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i used to live with a curse of gaining and losing the same 3-4kgs every few months

now, i have every kilogram between me and my ugw written on a stack of post it notes, every time i go below that number, i burn it, to remind myself this is a one way trip.

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the honeymoon phase

i’m back again

fat peeling off my body,

effortless starvation

Ana, i’ve known you so long

how do you make it feel fresh after all these years?

never leave me, Ana

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the ever present cycle

i see a reflective surface

i body check

oh no, i look fat

i avoid every reflective surface.

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when you're doing everything right

fingers cold, heartbeat slow, glancing back at your phone to my fitness pal to remind yourself how few calories you've eaten today. your fitness watch says you've burned far more calories than that. "will i eat again today?" you think.

on the inside your body slowly eats itself, continues what functions it has yet to turn off or slow down, consuming adipose tissue. you're shrinking, gradually shrinking with every exhale and nothing can stop that from happening. all you have to do is not mess up, the formula is simple... calories in < calories out, time will vindicate you

isn't that worth it? aren't you capable?

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how can they possibly put that in their body?

what you eat is so important, it's literally you taking in the building blocks for your own body, your body naturally regenerates and how it regenerates is down to you, did you give it the right building materials?

eat purely, eat properly, your future body will thank you. what part of the junk food environment makes you think it's a good place to be? a good example to follow? have you seen the health problems of the modern day?

eat good, feel good, become good.

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i will never unsee this

this thinspo has been stuck in my brain for a long time, and like a moth to a neon flame i return to it oh so often, it is my north star, i point towards it for guidance in hopes i can attain a fraction of it.