shake-the-grey - Tumblr blog

[shake-the-grey]

turns out banging it out in my boyfriend’s semi is a 10/10 way to spend an evening

[shake-the-grey]

my gramma would have good advice for my situation and i'll never get to hear it

[shake-the-grey]

might be single before the summer is over!!! oh boy

[shake-the-grey]

when u ask your partner of almost 2 years to move in with you next year and they say no

[shake-the-grey]

fairly certain i just really fucked things up

[shake-the-grey]

love being Dropped as a friend and not knowing why!

[shake-the-grey]

i was doing so good with weight loss/maintaining my weight but last summer i started gaining again and now I've gained back 15 pounds and my shitty 31 year old bod doesn't respond to diets and exercise unless I'm starving myself or exercising like 4 times a day. but I'm too mentally ill and sad abt getting fatter again and i just want to lie on the floor and eat a rice krispie treats :(

[shake-the-grey]

GAY STUFF

i literally don’t know what to do with myself, my boyfriend is so fucking good to me and does everything he can to keep me going. he checks in with me to make sure i’m eating because he sees my ed bullshit (and he doesn’t like....make me feel shitty about it? which i didn’t know was possible lmao. like he offered to use his tax return to take me to a nutritionist and i burst into tears wow), he’s so reassuring and supportive when i’m working 10+ hours almost every goddamn day and went through a shift change (and now i only get to see him ~twice a week!!!!) and he doesn’t judge me for anything at all i really can’t handle it sometimes, wtf is this healthy relationship shit it is so very unlike me

also he like...listens when i start talking (read: ranting) about oppressive systems. like...guys this str8 Actively Listens about homophobia and misogyny and transphobia and all the other shit ingrained in everything, he doesn’t fucking get defensive when i call him on casual -isms and when i point out something homophobic in a movie or whatever he always pauses and considers it before asking a thoughtful question so that he can understand more and learn to recognize it himself i just...have never experienced this before in my life

AND a few weeks ago he surprised me with tickets to a science center which we went to this past friday, and when we got there i went fuckin buck wild and freaked out about space and microorganisms all day and had to touch ALL THE INTERACTIVE THINGS and every time i turned around he was looking at me with a doofy smile and my heart was exploding i can’t believe i tricked somebody into loving my stupid dweeb ass

he’s just so genuinely good i can’t believe i’m dating the only good cishet dude that has ever lived

[shake-the-grey]

lol fuckkkkkkk

lol fuck

[shake-the-grey]

lol fuck

[shake-the-grey]

guess who's sad

[shake-the-grey]

get u a freak who will have pun-offs with you

[shake-the-grey]

i feel like i had forgotten how to be in love, but that just means everything gets to be New and good

[shake-the-grey]

gained 10 lbs in 3 months….time to stop eating again lmao

[shake-the-grey]

i wish my boyfriend was a girl lmao

[shake-the-grey]

i like my boyfriend a lot but when i'm with him i spend a lot of time thinking about women and nb people and just generally gay shit lol...... what's up w that

[shake-the-grey]

getting an iud put in this week and all i hear abt them is how painful they hurt when installed (maybe the wrong word) but like... come thru magic copper fetus kryptonite