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Explains me at the moment.

Horny and depressed Probably the worst emotional combination known to man…

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Hey I'm going to Florida I'll be there from Sunday to Easter.

Could I kill myself now. Maybe.

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Can someone send me Anons or questions or something I'm trying not to relapse :/

Or kill myself whoops

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eringeremick:

This is Haylee. I met her online recently and was given permission to share her story. Shes 16 years old and has been suffering with Anorexia Nervosa (binge purge subtype) for 10 years now. She has permanent heart problems, shes has 2 heart attacks since January, and was in a coma in March. Shes constantly in the hospital due to her eating disorder, and shes spent 7 months in the hospital this year. It’s come to my attention that there are a lot of people on tumblr with “pro-anorexic” blogs who seem to WANT this disease and give “tips” to their followers to “become anorexic”. I want you to look at this photo, at this young girl who has wasted 10 years of her life in agony and ask yourself, how can you be pro this? How can you encourage others to do this to themselves? Please reblog this and help it get around to other blogs to show the reality of eating disorders and the pain they cause and put a stop to “pro anorexia” blogs.

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Could my tutor not come today. I have almost a 90 in math. Come on.

Ive got things to study for and things to do like cut and sleep and die could he not.

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I think I'll kill myself.

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If I don't lose weight by next Sunday (after this coming week)

I don't know what I'll do.

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Mmm please be ok, I love you. I don't know you but I love you and if you were gone, I'd cry.

Dont worry about me! I love you too <3. I'll be fine. 

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I would cry if you died:(

Don't worry about me xx but aw :'/ 

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Someday I'll kill myself.

Maybe today. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe in a week, a month, or a year. But someday, I'm going to leave. And you won't remember me. Because you don't care enough. If I left, you wouldn't realeze. You wouldn't cry. You wouldn't even be sad. But neither will I. Not anymore at least. And if I fail, I'll try harder next time. Theres always next time. Hey, maybe you won't even know I'm gone. I always text first. So what if I just stopped? Because ive done this before. Ive stopped texting first. And you didn't realize then, did you.

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Reblog this if you'd care if I killed myself tonight.

omfg

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Excuse me but I don't give a fuck.

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I'm terrified of losing you.

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Wow that escalated quickly.

it’s kinda funny how when you get older you start to enjoy the things you hated as a kid like taking naps and getting spanked

the second one was kind of unexpected

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I've been trying but now I'm dying.

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Some Nights Tumblr Version.

Based off this post.

Lyrics:

Some nights, I stay up staring at my laptop

Some nights, I don’t sleep at all

Some nights, I ‘m glad that my dash is never ending

Some nights, I wish I could log off

But I still stay up, I still read your posts

Oh Lord, I’m still not sure why I’m awake at four

What do I scroll for? What do I scroll for?

Most nights, I don’t know anymore…

Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa oh oh

Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa oh oh

This is it, these are ship wars

What are we fighting for?

Why don’t we read fanfic already?

I was never one to sleep at night - save that for those who have a life

Post twice as much and get half as many likes, but here feels come again

To stay for a while

But that’s alright; I blog from in my bed tonight

I blog because I’m wonderin’ just who I, who I, who I am

Oh, who am I? mmm… I have no life

Well, some nights, I wish that my dash would end

‘Cause I could use some friends for a change

And some nights, I’m scared I’ll hit post limit again

Some nights, I always hit, I always hit…

But I still stay up, I still read your posts

Oh Lord, I’m still not sure why I’m awake at four

What do I scroll for? What do I scroll for?

Most nights, I don’t know… 

So this is it? I sold my soul for this?

Left my social life for this? Or do I have no friends because of this?

(/awkward pause where I didn’t know what to write/)

So log on.

Log on.

Log on,

OH LOG ON!

Well, that is it guys, that is all, scroll twelve pages down and I’m bored again Ten years of this, and only bloggers understand  I’m not sticking ‘round with my folks downstairs; Sorry to leave, mom, I had ship pairs I’m going to be forever alone, all dried up from my laptop brightness My heart is breaking for my OTP and the con that they call “love” ‘Cuz when they look into each other’s eyes… Man, you wouldn’t believe the most amazing things that can come from… Some terrible writers…ahhh…

Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa, oh oh

Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa, oh oh

The other night, you wouldn’t believe the fic I just read about my OTP

I wish it would update already

I wish you’d tag all of your stuff, man.

Why won’t you tag all of your stuff, man? oh…

I’m never logging off

Why would I ever log off Tumblr… oh …

Oh, oh whoa, oh whoa, oh.

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Extremely Invasive Questions. GO.

A: Are you a virgin?

B: 3 biggest pet peeves

C: Celebrity crush?

D: If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?

E: Do you smoke?

F: Do you drink?

G: If you had to rank yourself on a scale of 1 to 10, what would you be?

H: Longest relationship and with who?

I: 5 turn ons

J: 5 turn offs

K: What's the biggest lie you have ever told?

L: Would you ever date someone of another race?

M: What is your sexual orientation?

N: Top 5 traits you look for in a person that you want to have a relationship with

O: Who are you crushing on right now?

P: Who is your bestfriend?

Q: Your guilty pleasure?

R: Who was your first kiss?

S: Do looks matter to you?

T: What kind of underwear are you wearing?

U: How big is your penis or for a girl, how big are your boobs

V: How far have you gone?

W: Do you like it when people play with your hair?

X: Are you circumcised?

Y: Do you name your private parts?

Z: What are your three favorite blogs?

can't really answer if im circumcised but ya ask;)