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i love taking a long time to eat so my husband wanders off,, right when he leaves my toast/apple is in the garbage :))

i ate way too much last night and woke up +1.5 lbs :(( and now it’s the weekend.. wish my luck!

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currently surviving solely on caffeine, nicotine, and pure unfiltered emotion

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good morning! 🌞

feeling good today even tho i’ve been maintaining for the last week! (not really i’m gonna throw myself off a bridge)

but the sun is out again and working overtime=more steps!!

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scrolling thru edblr is the highlight of my day tbh i’m just constantly thinking about how other people’s eating days are going

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My husband knows about my ed so every time i eat less than normal he starts questioning me. he can see right thru me i stg it’s terrible

he’d kill me if he saw me scrolling through edblr again..

(i appreciate him, but like let me be skinny)

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I ate too much yesterday. We had a bbq and i went a little over board-including having a few drinks. But I still woke up .5 pound lighter?? I mean, I’ll take it lol count it as a metab day

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Anyone want to be friends on my fitness pal? Let’s hold each other accountable!

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Just an experiment. Reblog if you actually give a fuck about male victims of domestic violence and rape.

Of fucking course

What sick bastard doesn’t

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STARVE UNTIL THEY’RE ALL FUCKING SORRY. STARVE UNTIL THEY FUCKING CARE. STARVE UNTIL THEY FUCKING LOVE ME. STARVE UNTIL THEY REGRET FUCKING ME UP. FUCKING. STARVE.

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A little fun storytime for anyone who cares

So, a few weekends ago I went to a birthday party for a friend at a bowling alley. The only people I knew there was the birthday girl and my best friend, Vanessa. There were a few other people there, to be specific three other boys. One was the birthday girls brother, one was her boyfriend thing, and one was this kid named Charlie, who was very gifted physically. So, Vanessa was flirting up Charlie the whole time, even while I was in the bathroom having a panic attack. And we offered to give him a ride home after because he lived kind of far and the party ended later than he anticipated. When he left, he asked for Vanessa’s snapchat and said goodbye to her, but not to me. And I understand, I didn’t talk much to him and Vanessa is much prettier than I am, but I looked up her snapchat to give to him, and he didn’t even think it was courteous to ask for mine. Fast forward a week or so and I’m with Vanessa at her house. She starts talking about Charlie and mentions him not asking for my snapchat or saying goodbye to me, and so she blatantly asks him why. He gave her a fake answer about how she was just nicer a stuff. And today, she got the real answer. And she told me. You guys wanna know what it was?

My boobs were too big :)

So here I am, already starving myself, hurting myself, hating myself. And this boy comes along and ruins my self-being completely. I can’t express how badly this hurt, and I don’t even know him.

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Why can’t I stop messing up

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them: those diets are so stupid, don’t people know you’ll put all the weight back on as soon as you start to eat normally again?

me: as soon as u what

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reminder: you aren’t faking your eating disorder if you eat “normally” for a few days or even a few weeks. your eating disorder doesn’t disappear just because you had a regular day, just like your recovery isn’t useless if you had a brief relapse. it’s about the mental struggle with eating and the shame we place on ourselves even if we can be “normal” on the outside. seek help if you can, stay as safe as you can. take care of yourself the best you can.

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Them: “Yeah it’s zero calories but do you know how many chem-“

Me:

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Reblog If..

🌟Your an Active Thinspo Blog 🌟

🌟16 or Older🌟

🌟Lgbt Friendly🌟

🌟Need to Loose 10-50lbs or More🌟

Ill Follow Everyone Who Reblogs :)

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ONLY REBLOG IF +4 or more

+ 1 if you are from 15 to 18 y.o.

+1 if you are part of the LGBT community

+1 if you like tv series

+1 if you have an eating disorder

+1 if you want to talk with someone

+1 if you want new friends

+1 if you like reading

+2 if you like the smell of rain

+2 if your favorite color is black

+2 if your favorite color is gray

+2 if you like sleeping

i’m going to send a “🌻” to everybody who repost! and maybe we can just start talking if you want 💞

let’s make new friends!

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The person I reblogged this from deserves to be happy

I tried to scroll past this. I really did