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I’m taking some child development classes as part of a speech therapy degree, and honestly it’s only giving me stronger mixed feelings re:having a baby someday. I’m both more against and more for it at the same time, but considering the fact that I am currently pleading with a higher power for mercy bc i woke up with heartburn and want to die — yeah I think I’ll continue to pass on that for now

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Going on almost 8 months of no smoking/vaping/nicotine :) I’m playing French horn in my local wind ensemble, going for walks, climbed up the hiking equivalent of 73 flights of stairs in the redwoods according to my phone, feeling a lot calmer and happier each day, going to do a bunch of boogie boarding again once the water warms up, the boy and I might even take some surf lessons together (my grandmas friend might give me kamaaina rate lol), school is so hard and I’m so lazy and impatient and just want to be done and have a degree already, but I’m motivated and passionate about what I’m learning and going to get through this, so basically this is all to say….I had a glass of soju and I’m really happy with how my life is going :) it’s so hard sometimes, and so annoying other times, and often very confusing, and so very busy in some moments that I want to just curl up and shut out the world, but I love it and im figuring it out, and I have someone who’s here to cheer me on and figure it out with me :)

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there's an episode of malcolm in the middle where he just shuts up and stops complaining for awhile and it immediately starts to significantly improve his life but also it causes him an ulcer and by the end of the episode he is literally spitting up blood and i have always deeply and unshakably believed that is exactly how the situation would play out for me too

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there was no perfect path. you did not get punished. your life did not unravel when you made a left turn. the memory will always be there. you can visit whenever you want. there is no alternate timeline where you made a better choice and got a happier ending. you were a little girl chasing the ice cream truck, playing hopscotch, swinging and aiming for the never ending blue. yes, the grief was waiting up ahead. but so was the miracle of saturdays in a car headed wherever you wanted to go. enough sky to wrap around every wound. friends who, despite your perennial bouts of silence, kept an ear close at all times.

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also- got wine drunk and drew a possum while waiting for the boyfriend to finish homework the other day

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been feeling very sluggish and tired all the time lately, took my b12 vitamin for the first time in a very long time and suddenly feel a bit better. Hm. Maybe surviving on only ramen and workplace meals with nary a vegetable in sight was not actually the best idea

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April has a way of wrapping itself around you.

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Eeply, Sleepy Family

*available*

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Outpost, Cambria -- June 17th, 2023

Etsy

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Solar eclipse shadows

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weeeeeeeee big climb, now time for big dinner

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Taking Flight, 25”x25”

crochet tapestry designed by me, bordered with a granny square frame.

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Cherry Blossoms in Nekata | Shōtei Takahashi