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Starbucks 2013

Eto pa yung profile picture mo nung magkausap tayo at nagpaplanong mag coffee sa labas, eto din yung itsura mo nung huling beses kitang after 6 years. Nakasuot ka ng black na dress at may dala kang maliit na bag. Umalis ka ng maaga para makipagkita sakin bago ka pumasok. Sa alabang ka pa nagtatrabaho nung mga time na yun. Naalala ko tong picture na to kasi one time may nakakita sakin na friend ko tinitignan yung picture mo sa phone ko. “Girlfriend mo?” tanong niya sa akin, may bumubulong sa loob ko na nagsasabing sabihin kong oo kasi mahal kita. Kasi nung mga oras na yun gusto kitang angkinin. “Hindi pre, bestfriend ko.” sagot ko sa tanong niya habang may pait ng pagsisi sa muka ko na bakit nga ba hindi na lang naging tayo nung mga oras na yun?

Fast forward, 2019 January nakita kita at sa hindi makapaniwalang pagkakataon. Hindi na bilang isang bestfriend kundi mas higit pa. Nasa sayo pa din yung magagandang mata na nakita ko sayo nung high school pa lang tayo. Yung mga lips mong sobrang tamis at dimples mong sobrang cute. Hindi ko alam kung paano kita kakausapin nung mga time na yun kasi sobrang naghahalo yung nararamdaman ko, feeling ko wala ako sa reality ng mundo. Pag land ko ng pilipinas ikaw na agad yung gusto kong makita, hindi ako makakain nung mga time na yun kasi hindi ako mapakali. Gusto kitang makita, para akong bata na gustong tumalon at magwala kasi hinahanap ko yung kulang sakin... at ikaw yun!

Hindi ka pa din nagbago, at ganun din naman yung nararamdaman ko sayo. Mula noon hanggang ngayon. Mahal pa din kita, at mamahalin kita kahit ayaw mo na.

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(Iniimagine ko na lang na facebook account ko to habang nakatag sya sa photo. 😊😊)

Janury 10 2019

My first photo with her, sobrang tagal na namin magkakilala. Ilang beses na din kami nagkita para lumabas, kumain, magkape at tumambay pero we never had a photo together.

It was her idea to capture our precious moments together, kinilig ako nun kasi may pagka camera shy kasi ako. Pero whenever Im with her, nawawala yung ganung side ko. I never felt comfortable with a person sa gantong level na kasama ko siya, walang limit kung hanggang saan lang pwede pag usapan namin, walang hindi pwede sabihin, walang secrets na nakakahiya or mahirap ireveal pagdating sa kanya. I guess eto yung feeling ng magkaroon ng girlfriend and bestfriend sa katawan ng iisang tao, two and one aka nga nila.

Eto yung first real kiss namin na matagal ko ng iniimagine, and I was fucking suprise how magical it was. Naaalala ko yung mga time na iniimagine ko lang na magkikiss kami bago kami maghiwalay. Feeling ko high school ako pag kasama ko siya, feeling ko yung mga time na kinikilig pa ko na hindi naman talaga ako ganto pero nagagawa nyang paramdam sakin yun. And god I hate that feeling kasi sobrang naiinis ako sa sarili ko kasi hindi ko mapigilan. I hate when she stare at me for more than 5 secs kasi para akong natutunaw, so dapat imanage ko tong part na to kasi everytime na nangyayari yun nawawala ako sa focus pag nag uusap kami. Lol

This goes to show na this is just the beginning of a long started friendship, pero this time. We have a goal, a real life goal. I have a plan for both of us kasi eto na yung stage ng buhay namin na kailangan na namin mag decide na sarili namin. We'll get there baby, pangako.

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I love when he does this. He looks like a big fluffy baby 👶

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10 years ago, She was my bestfriend. The label was made by her, she called me "bes" and I felt sad at first kasi syempre for me I want more than that pero since I liked her, I choice to stay na rin. She's one I used to tell secrets with. She knows everything about me. Lahat ng mga bagay na nangyayari sa buhay ko, mga pananaw ko sa buhay at kung ano ano pa. She told me about the story about of her dad, we had this particular topic about her asking her dad "what is love?". At the young age nakakagulat sa bata yung magtatanong ng ganun pero what to expect, matalino tong baby ko e.

Kumakain siya ng jelly beans nun, out of all the colors/flavors na meron sa isang pack. Lagi nyang kinakain yung green. So her dad said na love is like your favorite green jelly bean. Seeing someone in a special way, being unique out of the bunch of people and choosing him/her every single day. Thats how I understood it. Her dad is a smart person, I was still hoping I could meet him but its already to late na. How could a person explain love in a simple way with a deep meaning, well I told you he is a smart dad.

So someone of you might ask, bakit shinygbean name ng account na to? Well shiny is about her interest in shiny things plus green bean. I never labelled myself as a green jelly bean yet siguro kasi sobrang deep nung meaning na yun sa kanya and I don't want to ruin it unless siya na mismo yung magsasabi nun. Hindi ko pa din kasi alam kung nahanap nya na ba yung green jelly bean nya sa akin?

I would always dream of being that person to her, isang simpleng tao sa mundo pero pag nakatingin siya sakin alam kong kakaiba ako, special ako, at ako yung pipiliin nya araw araw na makasama sa buhay nya. I want to be your green jelly bean and I will prove to you na ako yung tao na yun. I'll show you simple love with a deep meaning.

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My babies, baby and baby bella! So much love for this two. 💕💕💕💕💕

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Meow meow meow 😹😹😹😹

How to understand your cat in a few simple words by my cat

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download my poetry ebook here

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Few years back, Wala akong plano sa buhay ko. I just wanted to do something para masabing may trabaho ako at may pera, mga ipon. Ganun. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta at kung ano yung goal ko. Alam ko lang ginagawa ko yun kasi yun yung dapat. Then something magical happened.

Siya yung goal ko, siya hung inspiration behind everything. Wala na kong hihilingin pa kundi yung mapasaya, alagaan at mahalin siya. Shes my everything. I would rather lose everything I have right now than her kasi alam kong kakayanin ko mag start sa simula basta alam kong nanjan siya.

I love you my future wife! 💕💕💕

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I always thought of posting our photos together sa social media account natin. Thinking of sweet captions, posting your selfies while saying how much I love you. Wala akong pakelam kung may maiinggit or magagalit. Basta gusto ko sabihin sa mundo na my isang taong katulad mo na nagmamahal sakin. Para patunayan sa kanila how lucky I am for having you.

Im proud of you baby, after all the struggles in life. You came out strong and kept on getting stronger. I might be a strong person physically, but emotionally and mentally you exceed me.

I'll post this photo in here for now. 😘😘😘

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Would you?

“Would you believe me if I said that you were the only one that could bring colour into my life?”

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Relationship is not about being happy consistently, it's about handling each other on a smooth and rough situation. All of us have that struggle when we felt like the world is on are shoulders. When that time comes, Please choice to be with her no matter what. She might not tell you to stay, but you have to be there.

We had a fight last night, sinasabi natin yung mga masasakit na bagay sa isa't isa out of anger. After that we still end up forgiving each other. It's a sign that we both grow from are own mistakes. Nasaktan ko siya, Im not proud of it pero she choice to forgive me after that. And from that I learn alot. Im afraid of losing her. Thank you for loving me everyday and giving me another chance. We'll grow together baby and come out stronger than ever.

I will always stay baby, I love you! 😘😘😘

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Please kausapin mo ako. Kahit sandali lang. Pakiusap parang awa mo na.

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Please talk to me I need to tell you something important. Just for 5 mins.

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I feel so worthless!!!