars”. He pulled out a well lit seraph blade dagger, “They get punished”. I went to run towards the door but my face collided with his fist instead. I was out cold.

••••

“Have you seen Y/N?”, Izzy carefully but quickly ran up to Clary, Jace and Alec in her heels with Simon following her. Alec rolled his eyes but Izzy just dismissed it, she knew he was being childish. Both Clary and Jace shook their heads. “Y/N’s probably hooking up with William, he wasn’t even invited why the hell would Y/N bring him”. Alec said with a hint of jealousy. Jace choked on his drink, his eyes were wide and he started to look worried. “WHAT! William is here!? He’s meant to be in Idris”. Everyone looked confused on why Jace was so bothered. “Y/N didn’t want me to say anything, I only found out this morning and (s)he didn’t want me to say anything to anyone. I wanted to kill him-“. Alec cut him off, “JACE! Get on with it!”. “William is abusive. I was in the training room and you should have seen all the bruises and cuts. They were serious and some were deep, he’s very dangerous”. Alec was guilty and furious, “Why the hell didn’t you say anything to us, Y/N’s life could be in danger!”. Jace looked at the floor disappointedly, “He was meant to be in Idris for the week, I was setting up meetings with the Clave to see if I could get him transferred to another institute whilst he was away so Y/N didn’t have to face him and get hurt by that monster ever again. He wasn’t meant to be back”. Alec was about to respond when Izzy yelled out in pain. Simon ran to her side, “Babe what’s up?!”. She clung on to her arm and gritted her teeth, “It’s Y/N, something’s wrong”. Alec’s voice was shaky and filled with dread, “What are we waiting for!!”.

The group frantically searched and asked Magnus to clear the guests out ASAP and within 5 minutes the apartment was just filled with scattered empty red cups and pizza crusts. Magnus went to slide his bedroom door open to find that it was locked, he frantically twisted his hands around with blue waves coming from them but his magic didn’t budge the door. “THEY’RE IN HERE”, he shouted for everyone to come to him. Jace bashed on the door, “Y’N, YOU IN THERE!”. But there was no answer. “You won’t hear anything, the bedroom walls are soundproof”, Magnus admitted, if it wasn’t such a bad situation there would be a few chuckles and wide eyes from everyone. “Magnus why can’t you open the door?!”, Clary asked whilst helping Jace pull on the handle. “It’s been locked from the inside by a rune, my magic isn’t useful against that”. Izzy was still in pain, a lot of pain which was only half of what Y/N was going through. Simon stood by her, keeping her up right, feeling useless. Clary grabbed her stele, “Jace, Alec get back…NOW!”. She had only just discovered that she had new powers that created runes, more powerful than any others. She thought for a moment and closed her eyes and then once she got the picture her arm didn’t stop. Waves, circles and all kinds of shapes and the door came flying open.

••••

He was on top of me, his knees pinning one arm down whilst he did something with the other. It hadn’t been long since I regained consciousness and I really wish I hadn’t. The pain was incredible and there was no sign of it stopping. I was screaming out and crying, hoping that someone would find me but I knew that was unlikely. My hearing started to go and I was drifting in and out of consciousness, my eye sight was going blurry which I assumed was because of the excruciating pain, my body couldn’t take it anymore. Suddenly there was a massive bang and the sliding door nearly flew off the hinges. He got off me and that’s when I realised how much pressure was on top of my chest that I hadn’t felt. The first person I saw was Alec and the minute I did I felt so much better, that was until the punches were thrown. Izzy came running to my side, trying to talk to me but it was just a bunch of noise, I couldn’t hear anything properly which scared me. She looked down at my arm, the source of most of the pain, and her face dropped. I looked down and that’s when I saw it. That’s when I saw what he had done to me. Then everything went black.

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Date Night (Matthew Daddario x reader)

It was date night. Me and Matt had no scenes left today so we thought we’d take advantage. It wasn’t just going to be just us, we were going for a meal with Dom and Sarah as Dom over heard me and Matt talk about it in his trailer and invited himself. We had no problem with that but it just would have been nice to spend time with each other as it was hard to do with work.

Dom drove us all to the fancy restaurant Sarah had recommended, The Grove. Everything was great. We laughed. We told embarrassing stories. Even though I love Dom and Sarah I just wanted to be alone with Matt desperately.

Me and Sarah had had a few too many to drink so we were both giddy and fun. Dom didn’t have anything to drink as he was driving and Matt didn’t drink. “I think we need to get these two home don’t you think?” Dom asked Matt whilst laughing at the state of us. “Is it okay if me and Y/N walk?” Matt asked whilst grinning as I spilt my drink a little. Dom nodded and furrowed his eyebrows as a definite yes as he took a drink of his water. “Of course you can”.

We walked down the streets of LA. With beeps and honking and police sirens all in the distance. The air had sobered me up a little, but I could tell I was still a little tipsy. Linking, Matt kept me up straight. We walked towards the river on the east side and admired the view. There was a street singer on the corner of the street. He pulled me close to him as it was a little chilly and he did that adorable smirk that made my knees weak. We danced stupidly and horribly, justifying our extremely bad dance moves with laughter, but it was romantic. I loved every second of it.

As we walked home he saw that I was shivering and freezing as I didn’t come out with a coat as it was like 90 degrees at the start of the night. I felt a warm embrace which was his coat. He stood in a thin t shirt wrapping his coat around me, I threw my arms around his torso to try and keep him warm. We eventually got back to my place and as soon as he shut the door and jumped up into his arms and kissed him passionately. I loved him so much.

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"I'm gonna kill him" -- Pt 1

Imagine – You are forced into an arranged marriage “We need this Y/N. Our family needs it”. My mother spoke, standing in front of me at her desk with my father. They wanted me to marry this wealthy Shadowhunter that came from a well known family tree. “And what happens to what I want?”. I said, not lifting my head to look at them. “Oh don’t be so selfish! We have given you wonderful opportunities and have gotten you so far in this institute, you owe this to us”. My mother snapped. My father blinked nervously until he spoke, “Anyway it’s done. He’s coming to the institute tomorrow where you will be married immediately. Everything will be set up, you just have to show up, do you think you could do that?”, he was so patronising. I glared at them but there was nothing I could do. I had to do this for my family, “Just tell me the time and I’ll be there”. I walked out of their office to be greeted by Izzy and Clary walking down the corridor, “Hey, what was that emergency meeting all about?”, Izzy asked whilst both of them linked each of my arms. I was training with her when I got ushered to my parents. “Oh just stupid family drama, wanna go into town for drinks?”, I asked the both of them needing one last night out with my girls before my freedom would be taken away. “Of course, give us half an hour and we’ll be ready!”. They both ran off to get all dolled up whilst I just went back to my room. I sat on my bed and just went over what my parents had said to me, ‘Don’t be so selfish’. I’ve been everything but selfish. I have always put everyone before myself. A knock snapped me out of my thoughts. I got up to answer it, “Izzy I thought you said half an-”. I opened the door to Alec. “Sorry I thought you might have been Izzy and Clary”. I held the door open and motioned for him to come in. “So what can I help you with?”. Me and Alec had been close for a while, we had a flirty relationship, it was playful, we knew we both liked each other. “Erm…this sounds stupid but I was wondering if you wanted to go out tonight…for dinner…just me and you?”. I was so happy, the big grin on my face supported this. “Alec I would-“, then I remembered. “but I can’t”, I didn’t want to tell anyone of the marriage yet. “I’m going out with Clary and Izzy tonight around town”. I saw the disappointment on his face which broke me. “But you can come too, you can bring Jace and Simon as well if you want”. His famous smirk was now visible, obviously pleased with the invitation. “Sounds great, I’ll go get the others”. He left, grazing my arm with his hand as he walked past. I walked over to my wardrobe looking at the options for me to wear. I wasn’t in a mood to make an effort so black jeans and a T it was. I lay down and waited for someone to come and get me. The next thing I knew I opened my eyes to Jace leaning over me at my bedside. “Finally! I’ve been shouting you for like 10 minutes!”. I sat up and let my eyes adjust. “I’m sorry I must have dozed off”. Jace looked at me worriedly, “What is wrong with you lately?”. “I’m just exhausted, and stressed with all the mission reports I’m so behind on. The clave is on my back a lot these past few weeks”. “Well we don’t have to go out tonight we can always-“. I cut him off, “NO no….I need this”. He nodded with a look of concern and put an arm around me as we walked to go and meet the others. We arrived at the club. I walked in with Clary and Izzy by my side whilst the other guys followed us in as we had more experience with mundane clubs. Three hours, 7 shots, 4 vodka & cokes and a bottle of Malibu later….lets just say I was a little more than tipsy. We were all sat in a booth on the far side of the club right next to the dance floor. Jace and Clary were in the middle of a make out session whilst Simon was watching star wars on his phone as Izzy had passed out with her legs across Simon and her head on my lap. Me and Alec were talking…well, he was talking, I was slurring, although I could feel the room gradually starting to spin slower. Then all of a sudden Alec kissed me. It was long, passionate and so overdue. The second we pulled apart my lips did something before my brain could think about it. “I’m getting married tomorrow”. My eyes were still closed from the kiss and they stayed closed for a few more seconds as I was scared to see what his reaction would be. All of a sudden I felt completely sober. I opened my eyes and regretted it immediately. He looked heartbroken, confused, vulnerable and angry. All those emotions were showing on one face and I was the reason why. Before I could say anything else he was gone, running out of the club faster than I’ve ever seen someone move. “ALEC-“, I called out but the music was too loud and he was too far away, he wouldn’t have even come back even if he did hear me. Jace must have heard me though as he broke apart from Clary and chased after Alec. I looked down at my lap, tears fell from my face and onto Izzy but she was dead to the world to notice. When I looked up I saw Clary and Simon look at me with an expression that said ‘you have some explaining to do’. I woke up in Clary’s room. She didn’t want to be on my own because of the state I was in last night, drunk and hysterical. After Simon took Izzy back to his I cried to Clary trying to get everything out whilst I still could. She was so supportive and was furious with what I was forced into but she understood that I felt like I had to do it, not for me but for my family. Jace had text Clary late last night to tell her he was back at the institute with Alec. They had just walked around the streets he said in the text and just talked. Alec had told Jace about the marriage, Clary explained it to Jace over the phone in which he told Alec but Jace was still pissed with me and Alec was still harbouring the same feelings from last night. “They’ll both understand soon enough”. Clary must have noticed me staring into space and she must have knew that I was worrying about it all. I nodded. “What time is it?”. She checked her phone, “9:30 AM”. I jumped up out of the bed and raced to the door, “I was meant to be in the chapel half an hour ago!”. I ran into the chapel to find my mother pacing and my father talking to the silent brother who would be initiating the wedding. “I’m sorry, I was out late and I lost track of time this morning”. My mother walked towards me, “Enough with your excuses!”. I felt the tears build up behind my eyes threatening to run down my cheeks but I fought them back. She dragged me to the front of the room where I was met by my father and the silent brother. As I stood not listening to a word they were saying the door swung open. I clenched my jaw in anticipation for my future partner to walk in but to my relief it was Clary, Simon and Izzy. I hadn’t asked them to come and I didn’t want them to but right now I knew I really needed them. A tear escaped as I smiled at them. They sat at the very back not wanting to disturb any family business. Since what felt like forever I finally felt relaxed knowing that whatever happened today I had people who truly loved me just a couple of footsteps away. Then the door opened again and suddenly my anxiety went from 0 to 100 real fast. In he walked, the person I presumed I was getting married off to. The closer he came the more I realised he wasn’t the worst looking, I mean he was kinda cute; dark hair, tall, skinny yet muscle-y…I was literally describing Alec. Did this mean I had a type? No one could compare to how I felt about Alec. He was the one I truly wanted to be with, but my feelings didn’t matter. The vows had been said, the runes had been drawn and the rings had been given. The wedding was over. Everyone dispersed until there was just me at the front of the room. Still stood in the place I had been stood throughout. My freedom had been taken…my future had been written. As I watched my family leave I let my guard down and all tears rushed out. Clary, Simon and Izzy raced to me. I didn’t know what to do anymore or what would happen to me now. For the first time in my life I felt lost and had no idea what I was going to do. After the wedding I had gone straight to my room. The others wanted me to hang out with them so I could take my mind off of things for a few hours but I just wanted to be alone. I jumped straight in the shower and just stood there for what felt like hours under the hot water. I eventually got out and started to get changed when I heard noises coming from outside the bathroom door. I walked out, expecting to see Izzy gathering clothes so I could come and escape to Simon’s place with them but it wasn’t. It was my hubby…William I think his name was. I payed no attention throughout the ceremony so I avoided saying his name during the vows. “What are you doing?”. I asked as he was putting everything from my room into boxes. He looked back at me with what I can only describe as disgust on his face. “You are to be moved into my room on the East wing, if we want to make this believable”. The minute he turned back around anger rushed through me. How dare he come in here. How dare he take my things and look at me like that. I walked over to him and started unpacking all of my stuff. “I’m not moving anywhere, my things are staying in this room and so am I”. I didn’t look at him. It felt good, it felt like I was getting control back over my life. This feeling stopped when he spun me around and slapped me across the face. His force was so strong that it knocked me to the ground. He grabbed the remaining boxes and left the room. I just lay there. Shocked at what had just happened. I eventually composed myself and headed towards William’s wing, as I didn’t want to find out what would happen if I stayed in my room, when I bumped into Clary. She gasped and touched the side of my face, “Oh my god what did you do?”. I know she didn’t mean to say it the way I took it and she had no idea what had happened but all I heard coming from her voice was her saying it was my fault. Maybe it was my fault. “Oh I was just stupid and hit my head on my bedside table from my nap before”. I didn’t want people to know and start gossiping. The wedding had already made me the topic of conversation on every mission so this would just make things worse. She just laughed, “What are you like!”. Then she left. I was just stood in an empty corridor. •5 DAYS PASSED• I gently pulled on an oversized jumper, for the purpose of no one seeing my bruises, and my sweatpants. I hadn’t spoken to anyone for days. I hadn’t even left the room in days because I couldn’t bare to see people so they could congratulate me on my wonderful new marriage, but I knew I had to train. As I got to the training room I saw that half of the room was already occupied by Jace. Just him and a punch bag. I hadn’t spoken to him since the night at the bar, as well as Alec. He saw me walk in, rolled his eyes and carried on punching. I grabbed my throwing knives and my seraph blade and went over to the dummies to practise my fighting skills. After an hour Jace came over and threw a duel stick towards my feet, “Lets go”. The way he said it was so cold. I picked up the stick and walked to the centre of the room where he was stood and without being ready he struck the back of my legs and I fell to the ground. I gasped loudly and Jace looked at me like I was being dramatic but the pain was more than it usually was. “How could you do it? How could you hurt him like that?”. I slowly got back to my feet and steadied myself, “I didn’t want any of this to happen! I had to do this, my parents-“. He cut me off. “NO”, he yelled. “There was no excuse, everyone has a choice and you chose to break my brothers heart. That night you told him at the club I could feel his heartbreak, there’s just no excuse for that”. “HEY”, this time I yelled which threw him off guard. “I love Alec…so much”, tears started to build up and a lump was lodged in my throat. “I wanted to be with him and the night he asked me out was one of the happiest moments of my life. But no one understands. No one understands the pressure I was under”. I couldn’t hold back anymore and the tears fell. Jace was stood looking down at the floor, silent. I began to walk away when he gabbed my wrist. I screamed and fell down because of the pain. Jace stood back in shock not knowing what he had done. He knelt down beside me, “What is with you today? And why are you dressed like winter for training”. I caressed my wrist, he pulled my sleeve up and saw all the bruises. He pulled up my other sleeve where more were hidden. “Where the hell did you get these from?!”. I quickly got out of his grip and pulled down my sleeves and stood up. I turned my back to him, “T-they’re from m-my missions”. I stuttered, not knowing what excuse seemed best. “No they’re not because I’m always on your missions and we haven’t had one since last week, these are new bruises”. A new set of tears came to the surface and when I turned to face him and he noticed. “Is he hurting you?”. At first I didn’t say anything, I just looked at the floor refusing to make eye contact with him. But the second I looked into his eyes I started hysterically crying and that’s when he knew. He immediately came to my side and gently pulled my into a hug. It felt good to get it off my chest. After what felt like an hour he loosened he grip. “I’m gonna kill him”. He was began to walk off but I ran in front of him pleading not to. “Please don’t! Please Jace”. “Give me one good reason not to”. “Because if he knows I’ve told people then I’m dead Jace. He lashes out when the tiniest things happen, so god only knows what he’s going to do if you beat him!”. He nodded, hands still in tight fists but he understood.

[shadowfics]

Fallen Angels (Alec x Reader)

Imagine: Dying in Alec's arms

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 I was sat at my desk typing up reports from previous missions I''d been on that week for the clave when Izzy and Clary skipped up to me. "Come on you workaholic we've got a mission", Izzy teased. I finished typing up my last report when Jace and Alec walked in. 'Y/N!". Jace called wanting me to follow them. I tidied my desk up and joined them all at the weapons station. "So what is it this time? Rogue ravener demons causing havoc with downworlders?", I asked enthusiastically with a hint of sarcasm. That was all our missions were lately, nothing new and nothing fun. "Actually no", Clary smiled handing me my throwing knives and my seraph blade, "Valentine's men this time terrorising the wolf pack and vampires at the Hotel Dumort". She rolled her eyes at the mention of Valentine's name. I raised my eyebrows in surprise that something exciting was finally happening. "Are you sure you wanna go on this one Y/N?". Alec asked, looking slightly worried and concerned. I rolled my eyes, "I'll be fine Alec, plus I've learnt from the best", I winked at him which brought a smirk to his face. We all walked down the busy street, it was Friday night so we ended up walking past a load of drunk young mundanes who wolf whistled at me as I was walking in front of all the others. "Hey pretty eyes, why don't you come in for a drink", one of the youths said totally under the influence. He began to walk beside me. "Not my type but thanks", I said with a sassy attitude. "Come on baby", he said as he put his arm around my waist. "HEY", a loud voice came booming from behind me. I stopped and turned to find Alec pushing past Jace to get to us. "Take the hint". The drunken mundane squared up to Alec, "Yeah and who are you?". Alec didn't hesitate to step closer to him. "I'm the one that's gonna put you down if you don't shut your mouth". The intoxicated man threw a punch towards Alec but with Alec's on point reflexes he dodged it. "WOW!", I screamed standing in between both of them as I knew Alec was getting worked up. "Just go back to your friends", I pushed the guy back towards the line of the club and carried on walking. I stopped and turned back towards Alec, "Thanks for that by the way", I don't know why but I couldn't help but smile. He scratched the back of his head, "D-Don't worry about it". Jace laughed in the background and Alec elbowed him in the ribs. I walked on with the girls, smiling all the way to our destination. We eventually arrived at Hotel Dumort where the last report of Valentine's men had been made and we made our way in. It was deadly silent inside until a loud screeching scream came from upstairs. The building was that old that the echo of the noise threatened to make everything collapse. We quietly yet quickly ran through the building until we got to the source of the scream. Alec stood in front of me with his arm protecting me as we walked nearer to the screams. We all stopped to make a plan. "Why don't I go in and distract them? I mean they are looking for me because they think I have the cup, so they won't kill me". I tried to put my idea across and everyone agreed and liked it apart from Alec. "You aren't offering yourself up as bait, I-I won't let you". "Alec nothing bad is going to happen, I'll just talk to them. Just let me do this, why are you always so protective of me anyway". I had be wondering for weeks what was wrong with Alec as he had been acting weirdly around me. "He's crushing on you", Jace smirked before getting punched in the arm both sides by Clary and Izzy whilst he got death glares from Alec. A wide smile crept onto my face and before I could think about it my lips were on his. It was quick but it was definitely passionate. I heard Izzy squeal with excitement. "Not to break this fairytale up but we are sort of on a mission", Jace said as he pulled out his seraph blade. I pulled away, getting thrown back into reality of where we were. I began to walk towards the entrance of the room to be the bait when Alec pulled me back by my arm, he hesitated but then spoke, "Good luck". "Thanks, I'm a badass remember", I winked at him and he replied with his famous smirk. Alec actually liked me, I'm not sure the clave would be happy about it but I certainly was. I walked into the room slowly but with a smile on my face which probably wasn't the best idea as I had to look the part. When I walked in I saw 4 of Valentine's men surrounding 2 very weak vampires. The 2 vamps were badly beaten and had been cut in all kinds of different places so they had lost quite a lot of blood. "If this isn't breaking the accords then I don't know what is". They all jumped at the sound of my voice as they had their back turned to me. One man spoke first, "Y/N, have you decided to give us the cup". "What would happen if I didn't give you the cup exactly?", I asked whilst looking around the room confidently. "We'll kill you, or we'll give Valentine himself the pleasure of doing it and take it from us that won't end pretty". "Okay so here's the thing, I'm not gonna give you the cup but this is what's gonna happen, you're gonna let those vamps go and you're gonna go and tell Valentine that he seriously needs to rethink some of his strategies". I put so much sass into it that I even convinced myself that I was confident. I walked closer to where they were and realised I knew the 2 vamps sat bloody in the corner, "Oh my God, Simon!.....Raphael". "Let them go now!! They have no part in this, this is between shadowhunters not downworlders. Let them go.....or else". The confidence that was once shown in my voice was replaced with panic and vulnerability. "Or else what? Its 4 against 1, what are you gonna do". "Who said there was only 1", Alec announced but I couldn't see him. I drew my seraph blade carefully, not taking my eyes off the 4 men. Then suddenly an arrow shot from the shadows behind me and hit the main man, however it wasn't enough for it to knock him down. Jace, Clary, Izzy and Alec came from all directions and stood with me. I drew my throwing knives and aimed one at one of the men, and down he went. "I'll go get Simon and Raphael, cover me", I informed the others. Jace and Alec fought one of the men and Izzy and Clary fought another. I ran over to Simon and started untying him. "Are you okay?". He just nodded with half open eyes. Raphael started shouting with wide eyes but I couldn't tell what he was saying because he was gagged. Then I felt a hand grab the back of my neck, swinging me onto the floor. It was the third guy. The one with the arrow still stuck in his chest. The main man. Before I could pick my seraph blade up he kicked it across the room. I looked him dead in the eye and he looked back with a sinister smile on his face. I raced to my feet and began to run to my blade but he grabbed my arm back pulling me towards him. Then I felt excruciating pain travel all the way through my body. I screamed. Everything started to go blurry because of the extent of the pain but I saw the man fall down, this time with 3 arrows in his chest. I began to fall which felt like slow motion but I never hit the floor, instead I found myself being caught by someone. Alec. "Oh my God Y/N, It's okay, you're gonna be okay". He looked so shocked and all colour had been drained from his face. I began to gasp for air, the pain was getting lighter and lighter and my vision was going in and out. I looked down and saw the hole a blade had left in my stomach. Alec's hand was putting pressure on it but I knew it was doing no good. I knew there was no getting out of this and this was going to be the last time I would see Alec. "Alec, I love you. I've loved you since the first time we met. You're the most kind hearted person I know....don't let anyone say any different". I whispered the words as I was too weak. "You're gonna make it, you're gonna be fine. Izzy we need to take Y/N back to the institute....the infirmary now". Izzy just stood helplessly, crying into Jace's shoulder who also had Clary on the other side doing the same, she knew it was too late to do anything and so did Alec. Alec looked down at me, "Please don't leave me Y/N, I need you, I love you". I tried to give him a reassuring smile, "You'll be okay, I'll always love-", I couldn't finish my sentence and as I took my last breath a tear ran down my cheek. Alec began to sob as Jace joined him on the floor to comfort him whilst Clary and Izzy cried into each other. Simon and Raphael remained in their corner, too stunned to move.