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apathy towards my own life

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is the bus still running?

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eternal passion

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i will always choose you

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it’s okay to be human

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im grateful for every single moment i existed this year and thankful i get to go into 2025 made out of who i have become in 2024

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James Baldwin: From Another Place (Sedat Pakay, 1973)

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a lot of my life is spent looking at the future and worrying about how things will be, while the other half of my life is spent looking at the past wondering how things could’ve been. not much of me— not enough of me, focuses on the thing that matters most, the things that are happening to me right now. the past is unchanging, and the future is unknowing, the only thing i can impact is the present that i live in right now

and in this present, i chose to make the most out of everything i have made of the past, in order to craft my perfect future, and live my present today. a today where i am liberated from the outside evils that plagued me, expedited from the internal evils that plagued me more. my mindset will now forever be, yet somehow has always been set on liberation, set on focus, set on power, on freedom, on love, on joy, gratuity, friendship, thankfulness.

my mindset is set on me.

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Edith Södergran, from Love & Solitude: The Selected Poems of E. S.; "The Moon's Secret,"

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i cant wait for august

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I know it's scary. That's part of it.

I Saw the TV Glow (2024) dir. Jane Schoenbrun

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no bc it's not too late. i found your heart, it's still beating. there's still time. come with me. life doesn't have to feel this way. it's not supposed to feel this way. the person you want to be, the person you're capable of becoming has been inside you this whole time. look inside, open up; you're not hollow or empty you are full of life and love and color and everything you thought you could be and so much more. and it's not too late. you can still find yourself. there's still time. you're not gone. your heart is still beating. but you're dying. you're dying slowly, and quickly. and time isn't right. and you're so much more than this. you were so much more than this. you ARE so much more than this. you can escape. we can escape. you don't have to be alone, none of us do. we can be free and ourselves, away from the shackles of where we're once held ourselves, of where other people kept us. there's still time. but time is moving fast. and time is moving slow. time is moving constantly. everything is shifting, moving. nothing is stagnant. except for you. but you don't have to be. you are everything. you are nothing if you don't try to be. you are whole. and you are wonderful. and you could be everything you could've ever dreamt of. and there is still time

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I Saw the TV Glow (2024)