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silent-sentinels · 1 day ago

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[lays on our bed] anxious. anxious.

#woke up with so much nervous energy.#whats wrong @ our body. what the fuck. do you need something or like!!!#aughhhhhhh....#i think you just have to believe one day you're gonna feel better even if that's not today.#okay. okay. back to sleep.#[three of swords]

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silent-sentinels · 5 days ago

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heho :)

#treat break or yearning will absolutely riot lmao hgkjh #but anyway i think its interesting that we all started out as skills yknow? :]#skill blurbs are like. the first thing we did while we were still coming to terms with being plural theyre so fun to write #i dont think we're adding full descriptions to our sp but it should be noted at least half of us have the full paragraph skill descriptions #but having descriptions of exactly how we work just out in the open makes faucet nervous so we'll keep the full ones private hkjhg #but the little line blurbs are really fun and interesting to write!! we put a lot of thought into the wording of each of them :o #yearning has one of our favorites: ''Long for what remains forever unfulfilled. Crave sweetness on your lips.''#so does hackles: ''Explode in righteous fury. Burn your shackles and shacklers.''#wording these was really fun!! we put all the blurbs in and now we gotta work on balancing skill points which are complicated #its difficult to reasonably quantify your role in the body with a value. even worse when you include skill bonuses and the thought cabnet #theres empty points ◇. these represent the skill caps right? naturally assigned in game at the start so these are intrinsic.#then full points ◆ which count as 2. these ones you put effort into improving. in game these are earned with experience :o #and then skill bonuses (lookout has one natural skill point ◇ because our sight is shitty but gains a +3 because of our glasses)#(debonair has 2 points ◆ (<- empty skill cap and then filled with effort = 2) but gains a +1 with leather jacket and another +1 with boots)#and then thought cabnet. we do also have thought cabinet descriptions but again describing our inner psyche makes faucet uneasy #so just title and skill points attached to them. i think this alters things the most really? because skills can go past skill caps with it #so does faucet have a natural +10 or do we want to make some of that from a thought cabnet thought? balancing how much a point is worth #is also challenging. okay so this skill has 3. what does that mean. wait nevermind skills chart on the d/e wiki we'll go look into that :0 #god. d/e is such an interesting game with really interesting gameplay mechanics. ttr.pg stats but they talk to you!! that's so neat #<- lmao says the system hgkjh its fun to put things in that framework yknow? interesting to think about!! okay back to it o7

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silent-sentinels · 5 days ago

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trying to organize and its like. man. adding words to a tag is so hard. not even difficult actually just extremely time consuming. augh. ok complaints done we continue.

#[three of swords]#<- not serious just grumbling to ourselves while we work on this #like there MUST be a better way to organize all of this. surely.#ough. annoying. annoying. i don't know how we want to do this. i wish i could streamline this.#the thing about it is that working on this blog always makes us feel like. again is it fakecIaiming when it's against yourself?#its always like ''why are you working on this. this is stupid and you're not a real system anyway so fuck you'' it makes us feel bad -w-#oh we're organizing our other sys blog if this wasnt obvious btw #okay its going smoothly now we are placated by organizational repetition -w-#nevermind back to complaining how do we make this look not bad hgkjhg #oh hi euclydia our darlings <33 <22 #the alternating bold and regular text was supposed to make it easier to differentiate but this looks dogshit unfortunately -.-#does ''reblogs'' make it sound like the person who reblogged it is the emoji. thats incorrect if so. ogugh. godforbid we be misleading on #our silley sideblog away from this sideblog. this is pointless. we continue.

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silent-sentinels · 7 days ago

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WE FINISHED. THE STUPID BROCCOLI!! SO NOW!! WE GET ICE CREAM!!!!

[you're like a child]

NO NEED TO BE RUDE MAN

#🌻#💨#🌫️#🍂#''there's three lines of two people talking why are there four emojis'' shh shhh shh dont even worry about that :) ice cream time :)#we snuck out and restocked on treats today so we actually have a variety to choose from.#...#...where the fuck did yearning go. girl your treats. girl. your ice cream. you love ice cream.#IM!! HERE!! DEADSPRINTS HELPING TO KEEP ME ALIVE HGKJHG??#😭??? okay. sure. you hang tight do NOT leave i'm gonna go get the ice cream for us i guess?

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silent-sentinels · 7 days ago

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if we did do artf!ght, we definitely could just straight up upload ourselves as ocs, we are absolutely passable as ocs. however we cannot do artf!ght for a number of reasons,,, still its nice seeing all our cute icons all together on sp/our pronouns site :>

#its like. interesting yknow? developing all our designs to where we are now? might even say its impressive to have ~24 unique designs #very few of us match in any way but we look so cool‚ all of us together.#anyway... faucet's very active tonight. we drew her but can't post her because its just past the point of ''too much''#can't elaborate so whatever. i don't know. personally im just trying not to type intrusive thoughts right now.#i guess goodnight now. we'll be safe. just. i don't know. bye.

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silent-sentinels · 10 days ago

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got an ask today on main that very kindly asked if we were okay and its truly like "no but dont u worry about that 👍"

#man we gotta. gotta get back on main. eventually. eventually.#[starts crying] [abrupt tv cut to ''please standby'']#[we return in a minute and we're sitting quietly and neutrally] anyway.#we need a nap i think. or like. a sleep. 8 is a normal bedtime right. ok.

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silent-sentinels · 10 days ago

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fuck fathers day all my homies hate fathers day.

except oath!!! happy fathers day to oath our systems father figure yay!! ^^!! other than that though fuck all the evil fathers in the world, running them all through with my fucking sword.

#oath our beloved protector and embodiment of our will to live <33 #all other evil fathers WATCH OUT. WATCH TF OUT.#we have to cook and stuff for today -.-

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silent-sentinels · 11 days ago

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mmn. blblblrblrblblblblbbbbb

#☄️#🫂? 💤?#m here. not alone sweetheart don't worry.#🫂🫂🫂#🫂🫂🫂.#s'ok dearheart. think itd be good if we got q bit more sleep if we can tho #mhm 🌙 🫂#i'll hold you don't worry starling 🫂

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silent-sentinels · 13 days ago

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[adds paranoia holder to my roles and goes back to sleep]

#[iiiii don't know. i don't know. i don't know. is that okay? i. don't know.]#[trust is hard vulnerability is hard maybe its the avpd maybe it's just anxiety maybe this is normal?]#[i feel scared i don't think anywhere is safe which is probably not normal.]#[ok doesn't matter it doesn't matter back to sleep.]#🌫️

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silent-sentinels · 13 days ago

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probably one of the worst depression days we've had in a while but we survived it at least.

#[three of swords]#exhales gently.#today was. rough. but its a bit better now. not as heavy. a bit too light now‚ rather.#anxiety is flickering in our chest like a flame in the wind.#we have eaten. and had water. taking deep breaths. doing grounding.#we'll be ok. we'll be ok.

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silent-sentinels · 14 days ago

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making tea tonight,, surprisingly chamomile tea is not a front trigger for chamomile, but thats not saying much because chamomile is a frequent enough fronter as is anyway.

yearning was up considering how we're never going to be in a romantic relationship ever and like. mixed feelings about that one chief. i think she's sad that most of us are happier/more relieved that way. i don't think she's sure how she even feels about it. she,, withdrew a while ago. jaded's moping. (shut the fuck up)

distance has been though the fuckin wringer but this is unfortunately normal for us, especially as of late with the old server kicking up shit. (this is also 🏵️'s territory. we shan't say more.)

we found out like a few days ago that whimsy's source is trans now? i mean she's been nonbinary for a while but good for her! dont know what that means for us, hope whimsy has fun with that whenever hes back? he'll probably still be the same as ever. introject doesn't mean you're the source after all.

we should probably take another advil if the cramps are starting again. evangeline's been irritable as of late, and we don't blame her.

oh we fuckin aced it with the tea lets go. this shit is delicious. aight peace out for the night unless someone's got somethin to add later ✌️

#anyone got tags for this. nah. okay chillin.

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silent-sentinels · 15 days ago

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"dont trust your thoughts after the sun sets, or when you're on your period, or when you're tired or hungry or haven't showered, or when-" my man this sure is a lot of time not trusting myself.

#''and on weekends and holidays and all throughout may and you'll always be wrong no matter what you say!!'' /ref #like is there a time i /can/ trust myself like??? 😭??

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silent-sentinels · 16 days ago

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we did laundry, earlier today. blanket is soft and smells nice now. we are vaguely dissociated and also dont think we exist which is fine.

#blanket is nice and anchoring. very soft and heavy.#we did a lot today so maybe we wont have to do it tomorrow. thats good. so we can have tuesday with eucIydia. if it wants that.#we'll exist then maybe. we're not real right now but we'll be real later.#hm. foggy. hard to think. probably nap.

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silent-sentinels · 17 days ago

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took an advil. mentally, doing alright tonight. solid... solid 6/10 probably.

#not much to say. just voli updates i suppose.#hope you're doing alright too.#don't know if we'll go back to sleep soon or if we'll be up for a little. we'll see..

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