shedidsaid

[shedidsaid]

letting Go

So, I have been trying to live-up a better life for me and my son by reducing the materials around us that distract us from our main objectives which are focusing on our self growth and living a simple yet meaningful life. I have been trying to downsize, donated most of my material possessions and deliberately choose and bought items that brings more functionality and comfort in our more minimal life. Less is more. And more nature less plastic.

Today my son and I just decided to shed some of his toys and put away the stuff he no longer wants and donate them to charity.

I will do the same in my clothings and drawers in my house to take away the stuff that has no use for me. And Be more conscious about what I buy and what’s the meaning or purpose behind it.

We are all learning and trying to do this as our way of practice and take the process as a symbol to letting go.

”Let go of the things that does not serve you purpose, take things lightly and with conscious efforts of making the best that you can be in any situation.”

[shedidsaid]

Today I decided to just take what I can take.And let go of things that no longer serve me.

I refuse to talk to people and entertain people who in the first place don‘t give the same energy I gave.

I refuse to attached myself from anything or anyone that will drain me mentally physically and emotionally.

I refuse to satisfy someone’s ego and put myself last and compromise only for their behalf so the relationship can work.

I refuse to explain myself over nothing but their own negative assumptions and that’s their problem.

I refuse for not letting myself be who I want to be. I don’t care anymore. It is what it is. Like it or not.

We all gonna die one day and I don’t want to live in someone’s perception of me.So fuck it.

I’m gonna Travel, go for a Walk, a Hike , I will do more of the things I love to do, Don’t forget I love to sing,dance,write and paint. I don’t want to be in anyone’s control. I don’t want to lose myself over a man who can’t build a healthy relationship with me. I NO longer want meaningless relationships. I DON’T want A partner who makes me feel less Of shelf and doubts me.

I want to be more compassionate.

I want to be more kind towards myself and others.

I want to be worry free. So I work on myself and my life.

I want to eat healthy food and less or No crappy food.

I want to be physically active — Go to the gym and workout the body I want.

I want to run my own Business and generate income that will support my investments and future plans.

I want my son to be more mentally physically and emotionally healthier. I want to be a better mother.

Writing this helps me track down who I really wanted to be. What to work on and how I can make changes towards myself and the environment or the situation.

I want to live minimally and maximise my control and living my life with a conscious choice.

Amen.

[shedidsaid]

We talk and say too much.

Why DO we obsessed talking about ourselves all the time?is it because we don’t feel heard or seen or good enough to the people closest to ur? Or we get as much kick into our system when we get it From others?

#thoughts #foryou #thingsisaid #sorrynotsorry

[shedidsaid]

Here we are.

So, I just finish watching Minimalism and I have been trying very hard to live my life that way. (By the way, Why all transformations comes after pain?)I think part of the reasons why I want to get rid of the things I have so I can live more free, without the commitment or the obligations. But sometimes I lost track and purchase things compulsively. Anyway the very reason why I got into tumblr is because I wanted to express my thoughts without anyone I know noticing or knowing anything I write and thought about are just between me myself and I then including you! Stranger whoever you are reading this.I want this to become like my diary so pardon if I will be posting more in here. I know I’m aware that I’m very active with my social media from instagram to facebook or Tiktok. But considering this as an alternative to just write what I want to write or post what I want to post without following a trend but just go with the flow of how I feel when I feel like it. Basically consuming my freedom of speech and expression even though sometimes my thoughts could be corrupt or depressing or happy and sad or crazy or erotic. So. HERE WE ARE. :)