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“You simply cannot fit more America into a single incident than a man dying a horrifying death in protest of war crimes while a first responder screams at cops to stop pointing their guns at him and go get fire extinguishers. If you were to pick a single moment in history to sum up the essence and expression of the US empire, that would be it.”

Caitlin Johnstone, The Most American Thing That Has Ever Happened

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Poor Things (2023)

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trying to explain my emotions to someone, getting invalidated, and then telling myself never to open up to anyone again in a vicious hourly cycle

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“you’re so distant” you literally made me feel like i wasn’t important

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I can feel it bubbling in me. Rage that is.

I’m so tired of being low maintenance everything to everyone. Instead of just leaving me alone and letting me be… I have to people please no matter how much it destroys me.

I feel absolutely feral because I like the way it feels but hate the aftermath of disgust that I let myself get to this point again. But the build up is cute tho

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going thru mood swings makes me feel like a sim its so embarrassing

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Yoshi Busan (부산대타투)

Universe in Your Eyes

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sorry i argue alot i tried to communicate but nobody listened to me unless i was being scary or harming them and now i have no other means of communication

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cute bpd things!!

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*small inconvenience* BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP

yeah im fine lol look at this meme :D

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mood depending on them

every text hurts or feels way too good

intrusive thought yeouch okay ouch thats another one yeOOUCH

the 50000+ articles on how youre abusive

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fp is bad for me but its ok i love them<3

"if i hurt someone its gonna be myself"

becoming completely obsessed with someone the moment they give you the slightest attention

never being able to cut anyone off ever. immediately go running back

cry because theyre talking to someone that IS NOT ME

oh my fp isnt here. okay. oh im dissociating okay i dont have any purpose to continue living without them okay my life literally revolves around them i want to die where are they are they safe i dont know what to do with myself

"just leave. everyone does anyways"

5 minutes later theyre the worst person ever

*looking for an identity* hmmm, where could it be?

dependent on fp like theyre a parental figure you never had

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Where did all these rats come from btw

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I feel like there are a lot of people out there who needs to hear this:

If you dropped out of school because of diagnosed (or undiagnosed) ADHD, Autism, ADD, OCD, Dyslexia, Anxiety, Depression, Bipolar disorder, psychotic disorders, schizophrenia etc… You did not fail. The education system failed you.

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"everybody experiences that" says mother who has the same symptom of the same mental illness

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fixed it‼️

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Thanks for hanging out with me! Was I cool? did you like me? What do you think of me in detail? Do you hate me?

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“that’s ok i understand!!!!” but it actually made me sick to my stomach

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