shiratori-no-hikari

[shiratori-no-hikari]

Shiratorizawa being overlooked so often makes me so damn mad like I’m in 5 Haikyu servers and whenever they do popularity polls Shiratorizawa literally loses first round ALL THE DAMN TIME

Like they worked so hard to get where they are, Top 8 consistently, and being fr if they had a diff coach who let them embrace their individual play styles, let them work as a damn team i genuinely think they could beat some other of the top teams.

No I’m not just glazing my favorite team. I’m being COMPLETELY honest.

Tendou, if Washijo just let him teach some other players to embrace that shit, or if they had an actual system instead of

“Taichi the omnivore and Tendou the Guess monster”

Like thats really effective and all, but what if they further enhanced it?

Don’t even get me started on the setters.

Shirabu is a very good player, but being fr he’s lowkey a hole in their defense. Unlike Hayato, he doesn’t have some extreme receiving skills to get him some ground over being short. Constantly throughout the Karasuno match, they’re scoring over his head.

Now I love Shirabu, I really do. But I love semi more (obviously).

Washijo is wasting SO MUCH TALENT with his damn “cannon” philosophy. Like bro, think abt it. If all of shiratorizawa used their talents to the fullest, wouldn’t it actually make them stronger?

I get sometimes that too much talent will overlap and sabotage each other, but focusing so many individual talents into one simple strength is kind of crazy. Like you literally invite some of the top players in your prefecture, then don’t even use them?

some people won’t understand how damn mad I was when Karasuno won. Like yay to Karasuno, I loved season 3, literally my favourite season ever, we got so much Noya screen time, BUT SERIOUSLY.

THAT MUCH PLOT ARMOR IS INSANE.

I get the writing and all, showing growth, but being fr.

THEYRE ONE OF THE TOP 8 INNTHE WHOLE COUNTRY.

WASHIJO WHEN I CATCH YOU YOU OLD MAN.

It’s giving Ego from blue lock, except at least Ego had a point. At least bro was being logical with his arbitrary decisions.

“Too many cooks spoil the broth” TYPE SHIT BRUH

BUT SHIRATORIZAWA IS LITERALLY SO DAMN ADAPTABLE. ISTG.

IM RAGING

all of them are so different from one another, and despite being the most incomplete team in miyagi, they STILL manage to work together, and have no real hard feelings.

They all worked so hard to get where they were, but then SUDDENLYBTHE PLOT ARMOUR COMES AND JUST DELETES THAT.

These guys literally do 100 serves just cause some old fossil said so. THATS INSANE.

Imagine having to endure so much extreme training, that honestly is so questionable, and still end up losing. You start to lose what the volleyball means to you just cause of some damn short ass man who couldn’t get over his old coach telling him he was a short fuck.

ID CRY TOO.

IF ANYONE CALLS SHIRATORIZAWA WIMPS FOR CRYING AFTER LOSING, ID LIKE TO SEE YOU TRY AND DO WHAT THEY DID.

THEY PUT BLOOD SWEAT AND TEARS INTO THIS, AND STILL ENDED UP LOSING TO SOME RAGTAG TEAM THAT JUST STARYED GAINING MOMENTUM.

All they wanted was to take Goshiki to nationals fam.

One last time.

All of them were so well written I’m actually tweaking out that they don’t have a bigger fan base.

Oh I understand I mischaracterize some of them, like listen fam I have barely anything to work with SHUT UP.

But honestly writing them is such an adventure, and I’m literally going on multiple angry rants for them.

Please, somebody, hear me yell out into the void, and respond to what I wish.

Shiratorizawa respect.

[shiratori-no-hikari]

for anyone wondering why im so inactive,

-school aint holding back with work and extra activities

-the syllabus is very easy/j-sarcasm -i havent been drawing but i do have some non hq related stuff

-im actually trying to live my life but :’)

butttt some updates about me :)

- i turned 16 a few weeks ago - new laptop, just a cheap one to fulfill my needs - im active on genshin,  instagram (personal acc)

- i started pjsk jfdjfheiuf

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𓆩♡𓆪 Date, Befriend, Reject [ 20/20 ]

✿ Date

you're interested in him? Try to ask him out on a date later!!

✿ Befriend

He seems nice? But not the kind you're into? Well, okay. Befriend him instead.

✿ Reject

Totally a no? Such a bummer though. However, it's not too bad to reject anyway.

Info I'll need ...

The dress you're wearing [ recommended colour palette ]

MBTI

Gender preference

Fandoms [ Genshin, Haikyuu. Choose either 1 ]

Your behaviour in events and gatherings

You'll get...

3 Love Interests I recommend personally

Rule...

Reblog with your decision!

Which is your compatible partner,

a possible new friend

and a poor rejected person on their way home with no luck with you </3

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𓆩♡𓆪 1 Paragraph True Love [ 20/20]

✿ 100-200 word drabble of you and your date!

What I'll need...

A character of your choice, prefer male characters

Fandoms [ Genshin, Haikyuu. Choose 1 ]

Trope [ fluff, pure fluff ]

You'll get...

A cute scenario of you and him <3

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" Please do not repeat requests, one slot per person." - reminder to all participants by the groom, Shirabu Kenjirou.

[shiratori-no-hikari]

I'm re-reading my smau and I'm still trynna figure what's next🌚

[shiratori-no-hikari]

I LOVE YOUR STORIES SM!!!!! THANK YOUUUUUU!!❤🥰✨😙❤👏👏✨✨✨❤❤❤❤ [especially the angsts]

Teehee thankshuuuuu!! I love Shiratorizawa more than anything too <333 but mainly Shirabu <33 I might get back to my smau soon too now that I think about it 🌼❤️

Oh ANGST IS MY ABSOLUTE JAM-

I made my friends cry to one of my older major character d34th fics💀can't blame them tho cuz it was based off an old Italian folklore ( a little story basically) called Cittá de smeraldo and a that one BTS song lol-

Forgive me for the sudden burst about my older fic that I'm currently rewriting in my drafts Kjsjdjzj-

Have a great day and thank you for enjoying my writing <3

[shiratori-no-hikari]

My laziness.....

And I have physical school starting next week.

And another big exam next month.

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[shiratori-no-hikari]

"so he kissed you"

Me :

*throws tablet on couch*

*throws self onto floor*

*squeals heart out*

*screeches into floor*

*lays there and questions reality*

*internally cries*

Intoxicated

Pairing : Suna x Reader

Previous Part

The two men looked at each other.

- Oh, right !

Your cheerful voice contrasted with the cold atmosphere in the room.

- This is my boss, Eiji Nomura. Sir, this is my friend, Rintaro Suna.

They both nodded in acknowledgement.

- So you’re the friend who’s been taking care of Y/N ?

Your boss had a smile on his face.

- Thank you ! I hope you’re gonna celebrate tonight, I’m sure you don’t mind that we had a bit of fun before you arrived.

Suna couldn’t help but notice with how much care your boss was looking at you.

- Suna !

You screamed. You quickly put your hands on your mouth. Suna frowned looking at you. Were you… drunk ?

- Suna ! you called him again, more quietly. Something great happened today ! So, you see, the…

You were talking very quickly and you were using words he didn’t understand. You were a professional, after all.

- Y/N, your boss said after a moment. I’m not sure you should flood your friends with informations he can’t understand.

Suna turned red in embarrassment. He didn’t understand what you were saying, but having someone pointing it out hurt his pride. He felt so little all of a sudden. Like he didn’t belong here, next to you.

- I’m sorry, Suna.

He scoffed.

- It’s fine, he mumbled. Let’s just go.

- So, where are we going ?

He was asking himself the same question. You sounded sleepy and, if he were to be honest to himself, a little too tipsy to go get dinner outside.

- I’m taking you home, Y/N.

- No, please !

You sounded ready to throw a tantrum like a child or someone drunk would do.

- It was not a question, you’re going home. You are in no condition to have dinner with me today.

You stayed silent.

- Are you mad at me ? you asked after a moment of silence

He didn’t answer right away. Mad ? Not exactly. Disappointed ? Maybe a little. He hated to admit it but he was excited to eat dinner with you tonight. He wanted to impress you, and that thought didn’t leave his mind since he saw you with your boss at your office. But he couldn’t do it now.

- Rin, please don’t be mad.

- You always call me Rin when you want something from me…

You lowered your head.

- I’m sorry… I won’t do it again.

- I don’t hate it, just…

He let out a groan in frustration. He didn’t expect the evening to go like that.

- Oh, I know you like it !

He didn’t say anything.

- Please, just come to my place, and I’ll cook ! you offered. And I won’t mess up our next… evening !

He stayed silent. He wanted to say yes but he guessed you probably were exhausted. He didn’t understand what exactly happened at your work even though you tried to explain it to him. Thinking about how embarrassing it was made him squeeze the wheel.

- Fine, he finally said. But we cook together.

- You won’t regret it ! I’ll prepare a nice surprise for you !

He could never regret spending time with you anyway. You arrived soon after. You walked inside your apartment.

- Let me cook for you, please.

You seemed determined. He wondered what your plan was so he let you do whatever. He stayed near the kitchen to talk to you about his day and the strange florist. He watched you cook and repressed the urge to help you. He knew you wouldn’t allow him to, probably because you wanted to make it up to him. He just loved cooking so much. He developed this love back when he was still texting you. He wanted to impress you more than everything. But he ended enjoying cooking for others. The delight on their face, the pride he felt, he loved it. He wondered if you felt the same way. He wondered if that was the reason why you used to cook for him back in high school.

- Suna ? What are you thinking about ?

He looked away.

- Just food.

You smiled at him.

- It’s almost ready.

He could smell it. He watched you walking around and pack stuff in a wicker basket. When he asked you what you were doing, you only answered with a wink. You put the plate and the cake in the basket before taking his hand.

- Let’s go now !

He looked at you, confused, but still followed you. You went out of your apartment and walked in the corridor. You were heading to the elevator. You suddenly looked at him and stopped in front of the elevator.

- Could you please close your eyes ?

He smiled at you.

- You know that I already know we’re going on the roof, right ?

You sighed in an overly dramatic way and Suna let out a laugh before closing his eyes.

- Ok, I can’t see anything now ! And I don’t know where we’re going either !

You let go of his hand for a moment but took it not long after. He walked into the elevator. It felt weird, feeling it moving with his eyes closed. He squeezed your hand. After the elevator opened, you made him walk a little before letting go off his hand. He heard you walk a little further and he heard you move. After a few minutes, you said :

- You can open your eyes.

He did.

- Wow, the roof ? I never could’ve imagined that.

You laughed. You were sitting on a blanket, looking up at him. You were only light up by the street lights but it was enough.

Actually, it was perfect. He sat down in front of you.

- Let’s eat now !

He looked at you. His mind couldn’t help but think it was… romantic. He quickly erased that thought.

- So tell me about your day ! he said.

You scoffed, embarrassed.

- Just work… you know…

- I don’t. I know I probably won’t understand everything you’ll talk about but it’s important to you and I wanna know about it…

He looked down to the food. The way he felt, like he was stupid, was embarrassing but he didn’t want to miss the light in your eyes. You seemed to love your work, and you seemed to be proud of what happened today.

- Hey, Rin ? You know he didn’t mean it like that, right ?

He knew that. He knew that your boss didn’t intend to belittle him or his intelligence yet…

- He didn’t lie, though. I don’t understand what you’re doing.

- Nobody expect you to understand what’s not in your area of expertise. You don’t have to be embarrassed about that.

He hummed.

- Could you still… explain it to me ?

You nodded.

- Well what happened is…. as if they gave me an apple and sent me to trade it for a house. That’s impossible, right ?

He nodded.

- Well I came back and traded that apple for a whole city instead.

He looked at you in disbelief.

- That’s…

- Impossible ? you asked.

He didn’t know how exactly it was possible.

- I… You’re a genius, Y/N.

Truthfully, he didn’t understand much more of what happened expect that you came back with much more than expected. It seemed big. How could someone even get a city thanks to an apple ? It just didn’t make any sense.

You laughed.

- And now everybody knows my name and I might get a promotion.

He cupped your head with his hands. He looked at your proud eyes, at your smile. He wanted to capture this moment and keep it forever. He wanted to be with you forever, just like this.

- You’re amazing !

He didn’t understand anything but one thing : you were amazing, you were smart, nice, and funny. You were perfect.

So he kissed you.

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Hey ! I’m sorry I haven’t updated in a while… if everything is fine, I’ll be able to update by the end of the week ! I hope you liked the chapter and I’m sorry to end the chapter there and to leave you hanging at a moment like that ! Anyways, happy new year and have a great day 

[shiratori-no-hikari]

You did not....

Flowers

Pairing : Suna x Reader

Previous Part / Next Part

- So you're going on a date tonight ?

- It's not a date, Nozomi.

- It sounds like he's taking you out for dinner to me, she argued.

You were both on your way to your office while being miles away from each other. She was getting back from her lunch break with her new girlfriend and you were going to prepare your meeting. You were a bit stressed because this would shape not only your future but your company's too. You wanted to explain everything to Suna but you didn't want him to know that he had missed what would probably be the most important event of your life career-wise. For the past two months, you had planned the most important negotiation your company ever did. If you succeeded, you would probably get a huge rise or the get promoted. You were still a junior in the company, yet you were who everybody was talking about already. It was a good thing, but also a stressful one, and Nozomi was always here to help you getting through it.

- But how shameless is he ? He broke up with his girlfriend two weeks ago and he's already taking you out ! Be careful, Y/N.

You sighed.

- He's not "taking me out" the way you think it is. And I could really need a break after this meeting.

You heard Nozomi giggle.

- I trust you ! Anyway, I'm there ! I'll call you later and you'll tell me everything about your date !

She hung up before you could say that it was not a date again. You were there too anyway. You took the elevator and headed to your office.

- Y/N !

You turned toward the voice who called you.

- Boss ! How are you today ?

You heard him laugh softly.

- Boss ? he repeated. Are you nervous, Y/N ?

He was your boss after all. Eiji Nomura. He was the man who took you under his wings when you had started your job here. He always acted more like a senior than your boss. He was very friendly and often took you to drink with the rest of your colleagues. For the past two months, you probably called for his help a hundred times. Even if it was strange considering he was your boss, he also became your friend with time. Late night works and drinks create friendships, after all.

- Y/N. Have you eaten yet ?

You shook your head. You were too nervous to eat something. He pulled something out of his pocket.

Chocolates.

You weren't in the mood to eat chocolates right now but you saw the look in his eyes. He was worried about you. You took them and ate one in front of him.

- I think I'm gonna rehearse a little, you said.

He put his hands on your shoulders.

- We've been rehearsing for the past five days, you've got this ! I'm even surprised you weren't here last night...

- You were there ?

He nodded.

- I thought I'd have to send you home. You only go home when you're seeing your friends.

You could see on his face that he wanted to add "and you never see your friends".

- I was with a friend last night actually...

- Good ! I'm happy you were able to relax for a bit...

He smiled at you before walking away.

- I better not see you practice ! he warned you before he closed the door.

When Suna woke up, the sun was already high. It was past noon already. It wasn't an healthy thing to do, but he guess it was fine because he was tired from the past months. He grabbed his phone lazily. The first thing he saw was the texts he had received.

Aran (7:47 am) : You're going on a date together ?

Aran (7:49 am) : Go to a small restaurant.

Oh he remembered. Last night, he asked Aran where he could take you for dinner without it being too much.

He figured that he would be the least likely to ask a lot of questions or to tease him, or at least before he had answered the question. He was right. He wasn't even teased that much.

Suna (12:49 pm) : Thanks

Suna (12:49 pm) : And it's NOT a date !!

Yet, he prepared everything like it was. He was excited to eat dinner with you. He knew you probably didn't feel the same way, but it was fine. He had missed you too much to feel uncomfortable about how he felt.

Aran (1:53 pm) : You should buy flowers for your not date with Y/N

Suna scoffed. It really was not a date. But receiving flowers from time to time didn't hurt, right ? He went on the way to the closest flower shop. When he opened the door of the stop, a young man looked up at him.

- Good afternoon, Sir.

- Good afternoon, replied Suna.

It was now that he felt the embarrassment.

- I'm here to buy flowers.

He heard the man chuckle.

- It seems pretty obvious.

He had a small and welcoming smile in his face, like he was talking to an old friend.

- It's... it's for a friend.

- A friend, yes.

He knew that the man was just repeating the words to explicit that he was listening but Suna couldn't help but precise :

- It's really for a friend.

That seemed to draw the attention of the florist, whose smile widened as he repeated :

- Really ?

Suna nodded.

- We were friends a long time ago and we're friends again so... I want to buy Y/N flowers.

- Y/N ? Pretty name...

- Right ?

Suna came back to his sense and cleared his throat.

- I've got the perfect flowers for you !

He gave him a bouquet. He didn't explain what it meant or why it was perfect to Suna, but he seemed to have a knowing smile. He left the flower shop and came back home. It was such a strange encounter, but he was confident you would like it.

You finally called him a little bit after 6 pm. You seemed happy.

- Is it ok if you come at my workplace ? It's just that something great happened and I want you to see.... I'll tell you when we see each other !

He accepted. You sent him the address and he drove there. He felt like he was slowly getting into your world. Since the beginning, he didn't know much about you, or your friends, or anything. It made him feel different, happy.

He got out of his car right after he had parked next to the building you worked in. He sent you a quick test to tell you he was outside. Maybe he should come inside ? You had mentioned wanting to show him something. It was a huge building. When he got in, he noticed how you needed a pass to get through the elevator. He walked toward a security guard.

- Hi. I might sound crazy but I'm looking for Y/N and...

- Your name please ?

- Suna Rintaro.

The man nodded and smiled.

- You've been added in Y/N's authorized visitors this afternoon.

He looked at Suna.

- Are you two gonna celebrate ? The flowers were a great idea, by the way.

Celebrate ? Was it about what you wanted to tell him ? He nodded while the man opened the door. He walked toward the elevator as the man said :

- 7th floor, right on the left.

The door of the elevator closed as he pressed the button. He was holding a bouquet with slightly shaking hands, hoping you wouldn't ask him why he bought them. He didn't know why, he just hoped it would made you happy. He got out of the elevator. He turned to the left and as he walked, he heard a faint conversation.

- I always believed in you, Y/N.

He didn't hear your answer.

- Seriously. You're made for this. You're extraordinary.

He slowed down and tried to be as silent as possible.

- It was all thanks to you, he heard you say. Thank you.

He didn't hear anything so he figured out it was his cue to appear.

- We should celebrate !

- Yeah, you agreed.

- How about dinner ? My treat.

Dinner ?

- Yeah ! I'm sure the team will be happy to hear that !

- Actually, I was thinking about going together... just together... on a date ?

A date ? Someone was asking you on a date. He froze. He had lost his chance to come in. Now he would have to wait until it is not. Until you rejected him. You were about to reject him, right ? He didn't know. He didn't care anyway. He was nobody, just a stupid friend holding stupid flowers. And he looked stupid too. It wasn't a date.

- Y/N !

Before he even had the time to think about what he was doing, he had rushed in front of the door of your office. He was with his stupid flowers on the hands and you were in the arms of a man. He probably should have given more thought to his actions. But the idea that you could answer yes was bothering him.

You didn't answer. You could have said no, you should have said no already. He was the one who was supposed to take you out for dinner, after all.

But the most bothering thing was the scene in front of him. You were in the arms of a man, and you two were close, so close. There were 2 empty glasses on your desk and a bottle of champagne that you obviously had already begun to drink. Something was happening here.

- Suna !

You rushed toward him. You had a bubbly voice, were you drunk ? You two were supposed to have dinner. He stretched his hand to put the flowers in front of you. You looked at him, confused.

- Flowers, he just said.

Stupid, he was stupid.

You nodded and took them on your hands. You smelled them and smiled even widely.

- Thank you !

The silence was heavy as Suna looked at the man behind you. He wanted to ask you about him, yet it didn't feel right to. He still felt uneasy about the situation, even though he knew that was partly because of himself. He got too excited for this dinner. He wanted it to be memorable, he wanted to be part of your memories again. Yet, this man was here to remind Suna that you will have many dinners on fancy restaurants after tonight and that you will probably forget about this one.

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Hey ! Merry Christmas ! Sorry to have made you wait for the next chapter ! But it is here ! I still haven't finished my assignments and my part-time job is taking all of my time so I barely have time to write... I'll try to post the next chapter soon, I promise !

[shiratori-no-hikari]

They don't even need to date anymore, JUST GET MARRIED ALREADY 😭

Quiet Time

Pairing : Suna x Reader

Previous Part

- Don't look at me like that !

- Like what ?

You pretended not to know what he was talking about.

- Like you'll have to pick up the pieces of my broken heart. There are no pieces.

But there was a broken heart.

To be fair, he had just told you he broke up with his girlfriend, and you two were now watching a comedy. And Suna was just laughing and eating snacks !

You barely knew what happened in that movie. It was not like it wasn't interesting but you were too focused on Suna. What was it ? When you used to be younger, he usually hid how he felt not to worry you. But he never did it so well. You saw him sigh as he paused the movie.

- Y/N.

You hummed.

- Are you watching the movie or are you watching me ?

You turned your eyes on the screen.

- I'm fine. So either you believe it, or you're leaving. I don't need you to baby me again.

You heard him loud and clear. And you couldn't help but laugh. He was pouting right now. He only very rarely did that. It was still as cute as it used to be.

- Do you want a drink ? he suddenly asked.

You nodded. You decided not to go against him. He came back with a full glass of red wine and his was already empty. You never drank with him before, and you had lost your opportunity to carelessly get drunk with him during your youth. You guessed it was gonna be quiet drinks while watching a movie.

When the movie ended, the room was silent. You looked at him, thinking he fell asleep but he was still awake. His face was slightly red. And the bottle was empty. You didn't recall drinking that much.

- I'm sorry, Y/N.

- You have nothing to be sorry about.

- You have so much things to be angry about, Y/N.

He got up and stumbled to his kitchen. He came back short after with another bottle. You sat up and took the bottle from his hand. You put the bottle on the table and turned back toward Suna. Your head was spinning a little bit from the alcohol but you were still fine.

- Maybe we should slow down a little...

He smiled at you.

- Why aren't you angry at me, Y/N ?

- I am angry at you sometimes.

He moved his hand to your face and slowly stroked your cheek.

- Then talk to me.

You were angry right now. Was it really anger ? Maybe not, but still, your heart tightened thinking about it. You had no right to feel whatever you felt.

- Y/N ?

He was staring at you and was standing so close to you.

- Tell me...

You closed your eyes.

- You said you broke up with Hiromi two weeks ago...

You could feel him get tense but he still hummed softly.

- Why did you wait two weeks to talk to me ?

He cupped your face with his hands. It was warm, it felt good. You wanted to get even closer to him, yet there was no other way than to...

- I didn't want you to think that I came back to you just because I broke up with her.

You felt his forehead on yours. You felt more of his emotions, more of his warmth. You wanted more. You kept wanting more.

- I didn't want you to think of yourself as...

- A rebound.

The word hurt. You stepped away from his touch. You grabbed the bottle and poured yourself a drink, sitting on his couch.

- But it's not a rebound if we're not dating, right ?

You finished your glass a second after. You didn't know why you reacted that way.

- You're right, but still... I don't want you to think that I'm using you.

You shook your head.

- I don't. I just...

He stared at you, his eyes looking for something. He was red from the drinks he had earlier. You couldn't help but think it was cute. You chuckled, embarrassed.

- I guess I was a bit offended that you didn't think of me.

- I did think about you. Every day. But it didn't feel... appropriate.

He wondered if he felt the wrong thing during those two weeks. He still didn't know how to act around you but he tried hard to consider your feelings. A part of him thought that everything was indeed his fault. He had been the problem in all of his relationships after all, romantic or not. He messed up with you, and with his previous partners too.

- Don't you have practice tomorrow ? you asked.

You were obviously trying to ignore what he had just said. He pretended not to notice and answered :

- No, we're on a rest for four days...

You nodded, pensive.

- Then, I should let you rest ! And you should go to sleep...

He watched you stand up. He couldn't shake this feeling. He never wanted you to leave.

- Sure... are you doing something tomorrow ?

- I have an important meeting at 3pm.

He wanted to hear more about your work, more about yourself.

- Do you think we could meet for dinner tomorrow ?

He saw pity in your eyes so he added :

- It's not that I feel lonely because of the break-up. I just want to see you, that's all, so feel free to say no.

- No, dinner sounds great ! I might finish a little bit late but I'll text you, ok ?

He nodded. He watched you leave and got ready to bed short after. He realized he had no idea where to take you. Was he really sure you still liked what you used to like ? Sure, he still knew about your favorite cake but people change after all.

Oh well, he had all day to think about it tomorrow.

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Hey ! I'm finally posting ! I was supposed to post yesterday so I'm a bit late but it's there ! I hope you enjoyed reading this chapter ! I'm excited about what's going to happen next ! I keep adding scenes everytime I think about this fic ! Have a good day everybody !

[shiratori-no-hikari]

"I hope you're happy but don't be happier"

"i guess you look happier, you do. Some friends say that one day I'll feel it too"

Don't mind me just inserting some lyrics that I'm not even sure are correct or not🕴️it is that tiktok sound yes-

Try Again

Pairing : Suna x Reader

Previous Part

You hadn't seen Suna for a little more than a month now and you barely texted each other anymore. You were fine. You really were. You understood you were one of the reasons why they had a hard time. They were probably working on it.

It didn't affect you that much. Your life went on for several weeks until you received a text.

Suna (11:45 am) : Hey ! Are you busy ?

You put your phone down and only answered during your break.

You (12:36 pm) : Yeah I'm working... why ?

Suna (12:38 pm) : Just wondered if you'd like to come at my place for dinner

You furrowed your eyebrows, confused.

You (12:41 pm) : I'm sorry I can't tonight

It was a lie. You were perfectly free but you didn't feel like seeing him right now. You didn't even know why but it just felt like it wasn't right. But you did miss him a little bit. So you settled for the next day.

And nothing, nothing could have prepared you for the reason he wanted to see you.

- I broke up with Hiromi two weeks ago, he said with an usual smile.

He had this smile of true happiness. He was always so focused that his emotions rarely showed on his face and sometimes he just wouldn't let you see how happy he was to follow you in your weird projects. He would just follow you, pretending hard not to like it. Yet, today, it seemed like he couldn't stop his grin from showing as he shared what was supposed to be a bad news. They decided to try again less than two months ago.

Day 1

Suna looked at the ceiling, thinking about what you said the day before. How could he know what he was going to regret in the future ? He wanted to try again with Hiromi, hoping they could put this behind them... but could they ? Was that not a simple illusion ? Yet, he saw couples who made it past cheating. Could it be them ? He would never know if he didn't try.

So he called her. She agreed to come and see him right away and he wondered why she wasn't busy with work like she always were.

- I wanna try again...

He heard Hiromi's sigh of relief and her tense shoulders relax.

- I'm sorry for this, she told him. I know it takes a lot for you to do that.

He hugged her. He finally was with her. He hoped it was all he needed to forgive her.

- Let's compromise, he suggested. Tell me what bothers you and I'll tell you too so we can be happy together.

- Y/N and you...

- We already had that conversation... we're just friends.

- But you care more about Y/N than you ever cared about me.

- This is not true.

- It feels like it's true !

She wanted to cry again, he could hear it in her voice. She took a deep breath.

- I'm not gonna stop talking to Y/N, he said categorically.

- I just... want you to spend more time with me... I won't go to every work events anymore.

Suna nodded and hummed.

- I'll see Y/N less for now... and less texts too. How about this ?

- Okay...

He didn't want to ask questions about how she cheated or who she cheated with. It felt like it was only going to hurt him. So he left the conversation at that.

Day 4

As promised, he texted you less. He didn't tell you anything about it, he wasn't even sure how he could explain it to you. No matter what he said when he was angry, none of this was your fault.

Hiromi (11:05 am) : I'm free for lunch today

He was surprised. Ot was the fourth day in a row his girlfriend was available for lunch when she never seemed to have time before. Why so suddenly ? Was it that she was meeting the person she used to cheat with ?

He shook his head, getting rid of this thought. He was trying. He wanted to. They spent lunch together, and she came back to his apartment earlier than he expected. They spent the night together. It wasn't as tense as he expected, but there was still this uneasiness he felt. He hoped it would go away with time.

Day 14

When he received the text, he wasn't surprised. Hiromi wasn't come for dinner today, she had somewhere to go with her coworkers. It was good for the time it lasted. He couldn't stop doubting about her. Was it really a dinner for work ? Was she cheating again ? That thought wouldn't go away, no matter how hard he tried. He felt his phone vibrating on the table.

Hiromi (6:45 pm) : Come with me ?

Hiromi (6:46 pm) : I know it must be weird for you but I really want you to meet my coworkers

He hesitated. What was he supposed to do during a company gathering ?

Hiromi (6:48 pm) : And I miss you

He smiled to his phone and got ready to join her.

Day 38

It worked out pretty well. She was on the bed with him, reading while he was looking at her silently. They both worked a lot on the relationship to get there. Yet... his heart was still heavy. He watched Hiromi put down the book.

- Rin, we were friends before we started dating... you know you can talk to me, right ?

He hummed. She put her hand on his left cheek, forcing him to look at her in the eyes.

- You can talk to me, even if it hurts me.

He looked away. It was time. He had tried.

- I just can't forget... this. I can't trust you. Let's break up.

She nodded and got out of the bed.

- It was good while it lasted, Rin.

He nodded too. It was good. But it was over, he knew it now.

- I don't think we should go back to being friend. It's gonna hurt too much, you know ?

He understood. He got out of bed too. He knew it was doing the right thing, maybe that was why it didn't hurt as much for him.

- But because I was your friend once, I owe you the truth. Even if it hurts.

She took his hands.

- I hope you're gonna find someone to be happy with.

- I hope you will too, Hiromi.

He watched tears leaking from her eyes. He hugged her. One last time. Without any regret. He knew he would only remember the good times, he knew it wouldn't hurt as much as if he didn't make the right decision. He had loved her, and he still did in a way, but it was the end of a chapter of his life.

When they parted ways, there was no hard feeling as they both knew peace and happiness would come to them...

- So, that's what happened, you whispered.

He was happy.

- Thank you for making me go back, Y/N. If I hadn't, I would've still wondered whether I should have left or not. Now I know it wasn't meant to happen.

You looked at him. There was nothing but a smile on his face. He had opened a new chapter in his life already.

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Hey ! I was actually going through the next chapter and I realized I hadn't post this one yet ! I'm sorry but here it is ! I hope you enjoyed it (and that you understood what was in Suna's mind) ! I'll probably post the next chapter on Friday because my break start there ! Things are finally starting to get interesting ! Have a good day !

[shiratori-no-hikari]

This yn sounds a lot like me when I'm at my snapping point, I love her😭it's so accurate!!

Anger

Pairing : Suna x Reader

Previous Part / Next Part

Suna went to practice, like he was supposed to. Training made him forget for a little while. But then, he went back home. His empty and cold apartment. Since the day he casually gave a spare key to Hiromi, it was warm. He remembered that day very clearly. They were supposed to meet each other there but he stayed late for practice, so she waited in the cold until he got back. He gave her a spare key in case it happened again. It didn’t happen a lot, so she didn’t use it that often, but it was a huge step in their relationship. She grew more and more comfortable to sleep at his place, in his bed. He rarely went to her place. She always said his felt more like home. Was it a lie ?

Was everything a lie ?

No, it couldn’t be. After those months, it couldn’t be. Maybe he misunderstood her, maybe he imagined what happened in the morning.

He couldn’t breathe. His head was hurting and everything was spinning. Soon, he felt like he was out of his own body. Like nothing was real. Like he was lost.

Help. He needed help.

He was trapped in his mind and nobody was here. He lost her, he lost the one he loved.

- Hello ?

He suddenly heard your voice through the phone. The phone ? When did he pick it up ?

- Suna ? you called for him again.

Did you call him ? Or was he the one who called you ?

- Rin ?

Rin. It was you who used to call him that. Her who called him that too. Her voice was so soft, he loved the way it sounded when she said it. He was getting lost again.

- Y/N…

You could hear the helplessness in his voice.

- Are you ok ? you asked softly.

- I don’t know…

He could barely tell what was real and what was not. Was this morning real ? Were you real ?

- Do you know where you are ?

He was in his apartment. And he was talking to you. It was exactly what his girlfriend complained about. Was it wrong wanting to get to know you again ? Did he do wrong ? All your feelings for him were in the past and all he wanted was for you to stop resenting him. Even though you told him you didn’t, he could tell it wasn’t totally true. Maybe you stopped resenting him, but at that time, you didn’t open the door. It was because he did wrong when you confessed. It was selfish to ask you to stay by his side and even more to text you after leaving you alone for so many months when you were still living in the same town. Even now, you still thought you were giving him space but the truth was that he was scared. Scared of his own feelings, scared of the love he felt for you. It was so much love, it was so strong but it wasn’t the way you wanted. He couldn’t be the one you wanted.

Could he ever be someone you want as a friend again ? Could he ever be someone anybody want ? Hiromi didn’t want him either, she went to someone else. He was alone, it was like he had always been.

He shouldn’t be thinking about it right now.

- What are you doing right now ? he asked.

He could hear background noise before.

- Nothing important… I’m with my co-workers right now.

- Then, have a good evening. I’m sorry for calling like that.

He hung up before hearing your answer. Soon, his voice started vibrating. You were calling him back. He didn’t answer so you sent him a text.

You (8:29pm) : Please answer the phone… I need to know if you’re ok

He didn’t want to answer the text. Or rather, he didn’t want to answer the questions that were coming next. He sat on the couch and waited. He didn’t know what he was waiting for. Maybe for Hiromi to come back. For someone to tell him none of this was real. He decided to go take a shower. It was warm yet his heart felt like it was frozen. Was it even beating now ?

He was just out of the shower when he heard the doorbell. Was it Hiromi ? Did she lose her keys before coming back home ? He almost ran to the door and opened it.

It was you.

- What are you doing here ? he asked.

- I needed to know if you were ok…

You looked away, embarrassed.

- I’m fine. You can leave now.

He couldn’t help but being cold. More than hurt, he was angry. Angry to see you. It was exactly what his girlfriend didn’t want him to do.

You nodded.

- Ok… Bye…

You turned to leave. You were leaving already ? He didn’t want you to go. He knew what he said, and he was confused as to why he was acting so selfishly, so childishly. But he just couldn’t stop all the emotions he had been holding to come out.

- Do you even care about me ?

You froze and slowly turned around.

- Of course I do, you answered him.

You walked back to him and slowly pulled him into a hug. He didn’t hug you back.

- Then why didn’t you open the door that day ?

You didn’t know what to answer. You still remembered that day and how you felt. You wanted to open the door but you were too hurt to do it.

- Why couldn’t you accept me the way I was ?

You tried to hug him tighter and he pushed you away.

- Did you even love me ? Or did you just love who you thought I was ?

- I’m sorry, Rin.

- You left when you saw I couldn’t give you what you wanted, he whispered. Just like she did. That’s not love.

He was looking at you right in the eyes. You felt tears drop on your cheeks. Was it what he was thinking of you ? That you had never loved him ? That you were using him ? Were those the feelings he had be holding back for so long ?

You cupped his face with your two hands.

- I was in love with you. You were sweet, caring, funny, determined. I admired you and I loved you. When I got rejected, people focused on me and never asked you how you felt and I’m so sorry for that.

You sobbed. You couldn’t stop crying.

- I’m sorry I never asked you how you felt.

He didn’t want to see you cry. He had made you cry enough. He hugged you tight. It felt good, it felt right. He felt hot, like he needed more of you. He wanted to feel you more. He needed your warmth and your reassuring words, he had missed your smile, your laugh all this time. And he had missed the way he used to feel when you were around, that strong feeling he had never felt for anyone else.

- It didn’t take long, you hear behind you.

You pulled out from Suna’s hug and looked behind you.

- Hiromi, you don’t have anything to do here.

Suna put you behind him.

- You were cheating on me too !

Too, you thought.

You understood what it was all about. You saw his hand shake. It was like you were still connected to him after all these years. You could feel his distress, you could feel how desperately he needed help. So you walked toward Hiromi.

- Let’s go outside, you said to her.

She looked at you with disdain.

- Don’t even talk to me, she spat. You’re the one fucking him behind my back !

You sighed. Suna could feel the atmosphere shift.

- Let’s go outside. I’m not saying it again.

It was an order asked in a way that nobody would dare to say no. He was chilled to the bone. He bet Hiromi was too. She complied right away. You followed her.

Right before you closed the door, your two eyes met. You smiled at him right before you were out of sight. He didn’t know how much time he waited. It probably only was for a couple of minutes but it felt like an eternity. What if you talked to her and never wanted to come back again ? What if you left him alone a second time ? He hated this idea.

But then you opened the door again. You were still smiling at him.

And Hiromi was gone.

He couldn’t help but wonder.

What happened outside this apartment ?

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Hey ! I’m posting this right now because I’m not working today ! I usually post after work but not today ! I hope you enjoyed this chapter, I stopped right before you know what happened outside. You’ll know very soon ! Finals are getting closer so I’m getting very busy but I’ll try to update soon ! Have a good day !!

[shiratori-no-hikari]

I'm gnna sit here and cry, Hiromi is giving me bad vibes here 😭

Decision

Pairing : Suna x Reader

Previous Part

You still had the same smile when you asked him if he wanted to order food and watch a movie. He stayed silent so you kept on talking about random things.

- What happened with Hiromi ? he asked.

Didn’t you hate him now ?

- Nothing, you simply answered. I just asked her to leave for now. So…. pizza ?

You ended up ordering pizzas. You asked him if he wanted to watch a movie. He honestly didn’t want to do anything but stay in bed and cry but you obviously were trying to keep him from doing this, so he went along. He remembered the last time you were sitting in a couch, watching a movie. You confessed that day. He reached selfishly that day. He did today too.

- I’m sorry, Y/N.

You hummed, confused.

- I said awful things to you today. You didn’t deserve it.

He could feel your head on his shoulder.

- But you were right. I should’ve been honest that day. I should have told you I wasn’t ready to talk to you again. Lying didn’t do anything good to us.

He sighed. He was exhausted. He didn’t even know he had these feelings inside of him until now.

- Still. I’m sorry, Y/N. You’re just trying to help.

You smiled at him. His eyes were closed. You wondered if he wanted to sleep now. You shifted in the couch to pause the movie. He didn’t react at all. He was probably already asleep. You sat up.

- What should I do now, Y/N ? Should I break up with her ?

- Do you wanna break up with her ?

He didn’t answer right away.

- I don’t know… we were friends before we started dating. But what if it doesn’t work anymore ? Do you think I should break up ?

- I don’t think that matters the most.

You sat back next to him. He carefully looked at you. There was a small light in his eyes while he waited for your answer.

- Sometimes you do things that you end up regretting in the future…

- So you’re telling me I shouldn’t break up ?

You shook your head.

- Just to make choices you won’t regret in the future, no matter what they are.

He sighed. His mind was getting confused again, he couldn’t stop thinking.

- I should go and let you rest, you suddenly said.

He didn’t want you to go. He looked at you in the eyes. He couldn’t bring himself to ask you to stay. Even though you two never explicitly said anything, you had agreed to put some boundaries on your relationship. He couldn’t just ask you to stay, not anymore. He walked you by the door and watched you leave. He fell asleep shortly after.

- No, I don’t wanna hear it ! Nozomi screamed through the phone. And you better stop crying !

You didn’t know why you were crying. Maybe it was guilt. You felt so guilty. You never wondered how Suna really was, not once in the years you were apart. Sure, you wondered what he was up to, but you thought he was texting you everything. It appears that you were just seeing an Instagram page. He only showed what he wanted you to see, he was keeping secrets. It was normal and expected. People always had secrets. But you two really didn’t. You were the one who started to hide things from him. You were the one who started to lie to him. And you hurt him.

- You didn’t do anything wrong, Y/N.

- But I did. We both did things we shouldn’t have.

You knew that. You reacted badly and so did he. But you couldn’t point out what exactly hurt him. You needed to talk to him about it another day.

- Maybe you did, but he shouldn’t have brought it up now, even if he’s hurt.

You hummed. You talked to Nozomi about a few other things but your mind was stuck on the conversation you had with Hiromi even after your call ended. When you got her out of Suna’s apartment, you tried to talk to her into leaving.

- You can’t stop yourself from hurting him, don’t you ? she scoffed.

You felt your shoulder get tense. You had trouble staying calm.

- I can’t believe you have the nerve to say this. You just cheated on him !

- And he cheated on me with you first.

- Do not put the blame of what you did on me. You’re jealous and insecure and you need to work on it.

- How come I’m the insecure one ? she retorted. You’re the one who toyed with him before leaving him just for your self-esteem.

Toy with him ?

- He told me everything. You knew how much he relied to you and you lied to him. You left him alone.

- He rejected me, you protested with a trembling voice.

- Was that a reason to lie to him ? To betray his trust ?

You lowered your head. You had lied and you had betrayed his trust. Not telling him how you felt all this time was just like lying to him. He was your friend before anything else. You should have been honest to him all this time.

You took a deep breath. You tried to calm down. It all belonged to the past. You needed to keep your hands off what you couldn’t control… and start to think about what you could change.

You put a hand on Hiromi’s shoulder.

- Look, I’ve hurt him too. But it doesn’t mean you should be here.

She pushed your hand off her.

- If you get into this room and impose yourself when he needs space, you will lose him forever. If you want a chance, you have to respect his choice.

You wondered… what if that was what didn’t work. After the confession, you stopped listening to each other.

She scoffed and walked away.

- He’s still my boyfriend until he tells me he’s not anymore, so you better keep your hands to yourself.

It was not like you were going to try anything but you wondered if he didn’t need space from you too. You decided it was for the best to keep my hands and mind from meddling into Suna’s life. At least for a little while.

Suna didn’t text you the next day. You texted him the day after to see how he was going byt he didn’t reply You started to get worried so you called after five days.

- Hello ? you heard.

You recognized that voice.

- H… Hiromi ?

- Oh, Y/N, hi ! Rin is right there, hang on.

She seemed happy.

- Y/N ?

- Hey ! I… just… called to see how you were doing…

- Oh, I’m good !

He sounded good. Almost as if nothing had happened. Was he pretending nothing happened ?

- I took your advice… I’m trying with Hiromi…

- Oh. That’s great ! I’m happy for you…

- Yeah…

You two stayed silent for a while.

- I gotta go… Bye, Y/N.

You had barely answered when he hung up.

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Hey ! I’m posting this so late but I hope you enjoyed this chapter… Unfortunately, I’m gonna be very busy for the next 10 days but I hope I’m still gonna be able to update it this weekend… Anyway, have a good day !

[shiratori-no-hikari]

Confession

Pairing : Suna x Reader

Previous Part

You had been talking for the past ten minutes non stop and Suna barely hummed in answer. He had been like that for the past week and a half, right after the dinner. He also barely texted you during that time, always short and almost cold. You wondered if something happened, if you did something wrong. But you also thought it might be something about his private life, so you never asked. You accepted that you two didn’t need to be very close. It wasn’t like back then anymore. You also decided against going to his games. Sure, you were interested in volleyball whether he was in or not (he was one who gave you that interest, after all) but you felt like you were crossing a line. You had decided to stop being involved so much in his life. You knew that someone was supposed to be at least a little bit involved in their friend’s life, but you still thought that dinner was off, in some kind of way you hadn’t figure out yet. Your memories of how you suddenly felt were still vivid in your mind. You didn’t know why you had followed him outside that night. What were you about to tell him ? And what was this feeling in your chest that seemed to come back everytime you thought about it. It was a mix of embarrassment and excitement and you still couldn’t point out what it was about. Maybe Nozomi’s words were just getting into your head. Since you told her what happened, she didn’t stop calling you Icarus, saying Suna was your sun. You swept this thought away from your mind.

- This coffee is excellent ! you said.

He hummed. You weren’t even drinking coffee. He wasn’t listening to you. You couldn’t take it anymore.

- Is there something wrong ? you asked.

He shook his head no.

- I’m f…

He suddenly stopped and chuckled.

- I’m sorry, I shouldn’t lie to you. I’ll sort things out as quickly as possible.

You cleared your throat. You didn’t want to cross the line, but you needed to know.

- Did I do something wrong ?

You saw his eyes widen.

- No, you didn’t…

You relaxed a bit, but you knew something happened that day.

- I think my girlfriend is cheating on me.

You froze.

- Cheating ? you repeated in disbelief.

He nodded. She cheated ? That woman who seemed so jealous of you being around her boyfriend cheated ? The same girl who was desperate to know he felt as much as she did ? You barely knew her, yet you had a hard time believing it. It couldn’t be. Your heart broke, thinking about how Suna must have felt. The way he felt for her was unmistakable.

- I saw a text…

He explained everything to you. The text he saw, how he wasn’t able to ignore it.

- Are you sure she cheated though ?

He stared at you.

- How would you explain this text ?

- Can’t you think about any other situation where you could’ve send that text ? Or I ?

He furrowed his eyebrows, thinking. Then, he nodded.

- You actually said texted something like that once.

- But it doesn’t mean we’re dating. So…

- Maybe she’s not cheating, he concluded.

You smiled at him. You hoped that you were right.

- The best way to know is to ask…

He nodded but that was what bothered him. He wasn’t sure he wanted to know. What if she cheated ? What if she never felt the way he felt ? What if she had just been playing him this whole time.

He suddenly felt a warm hand on him, and he looked at you.

- It’s ok not wanting to know… but can you really stay like this forever ?

He shook his head no and he sat up. His hand was cold again and he missed it already.

- I’ll go and ask her.

You nodded with a smile. It looked like you were confident. Like you knew that she didn’t do it. He wanted to believe it as much as you did. He left the coffee shop.

- Damn, that was pretty stupid, he muttered.

He was standing in front of the building where his girlfriend worked. What if she was busy ? Of course she was, she always was. He stepped into the building and asked the secretary that he was looking for Hiromi. The woman smiled widely and told him where she was.

- She tells us about you often, you know ? she said.

He smiled shyly too. It felt like it was the acknowledgement that he was someone in his life. Someone she cared about. He suddenly felt silly, looking at her working from afar. How could he had doubts about her ? Her eyes met his. He walked toward her and took her hands. He wasn’t the type to be very affectionate where people could see him, but he needed to feel her.

- What are you doing here ? she asked.

Her tone seemed off, cold but he didn’t care.

- I came to see you.

- Why ?

- Because I wanted to ? he asked, confused.

- Did you wanted to or did someone told you to ?

Well, technically, you weren’t the one who told him to come uninvited at her work. That was one thing he knew was crossing the line. But he had to see her.

- Were you with Y/N before ? she asked.

He looked away. She always asked this at the wrong time. It wasn’t like the two of you were seeing each other that often. He nodded. She pulled her hand away from his and turned around to leave.

- I wanna eat lunch with you, Hiromi.

She sighed.

- We don’t eat lunch together, Rin. What happens ?

His hand was shaking.

- Are you cheating on me ?

She froze, staring at him.

Oh God, I made a mistake.

He shouldn’t have asked. She would never. He knew now, he felt it now. He remembered how she looked at him, the small things she did for him. He…

- I’m sorry, he heard. I wanted to tell you but…

- Oh.

He chuckled. He felt nothing.

- I didn’t expect you to say yes… I think I would’ve believed you if you had said no.

He walked away.

- Where are you going ? she asked.

She was following him. She had such a sweet voice.

- It’s none of your business anymore.

- You’re going to see Y/N, aren’t you ?

He ignored her.

- Don’t you think that’s cheating too ?

He stopped.

- You’re in love. You don’t tell me that, but you know it. Just because you didn’t do anything doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt the same.

He turned back to her, his eyes cold as ice.

- I loved you. Not Y/N, not anybody else. I was in love with you from the beginning. I didn’t want to scare you away but I thought you knew.

He saw her tears escape from her eyes as they both stayed silent. His heart started to hurt. The world started to spin and he tried to ignore the lump in his throat. He didn’t want to move. He wanted the world to freeze to this moment forever. His confession. He didn’t think it would feel that bitter. Because he couldn’t love her anymore. No matter how much his heart ached to hold her, to be with her. He knew he had to walk away.

And so, with a heavy heart, he did.

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Confusions

Pairing : Suna x Reader

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- Why would you do that ? Nozomi screamed through the phone.

Why exactly ? What gave you the need to run to your door to see him ? Was it the cake ? Was it what you felt when you saw it ? Were you just grateful ? Was it more ?

- I don't know.... I just wanted to see him. I needed to see him.

Nozomi stayed silent. You already knew what she was thinking.

- Not like this. I just like being with him. It's awkward but it feels nice.

- Nice, she repeated. Is that so ?

- Yeah. I think we both are a little confused right now.

- Confused about your feelings toward each other ?

- No... more about who we are. We used to be friends and we're friends now but we both are different too. We are trying to get back to what we used to be while knowing it can be like it used to.

You groaned in frustration.

- I don't even know if it makes sense.

- It kinda does but... you need to sort it out quickly. He's in a relationship and if his girlfriend keeps thinking there's something between the two of you...

You hummed. You knew that. It wasn't that the line between friendship and romance was blurry to you, or that you wanted something else. You just didn't know how to fix this. You even wondered if you were supposed to be the one fixing this. Hiromi wasn't your girlfriend and you did nothing wrong.

Did you think Suna did ?

- Y/N !

You got out of your thoughts.

- Don't mind too much. Only try to change what you can. You shouldn't feel responsible for his whole life.

You hummed again. You went to bed shortly after this conversation, but you couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong in this situation.

Suna was tired when he went back to his apartment. The apartment was weirdly silent.

- Hiromi ? he called

Did she leave ? He went into his bedroom and saw his girlfriend, sitting on the bed.

- What was that ? she asked coldly.

He froze. Was something wrong ? He tried to replay the evening. When he went back home, Hiromi and you looked like you had talked, and you seemed to get along well. What had changed ?

- That ?

- Tonight was awful.

He looked at his girlfriend. Her eyes were glossy, but she kept her voice calm. It was a sign that this conversation needed to happen. He walked toward her and gently sat next to her.

- You know... Y/N told me to watch and see. And what I saw...

She sobbed and Suna stopped himself from taking her in his arms. She needed to talk about something and he knew doing this would keep her from being direct. But there was nothing he wanted more than to hold her. No matter what was wrong, he was ready to fix it.

- You barely looked at me. What I saw was love, and it wasn't toward me. Do you love Y/N ?

- No, he said and he couldn't keep himself from grabbing her hand. I don't. I...

I love you. Words threatened to spill but he couldn't. Not that soon.

- It was all about Y/N tonight. You cooked ! And it wasn't for me !

He frowned his eyebrows.

- I cook for you too...

She nodded.

- Looks like we're equal there. But I am your partner. Y/N isn't. We can't be equal.

He needed to kiss her. He needed to show her how much he cared about her. It almost physically hurt him not to do so.

- Would you date Y/N ?

- No, he quickly answered.

Almost too quickly.

- If we weren't together, she insisted.

- No, he repeated. I wanna be with you.

- It sure didn't feel like it tonight.

- How did you feel ?

She took a deep breath.

- I felt as if you didn't want me there. That's why I'm asking you how you feel.

He knew what she was asking.

- I just want my friend back. But it... didn't exactly felt like I expected.

- How did you feel ? his girlfriend asked with a shaking voice.

She was probably making a thousand scenarios in her head, with every single one of them ending with him leaving her.

- It's like Y/N is a stranger but a friend at the same time. I just don't know how to act. But it's all there is. There's no romantic feelings.

- Then why did you keep rejecting me ? she whined.

She was hurt. He seemed to move mountains for his friend but was totally uninterested with his girlfriend.

- I didn't...

- First, it was lunch... and then your game... you keep telling me no.

He sighed.

- When we started this relationship, you made it very clear that you put your job before everything, right ?

She nodded and she looked at the floor in embarrassment. She knew he was right. She knew he wasn't being mean on purpose, that he wasn't ignoring her just because you were there. All he did was respect her wishes.

- You almost never come to my games, he added, and we never grab lunch together. You're working.

She looked at him, horrified.

- It's not a bad thing ! I love that you have goals for yourself !

He froze. He said that word again. "Love". But she didn't seem to notice, she was still looking at him with wide eyes. She was shaking her head.

- I'm sorry ! I'm so sorry !

He never heard her so panicked. She stepped away from him and when he tried to reach for her, she ran into the bathroom and locked the door, apologizing once again.

He followed her silently and sat next to the door. He waited. He heard her cry over and over, until the door opened. When she got out, she had a sad smile, but she pretended everything was fine. She told him that she would tell him when the time would come so he didn't insist.

Yet, he couldn't stop thinking something was wrong, he couldn't ignore this uneasiness. Something wasn't right.

Just when he thought that, his girlfriend phone vibrated. It was like the universe was giving him a clue to this mystery. He took it to give it to her when he saw. It was not like he had meant to read the text. But now, it just wouldn't erase itself from his memory. The text.

"Don't call what happened a mistake"

It was like his mind couldn't stop thinking about every scenarios to this text. But all of them were silenced by one.

His girlfriend was cheating on him.

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Dinner

Pairing : Suna x Reader

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The door opened. You almost expected to see Suna in sweatpants with a tired smile, like you used to when you were younger. What you didn't expect was to hear a delicate voice :

- Hi ! You must be Y/N...

You looked at the woman in front of you. She was wearing a beautiful blue dress and her hair were in a perfect bun. You could tell she put effort into her outfit. You remembered Nozomi's words. "You can't be prettier than her". Well, there was no way that could happen.

- Come in !

You did as she said.

- I'm Hiromi. Suna's girlfriend.

She emphasized on "girlfriend" but you couldn't tell if it was on purpose or not, so you pretended not to hear it. You smiled. He got himself a jealous girlfriend. You never thought he would. He always used to say being with someone jealous and possessive was exhausting. He didn't like the idea of a "high-maintenance relationship". He sure changed a lot.

- Nice to meet you, you said.

Hiromi smiled back at you.

- Suna isn't here yet, I guess he's running late from practice.

You laughed.

- Some things never changed.

- Well, he was supposed to be the one cooking, he insisted on that.

- Why ?

- He wanted to cook for you.

Her tone was colder than before, yet, she smiled at you. The room grew silent. You didn't know what to say. You thought about Nozomi and suddenly her thousand words of advice came back to you. It was as if you were doing everything wrong.

- I'm sorry but I'm gonna be straightforward. Do you still like my boyfriend ?

You would lie if you said you didn't expect it. You shook your head.

- Not the way you think. You don't have to worry about that.

She scoffed.

- I'm not sure about that. It would a beautiful story if you two got together, don't you think ?

- It would be. But it's just that. A story.

You heard her hum. You couldn't tell whether she believed you or not.

- They say that when you fix a broken cup, it makes the cup more beautiful.

You laughed at what she said.

- I agree. But our cup was shattered. And it being beautiful doesn't make it any less than a broken cup. You are a new, shining and beautiful cup. And you are a cup he cherishes.

She laughed.

- It's weird to see myself as a cup.

She sighed.

- I just don't know if he likes me as much as I do, and it's so scary...

You heard her voice shake.

- One of the first thing he did when we saw each other again was talking about you. I don't know if he's vocal about his feelings, he wasn't back then but... look at him and see.

She was about to say something when the front door opened.

- I'm late, I'm sorry, I'm late...

You could hear his voice getting closer. When he finally walked inside the living room, he froze.

- You look beautiful.

You looked away, feeling like you were witnessing something you shouldn't. And she still didn't know he was in love with her ?

- Thank you, she answered shyly.

- Y/N, hi.

You finally looked at him. Why didn't she say he looked beautiful too ? His hair were messily falling on his forehead and his cheeks were slightly red and you wondered whether it was because of his practice or if he ran back home.

- I'm sorry, are you very hungry ? I can start cooking right away...

You smiled at him.

- I'm not hungry yet... Just take a shower and rest for a moment.

He nodded and walked to what you assumed was his bedroom. Weirdly, Hiromi stayed silent. You tried to initiate a conversation, but her answers were very short and cold. Fortunately, Suna came back quickly. It seemed like he didn't follow your advice to rest, because he went to the kitchen right away.

- You're not gonna believe it, Y/N ! I'm a great cook now !

You laughed. He never were a good cook. He wasn't bad but if people could avoid eating what he cooked, they would, himself included. You often were the one cooking for him. You were already cooking for yourself, so you didn't mind cooking for two. You used to tell him, he needed to learn how to cook better for when he would be alone and he always said :

- You're gonna be there forever anyway, right ?

You knew he was joking, but you still left him. He had become a great cook almost right in front of you. You still remembered his first attempts he sent you after he had moved out. It was awful. But he became better and better at it until he reached what seemed to be a good level. You wondered if he became even better after he stopped texting you.

Suna and you kept talking until dinner was ready. You couldn't help but notice that his girlfriend stayed silent all along. You had the feeling that she was staring at you to send you a message but you brushed it off. You explained yourself before Suna arrived, after all. And she understood that there was nothing between the two of you. You all started to eat, and you tried to include Hiromi in the conversation.

- Have you been playing the violin for a long time ?

There was a violin in the room. You guessed it wasn't Rin's and so you assumed she really spent a lot of time at his place, if she even got her own violin in his apartment.

She looked up at you, her cold eyes piercing through your face.

- Since I was little. But how did you know it wasn't Rin's ?

You chuckled.

- He never played the violin back then, and with volleyball, I assumed he was too busy to start.

You saw her smirk.

- Well, he actually tried to start.

Then she mumbled :

- I guess he changed a lot since you used to know him.

The room grew silent. You understood. She was daring you to take him from her, even though it was far from what you wanted. A part of you wanted to put up a fight, but you had nothing to fight for. You didn't want him like that anymore. All you wanted was to be his friend again, to be part of his life.

- Looks like he did, you confirmed.

You knew she said it to hurt you, but it was true. She looked at Suna, full of pride. He was looking at you in a way you couldn't decipher.

- Y/N, there's a game next week...

He looked away. He was waiting for you to say you would come. Back in high school, you were always playing with him, pretending you wouldn't come. He always tried to hide his disappointment when he said you were busy.

- I'll try to come and see you, I promise. I miss seeing you win.

- We weren't winning all the time, he chuckled.

- True. But it was fine, you looked cool either way.

Suna knew it was what you used to think. You were in love with him back then. But hearing you say it now did something different. He wondered if you would still find him as cool as you used to. Why did it matter so much ?

- I could come too ! Hiromi suddenly said.

Suna looked at her.

- And your project at work ? he asked.

She sighed.

- I know ! she whined. But I wanna see you. You're so beautiful when you play volleyball.

He hummed and said :

- You'll see me when your project is over. I don't want you to get late for this...

He got up and kissed her forehead before cleaning the table.

- Would you like a dessert ? he asked, turning toward you.

- It's fine. It's getting late, actually...

- Oh.

It made sense. He came home later than he thought. He tried to hide it but you saw it. That disappointed face. The same one he used to have when you said you couldn't come to his games.

Some things never change.

- It's fine... let me drive you home.

You nodded. He went to the kitchen for a moment and came back with a box.

- That's the dessert... in case you're hungry when you get home.

You took it and tried to open it but he stopped you.

- Don't do it now... it's a surprise.

His cheeks were slightly red.

You waved goodbye at Hiromi and get into his car. The drive was comfortably silent. You curiously stared while he was driving and you sometimes laughed. You really couldn't believe he was driving a car. He often stopped himself from staring at you too. He had always loved your laughs. He had missed them too. When you arrived home, you got out. You told him goodbye, promising to do your best to go to see his game. He was still looking at you when you closed the door of your apartment. You immediately opened the box to see the cake. The first thing you saw was your favorite cake. Then, you saw the note on the box.

"I made your favorite cake, I hope you'll like it. I told you I became a great cook ! I just wish I could see your face while tasting this masterpiece !"

You looked at the front door behind you. Maybe it wasn't too late. You went back to your tracks and opened the front door, ready to invite him home. Then, he could see how happy you were. You wondered when he started to bake it. Did he keep it a secret when he still texted you, so you would get a surprise when you would answer him ? Did he start when he decided to leave you alone, as a sad memory of you ? You had so many questions, and so many things you wanted to tell him.

But when you opened the door, his car was already gone.

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Growing Close

Pairing : Suna x Reader

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It had been a month since he had found you again. Since then, when he texted, you always answered. He always was surprised to unlock his phone to see a text of you. You two met a couple of times since then. He couldn’t help but notice how much you had changed.

Your smiles were smaller, but it felt like you were happier. You were calmer in general too. You now had the habit of looking at your schedule. He was surprised when he saw you note your next meeting like an appointment. Seeing how he looked at you, you joked :

- I wasn’t that organized back then, right ?

You were also much more confident. In yourself, in your skills, in your future. And you had that wisdom that grows with age, you had much more than him. You always gave him pieces of advice in the past, but it felt different now. Now, it felt like you had lived enough to know what you were talking about.

It felt like meeting a new person. He was sure you felt that way too. You didn’t call him Rin anymore, just Suna, like you were getting to know him again. He couldn’t bring himself to not call you by your first name, it would hurt too much. He wanted to think that you would grow close again, one day. But he couldn’t deny you were somebody he used to know, and that he needed to learn about you all over again.

He noticed how he kept wanting for more. More of you, your smiles, your laughs, more of the two of you together again. Even though it felt good, he also knew how wrong it could become.

- Still on your phone ?

Suna looked at his girlfriend. He immediately dropped his phone and opened his arms. She laid down in his arms.

- I didn’t wanna bring it up but… you seem to…

She couldn’t say it, yet he knew what she wanted to say.

- Hiromi… I only look at you.

She nodded. He could feel her tense in his arms.

- Y/N is just an old friend.

- A friend you talk to a lot, she added with a sad voice. Someone who knows you better than I do and something happened between the two of you.

- Nothing happened between us. And you know me better.

That was true. He never liked you that way in the past and you were basically a stranger now. Just someone he wanted to get to know again. He looked at his girlfriend. He needed to set clear boundaries. Not for him, he told himself, but for his girlfriend.

- Are you doing something for lunch ?

He was seeing you, he thought. Hiromi was always busy during lunch, due to her busy work, so he figured he could just see you then.

- I…

He heard her sigh heavily as she got out of the bed.

- Forget I ask.

She sounded exasperated.

- I can still cancel.

He hoped it was not too late for you. He hoped you wouldn’t mind.

- I know you can but… if you’re free for lunch, why didn’t you ask me first ?

- Because you’re always busy during lunches.

She looked away. She clearly knew he was right but she couldn’t help but be frustrated. He got up and pulled her into a hug.

- I’ll cancel and we’ll get lunch together. I know how you feel but…

I’m crazy about you. He remembered what you told him. It was still too early in the relationship.

- I’m only looking at you. No one else.

He kissed her. Then, he reached out for his phone. He saw your text. He couldn’t help but feel guilty.

You (9:36 pm) : Do you still eat cookies ? I can bake those like I used to if you like.

Suna (9:44 pm) : Mind if I take a rain check on that lunch ?

Suna (9:45 pm) : Something came up, I’m sorry.

You (9:48 pm) : It’s fine, don’t worry !

Were you ? Fine ? He remembered the times when you said it was fine and you weren’t. You always ended up fighting. He didn’t want to fight you. He felt like he owed you more explanations. And then he realized. You weren’t his best friend anymore. You weren’t his whiny friend who used to hold everything in and suddenly burst. You weren’t his friend whom he used to argue with while hugging each other. You weren’t a kid anymore.

Suna (9:50 pm) : I’m sorry

You (9:53 pm) : Don’t be !

He put his phone down and his girlfriend turned the light off. He fell asleep shortly after, wondering how the next day would have been if he had his lunch with you.

And so he was only able to meet you a week later.

- I’m sorry… for last week.

You smiled.

- I told you it was ok !

You sat. It was only the third time you came here with Suna, yet you could tell that the waitress who always came to take your orders was looking at you. Maybe she was wondering why you two looked so awkward with each other.

Suna was a little more tense than usual. He had been thinking all week. This reunion with you clearly affected his girlfriend. He knew this, and he needed to act on it. Based on his experiences, he knew he had to be honest, not only to his girlfriend but also to you.

- I’m not sure we should see each other that often, he mumbled.

You tilted your head to the side. Your eyes changed, becoming more serious but you still had that reassuring smile on your face so he kept going :

- I’m pretty sure she’s jealous… she said we were spending too much time together.

- And what do you think ?

He didn’t want to stop talking to you, yet, he understood where his girlfriend came from. If only she could see how different it was from what she thought. There was absolutely nothing between you two, he wasn’t even totally sure he could call it friendship yet.

- You know… if you think we shouldn’t see each other anymore, it’s fine too.

- No !

He almost screamed and startled you. The idea of losing you again terrified him. He didn’t want to let you go ever again. He suddenly felt the heat on your hand under his. He didn’t even notice he put your hand above yours. He quickly pulled out, like it burnt him and apologized.

- It’s fine, you only said.

You were staring at your cake, as if you didn’t want to meet his eyes. The more he looked at you, the more the answer to this issue became clear.

- How do you feel about meeting her ?

You looked up at him and nodded.

- When are you free for dinner ?

And so, you were invited to Suna’s house for dinner, to meet his girlfriend. Girlfriend who, you supposed, wasn’t even aware of his plan. What could possibly go wrong ?

- Absolutely everything can go wrong ! Nozomi screamed that evening when you told her. When did you say it was ?

- Tomorrow… but it’s gonna be fine.

- It will be… but there’s a lot of things you need to think about. Should you wear something classy ? But not too much, you can’t be prettier than her.

She started pointing out everything you needed to think of and, even though you forgot half of what she said, when you hung up, you were far more stressed about the dinner than you were before.

When you arrived in front of Suna’s door, wearing brand new clothes, you were a bundle of nerves.

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Midnight Drive

Fandom: Haikyuu

Character: Miya Atsumu

Warnings: not much just him being cute

Notes: i wanted to write more to this but 🤷‍♂️ here we are

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Tsumie <3 You busy?

Me Babe its 12:40 am

Tsumie<3 And you're awake. so. you busy?

You roll your eyes at your phone—you hadn’t been planning on answering your phone this late at night, but when your boyfriend’s name popped up on your screen, you couldn’t help it.

Me I’m not busy, what do you want?

Tsumie <3 Ooh so rude, how dare you 😂 No but anyway, can i come pick you up? I'm bored and i wanna go on a drive

Me What you wanna sneak out like were kids again

Tsumie <3 Yes I’ll be there in ten?

Me Sure

You threw on some clothes and shoes, heading to the front door of your apartment. Just as you were going to open the door, a knock sounded through it. Before opening it, you checked through the peephole and saw Atsumu looking at his phone. You open the door and he looked up, grinning at you.

“‘Was just about ta text ya, sweetheart,” he said, offering his hand for you. When you took it, he pulled you in, taking the opportunity to wrap his free arm around your waist. “Gimme a kiss, won’t cha?”

You grin at him and press a quick kiss to his lips. “What’s got you all wide awake, Mr. Miya?”

He chuckled and pulled you closer to him, leaning you backward in his arms, slightly. He knew you weren’t going anywhere, though—all those years of volleyball had to pay off somehow. “‘M just lovin’ ya, darlin’, what else is new?”

You rolled your eyes, taking the opportunity to kiss him again. “Shut up and get out to the car so we can drive, hm?” you ask with a smile.

“If you so choose. Let’s go.”

You lean your head against Atsumu’s shoulder, smiling at the stars above your heads. “It’s pretty out.”

“Yer prettier.”

“Sap.”

He scoffs and wraps his arm around your shoulders. “Thanks for coming out with me tonight, darlin’. I got bored and couldn’t sleep.”

“How come?”

“Dunno.” He shrugged. “How come you were up?”

“I don’t know, either, actually. Right place right time?”

“We can go with that,” he chuckled, kissing your temple. “Ya know, I meant what I said earlier.”

You look at him, turning your body to face him. “About what?”

“I love ya.”

He turned to face you, too, pulling you a little closer to him at the waist. You brushed a little hair out of his face, letting your hand rest on the side of his neck. You pulled him in, pressing a slow, gentle kiss to his lips. He tasted like the chapstick you let him borrow, you noted—that was one more thing to love about him. He never liked to have his own things, he just stole yours. It was fine because you stole his, too. There was so much of each other’s stuff at your apartments that it was hard to tell what was whose.

You smile as you pull away, leaning your head against his. “I love you, too, Atsumu.”

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