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“I no longer wait, I live.”

— Rosario Castellanos, tr. by Magda Bogin, from “The Joyful Mysteries,”

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Put me on your wish list 💋

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Driving I-65 from Louisville to Bowling Green on a summer night

Taken August 2018

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“It is vain to wish for happiness this year, but essential to work to construct it. Wish for nothing, but accomplish something. Do not wait for a destiny built from start to finish by others, when that destiny is still in our hands. Maintain the force and the lucidity necessary for forging your own well-being and dignity.”

— Final editorial from Le Soir Républicain, a paper Albert Camus wrote for, dated January 1st, 1940. Quote taken from Looking for the Stranger by Alice Kaplan. (via acknowledgetheabsurd)

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Okay like I know this is controversial but some transmasc ppl (including myself) actually dress feminine/in drag as a defense mechanism/coping tool. Like yeah, in an ideal world I’d dress as and pass as male but I don’t have the resources to do that - I probably never will - and so I almost solely try and dress masc in the comfort of my own home where I don’t have to worry about every detail and feminine feature being scrutinized for it. 

But like, when I go out or post online I am gonna be scrutinized for my gender presentation regardless of what it is, and sometimes (most of the time) it’s a lot easier to deal w ppl thinking I’m girl and be able to say “Oh it’s because I’m wearing lipstick. They’re just closed minded about gender roles.” rather than having to tear my body and being apart even more than usual to guess what the tell was and deal with all the emotional hell I put myself through for not being able to do anything to fix it

Like yeah I like fashion but it’s also a defense mechanism the same way when someone says “oh we’re out of blueberry muffins” a lot of people go “oh I didn’t really want them much anyways” or the same way if someone asks you if you were going to a costume party it sucks a lot more if you’re wearing an outfit you really like and tried to look good in than yknow, a costume. And yeah, there’s lots of reasons trans people can dress like their assigned birth gender (safety, comfort, money, survival, just for fun) but this is another to add to the list many people forget about and/or choose to ignore

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My heart is so tired.

Markus Zusak, The Book Thief (via wordsnquotes)

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Eric Lee-Johnson 

Peter Lee-Johnson and Jenny Lee-Johnson, Northland, c1958

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The creative person is both more primitive and more cultivated, more destructive, a lot madder and a lot saner, than the average person.

Frank Barron  (via wordsnquotes)

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I want you but In a new way It feels like some Things will never Change

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Sometimes the memory of someone is better than the reality of them.

Steve Maraboli (via thelovejournals)

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Now that I have nothing to lose, I have nothing left to say.

sashimiplatter, “empty & fearless” (via wordsnquotes)

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Fuck you

I hate love. Wish id never even heard that stupid word.

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Robert Rauschenberg, Erased De Kooning Drawing, 1953. Recto and verso. “Frame is part of drawing.”