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had to talk to a younger version of myself today in therapy, did not like it

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some more art about dissociation

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they are finally here!

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sometimes I look back at pluralkit and think about using it again, but there is no reason to

a lot of the things I did with pluralkit were in dms bc I was too scared to have my use of it public, I never wanted others to see it ever

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This user is constantly checking if they have a personality

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does anyone have any recommendation for some picrews? I just want a new icon and I don't want it to have like a full face, just something I can make kinda look how I feel

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sometimes I wonder if there is ever a real cause for these ice pick headaches, is there a medical reason? or am I just so broken my head makes itself hurt for fun

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I think people gotta understand when you're plural is that the majority of the time you can't control your/alters sources. they just happen sometimes. nothing to be upset about or ashamed of, hope this makes other systems feel better.

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I made a few more pieces about dissociation

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myself... and them...

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a poem

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I hate being wrong

So should I just keep being shoalofone? Or should I go back to shoalofafew since idk how many there may or may not be

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i thought drawing them will help me move on, it didn't, so here, it's them ig

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I am one person

I am pieces of one person

There is tape struggling to hold us together

But we persevere

As one person

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Resources 🌼

(Updated regularly)

🪷 Emergency resource: oh no I’m having a bad thought

🌻 Apps and Games

Finch: mental health app where you care for a little bird! Offers many features such as focus timers, rant zones, nature sounds, fun questions, and more! You can even make friends on it and send them encouragement :) (my friend code)

Adorable Home: a precious game in which you have a tiny spouse, cats, and a little house you can decorate! You can check in and enjoy peaceful music, different scenes, and upgrades through collecting tiny hearts you earn through easy tasks! A truly adorable and relaxing game!

Seashine: a game set underwater in which you guide a tiny luminescent jellyfish through the abyss. Beautiful, relaxing music and distant whale noises; some scary enemies, so if you have thalassophobia this might not be the one for you. Very calming otherwise though, and the creator is coming out with an enemy-free version soon in which you can just float around to the music!

Cat Snack Bar: an adorable app where you operate different business venues with the help of chubby, adorable cats! You check in periodically to collect money and update your venue, but otherwise it doesn't require much brain power. A very cute game to help you relax!

Webtoon: a comic app that allows you to browse thousands of creative and often relaxing webcomics! My personal favorite is Cursed Princess Club; it's a very clever and happy one with a lot of good messages!

1010!: a fun little game where you match up blocks. Fairly simple and satisfying, and you can update your backgrounds to fun designs!

Papa's Cupcakeria: a relaxing and satisfying game where you make cupcakes! And of course there’s a whole series of games in the Papa Louie universe to choose from that are fun and happy :)

🪸 Fun Websites

Neal.fun: features many creative pages you can visit such as— a stack of movable rocks, a page that shows how deep the ocean really goes, who was alive [insert year], draw logos from memory, and more!

WindowSwap: lets you go through windows around the world! You can log in and save your favorites, and make it fullscreen if you need to study and want a nice thing in the background to keep you from distractions.

mrdoob.com: a wacky website with lots of fun features you can draw and mess around with

boredbutton: for when you're bored out of your mind and want a pointless website to mess with!

theuselessweb.com: takes you to a completely useless website, such as a page where it rains corndogs or a page where you can create different forms of art.

ashortjourney.com: lets you take a small and beautifully drawn trip on a trolley and pick up/drop off tiny creatures!

Forestopia: allows you to explore images of forests and the things inside, with background forest noises!

boredpanda.com: full of memes, funny stories, and more!

listverse: contains many lists, some horrifying (so be warned for those) and some just fascinating!

🍄 Focus Sites and Playlists

rainymood.com: a site/app that lets you listen to rain for as long as you want!

asoftmurmur.com: lets you listen to a variety of sounds like rain, thunder, or a fire!

Open ocean: 10 hours of underwater videography of a spot in the ocean!

imissmycafe.com: site that lets you listen to the noises of a coffee shop! You can change the different noises too :)

Secret Forest Playlist: peaceful music; 2 hours

Rain on Leaves on a Forest Road in Autumn: rain in the woods; 10 hours

Haunted Village Halloween Ambience: eerie but quiet music; 3 hours

Relaxing Autumn/Fall Forest: sounds of wind, crows, songbirds, and creaking trees; 7 hours

Chill Beats for Worldbuilding and Writing: Fabulous lofi music; 1 hour

It's Just a Dream/Dreamcore: Very peaceful and ambient music; 4 hours

Autumn Acoustic: Autumn inspired songs; 5 hours

Sad Piano Music: beautiful piano pieces by Jurrivh; 6 hours

The Most Relaxing Waves Ever: beach noises; 8 hours

Rural Autumn Ambience and Music: gentle autumn-y music; 1 hour

Yanni: a playlist of beautiful word-free music by Yanni

pov- you're a pirate: a pirate-themed playlist for inspiration

Have your own recommendations? Drop a comment or ask!

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If you aren't purposely faking it, then you're not fake, even if it turns out you aren't a system, you weren't faking, you just had the wrong label for your symptoms, its okay to be wrong, there's nothing morally wrong about it, and if it turns out you are a system you wouldn't have known if you didn't explore it,

Everything will be alright in the end, I promise, stay strong and keep fighting

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Partner talked to therapist yesterday and sadly he isn't giving up on the idea of me being a system

My therapist told him "people need to come to the realization themselves, if there even is anything" and this fucker looked me in the eyes and said "it's okay you'll realize and accept it eventually"