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catfish

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I feel like I gotta ask especially after the quiz. Can you match a sleep token song to each Vanbro?

Anon I am so DELIGHTED you asked because now I get to praise the brilliant geniuses that are tumblr users @shardminds and @damedechance who get ALL the credit for the sleep token & taylor swift questions, respectively, on the quiz. They put the songs together for me WITH the most fitting lyrics (!! 🥹) I was genuinely screaming cause they all fit so perfectly WELL

Now behold — my favorite band x my favorite characters, courtesy of beautiful perfect beloved @shardminds who has never once had a bad take in their whole entire life:

Lucien

the night does not belong to god (and you remember everything / only 'til the sun recedes once again / and the night comes down like heaven)

granite (you gave me nothing whatsoever but a reason to leave / you say you want me but you know i'm not what you need / but i am)

Eris

higher ('cause you can remember / only when you're alone / i am granting you more / than the debt that i owe)

caramel (up on the dice, but low on the cards, i try not to talk about how it's harder now)

look to windward (you pray for sound and i pray for silence / damn right faithless, I can't deny / you'll find me with half a mind to get violent)

Marcel

hypnosis (you know you hypnotise me always)

nazareth (dripping from the open mouth i'll show you/what you look like from the inside)

vore (your flesh and bone welcome me in / are you in pain like i am?)

like that (fall into your eyes like a grave / bury me to the sound of your name)

Vermilion

gethsemane (what might be good for your heart / might not be good for your head)

atlantic (so flood me like atlantic, weather me to nothing / wash away the blood on my hands)

when the party's over (i've learned to lose, you can't afford to)

the offering (but i know you've got a taste / so just take a bite of me)

Sylas

even in arcadia (no matter how we feel / we've got a taste for one another and a few good years to kill)

ascentionism (you're gonna watch me ascend)

Perses

chokehold (i come as a blade / a sacred guardian / so you keep me sharp and test my worth in blood)

infinite baths (well i have fought so long to be here / i am never going back)

Ulric

descending (you come crawling back to me / but i'm already on the ground)

jaws (show me those pretty white jaws, show me where the delicate stops / show me what you've lost, and why you're always taking it slow / show me what wounds you've got, and show me love)

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Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Spread the self-love ❤

aaaa thank you so much for the ask! and i’m sorry it took so long!! i started answering this when i got it but i’m gonna be so real, i spent the best part of the last 7 days sleeping in fields, dancing in mosh pits, and sunbathing through cider induced delusions — a good festival, all in all. please forgive me for my absence and for leaving this in my drafts for so long!!

SO THE LIST!!!

corpse until sunrise (with the loml @damedechance) — it’s the perfect combination of creepy and unsettling matched with disgustingly filthy smut and delicious themes of loneliness, connection and love vs obsession. truly we outdid ourselves there. we did a reread recently and WOOOO! it still hits. i am a corpse enjoyer above all else. if no one loves corpse then marissa and i are dead.

tiny fists — spn baby jack fics went off actually… i might actually reread this one now.

pencil skirt — i know it’s not finished… it’s amazing regardless. baby’s first try at an office au and also outright comedy in a fic.

full moon, white honey — this whole world makes me want to gnaw my own leg off. bark bark bark grrrrrrr!! i can’t wait to get back into this world again! it won’t be elucien centric next time but i will get a little more fucked up with it. god willing.

he shoots me here — i love my pretentious poetry (also spn!!)

🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

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nothing more humbling than trying to write cunt accurate eris dialogue

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Would you ever make a ‘which Vanserra bro is your mate’ quiz because like… I want to know lol

THANK YOU, Anon, for the beautiful brilliant idea! The quiz is now live below — please please please show me your results if you want to play! The details of the quiz are below, but if you're impatient like me:

→ 🍂 TAKE THE QUIZ HERE 🍂 ←

The quiz includes my Vanserra OCs: Sylas, Marcel, Vermilion, Perses, and Ulric, as well as canon brothers Eris and Lucien!

Reblog this post with your results or tag me! I hope you have fun and enjoy yourself as much as I did making this quiz. Special thank you to @damedechance and @shardminds for helping me brainstorm the questions and being my musical muses <3

Note: Sylas, Marcel, Vermilion, Perses and Ulric are my OCs; please do not use them in any works, thank you!

A couple of notes on the quiz!

There are 27 questions in total. The quiz is designed to take 10-15 minutes, but it can be shorter/longer than that!

Some answers have multiple brothers assigned to them, so you don't have to worry about always choosing an option dedicated to just one result!

Some of the questions have implied NSFW content. Please be mindful upon entering the quiz!

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. look to windward

[ finished a new illustration - inspired by Sleep Token's album Even in Arcadia and artist Franz von Bayros's illustrations for Dante's Inferno. mixed media: pencil, ink, digital illustration ]

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Me @ you

in PRIDE month?

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Acotar propaganda I'm not falling for:

- Azriel isn't a weird little guy.

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‘dawn’ by richard siken

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SHCHSHDJCJFS SORRY I JUST SAW MY BELOVED HA-HD and got so distracted. Can I be greedy and also ask for aural conditions… for… normal reasons?

you KNOW ha,hd is the baby but let me tell you... azrhys...

the WHOLE thing about aural conditions is that... aha... azriel works away a lot, from all over the world and the one (1) constant in his life—aside from living out of his suitcase, a passport full of stamps from trips he can't remember, and never seeming to actually be a tourist in the places he visits—is the fact that he gets hard at the sound of rhys' voice.

things happen and eventually this wip will earn it's suspected e rating.

some plot that has not been turned into a fic yet under the cut

The first time was the worst. Listening to Rhys talk about work, family, accountability — it was pre-feyre, when azriel could pretend that rhys would invite him to fool around like they’d done in college, when rhys had sucked him dry and fucked him right after, phantom musk of his own cum all over his mouth, like he’d been marked by it, possessed by it. The last time hadn’t felt like the last and azriel still can’t look at rhys’ mouth without remembering the time he’d kissed him so finally, and spent the night soft and spent against azriel’s spine. he’d offered to finish him off the next morning and rhys had said “another time”. Another time, for azriel, had been when this started up years later. Another time, for rhys, still hadn’t happened yet.

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i don’t understand people who love a problematic character but get angry when people mention the evil things that character did. like, that’s your man! he’s proud he did all that, support his hobbies!

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You already know I’m going to ask about my beloved, my reason for living — half algorithm, half deity

velide my sweet puppy… you know how it goes 🙂‍↕️

half algorithm, half deity (obvs title from ascensionism) is my tragic scifi baby inspired by firefly/destiny/ex machina and many more. it’s a love story to emotion. it’s a thesis on what it means to be human. it’s exploratory surgery, a space opera, a shakespearean recipe for disaster. it’s a creation story!!!!!!

a magnum opus that spans the galaxy. i love her. i originally posted a snip on my birthday this year but i deleted her because she’s not done enough yet. really hope i get to finish her!!

here’s a bite for you

He slits the skin beneath the pad of his finger, razor parting the incision to reveal the sheen of dark metal and violent blue of his power supply. The implants themselves—roughly the size of a fingernail, and half as thick as a strand of hair—only serve as miniature heat sinks for his core, which will, in turn, allow the ship's navigation system to register his input. Despite carbon based lifeforms making up less than fifty percent of the universe' populace, the majority of modern technologies still bear their footprint. Or fingerprint, as it were. He slides it inside his parted skin, waits for the faint snag as it latches to his systems. His fingertip glows blue for a second as it registers.

Nine more to go.

"It's inhumane," Rhys, who, as usual, sits on the disused bunk in Azriel's quarters, scrolls through the ship's datapad with a frown that adds years to him, if not decades. Darkness sits heavy on his shoulders, a mantle not even he can disperse. For some reason, he made sure to be around when Azriel performed his upgrades. As if he might witness his the parting of flesh and see blood, not metal. Bloodstains clean easier than oil, after all. "Making them march through the streets to go kill themselves."

Yes, the companion droid they'd followed to the harvesters had been fresh from the pleasure district, still soiled from use. Its—her—left eye was broken, ocular sensor cut with blue green red flashes as it hung against her crushed cheek. She was missing an arm.

As is the way of things for androids.

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Hall pass 👀

hall pass literally came about the other night while on a call with my gf and we were laughing so hard we couldn’t see straight but, like the title suggests, feysand — still completely solid in their relationship and very much in love — explore avenues outside of their marriage/mateship. discussions ensue, options are laid bare and conclusions are very much made. who do they pick? good question. great question, actually.

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Killer whale sour milk!!! what a fucking name I’m in love already 💕

KILLER WHALE SOUR MILK IS THE SISTER FIC TO FULL MOON WHITE HONEY!!! it’s been a long time coming (literally over a year) and i barely have anything written down for it so I can’t give any of that but what i DO have is a plot and a bunch of things i’ll have to put in the ao3 tags.

there’s court intrigue, there’s nebulous magic systems, there’s complex curses, arranged marriage, political prostitution, the most confusing relationship dynamics you’ve ever seen, dicey consent and monster fucking. also keir is kinda… you know.

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feycien!! won’t YOU tell me about “won’t you tell me what it’s like?”

alsooo rhys/eris/azriel in the CoN? What are you cooking???

buffy? THEE buffy vanserra? (i did mistype that as bussy i am so sorry)

won't you tell me what it's like??? is essentially me being like aha what if feyre and lucien had been going at it behind tamlin's back the WHOLE time? it starts at the start of acowar and it goes like this.

“It’s not too bad when you get used to it,” It took no great effort to right herself next to him, pushing up further, to fold her legs in the flattened grass. They’d have to head back soon, to assuage any suspicion of their meeting. “Did you manage to speak with him?” “As much as one might,” he sighed, letting his head lean against his own shoulders as he rolled the stiffness from his neck, thick corded muscles straining as he stretched away and then back towards her. The starlight lit him in silver shine, catching the cuffs adorning his pointed ears, the chain about his throat. “I have to admit, it was not an especially riveting conversation. He remains unaware of our… situation.” “I can’t stay like this, Lucien,” Feyre shook her head, letting—no, intending her hair to do most of the work in her coy portrayal. Sheltered in the Night Court for half a year? A prisoner? She could only play that role if if they let her. If they just assumed the same girl that left was the one that came back. “I don’t want to lie anymore. It’s not fair.” Even if that itself was a lie. If he saw her eyes, he might have called her on it. That her trepidation came from something else. Unfortunately—or fortunately, depending on her mood—Lucien would not take her word if he saw even a crumb of doubt. Not unless she forced it down his throat. “He’s going to expect something eventually.” He let out a noise, something of amusement almost. Polite but sharp. Feigned disbelief. “Would you prefer me to tell him about your mate instead?”

CoN Notes is just pure filth about Rhys and Azriel tag teaming Eris. Featuring bangers like poor thing, he only knows love when it hurts and you should thank him. didn’t beron teach you manners? you should say thank you, eris. say it. I have no further comments your honour.

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okay so ...

i totally thought i was following you prior to this but i think i was following one of your sideblogs (RIP, apologies)

i must know about "dog ass weed"

don't ever apologise ever!!! EVERRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! ily ♥

dog ass weed is just azris being MEAN TO EACH OTHER until they FUCK about it

the only snip i have is them being really mean and it's just some dialogue tee hee (tw: cancer mention)

“Are you just out here to piss me off or did you actually want something?”

“Can’t a guy enjoy a smoke in peace? And besides, why can’t it be both?”

“Yeah, I hope you get lung cancer.”

Eris sneers. “You first.”