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talamasca website ugly as fuck 🤲🏼

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stop stoooooop stopppppp sttttop. we cannot be seriously equating LOUIS DE POINT DU LAC and nicki like stop. stop. STOP

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the bear and everything is the same but carmy is a butch. woah who just moaned

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i didn't think i'd watch adults but rn are unfortunately the perfect circumstances which are i don't have time mental energy and focus to watch anything elsssse

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what the hell sure

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wrote something short that you can read here

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richie knowing three polish phrases agenda making it into my sydcarmy fic

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i want the parts of you you only show to the corner of your bathroom mirror

SYDCARMY | Spiracle, Flower Face

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sorry. this is my first day at finding out what gen v is about. do they uh. have ianthe tridentarius there ?

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girl what if it was not a life-altering experience of a dish like imagine sydney was actually really excited about that fennel and went oh damn (

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getting corrected on the allergy aspect because apparently I STILL did NOT understand the full extent of craziness in that scene. almost as vast and endless as our beautiful universe it exists in. because mr. carmen just fully made that shit up????? which actually explains him staring at the plate for longer than government appointed three seconds better than just the anticipation from getting to execute his vision he was GEARING up to just fuck things up and make HIS. dish. even just once not even because of the outer forces like an allergy but because he wanted to. so it’s two hundred and fifty times crazier like he just did that just because. ok!

the hamachi red string dish is so much crazier than the few seconds of transition used in edits obv can convey. the fact that that was the first dish accepted by fields but only with major non-negotiable non- discussable changes that rendered it worse than impersonal for carmy, a twisted version of his original vision - and then just that once he actually gets to serve, let out there, what he actually wanted, the actual result, representation of his work. and it's sydney who receives it! and it becomes her literal fucking favourite dish. because from limited context i thought that yeah, it was carmy's original dish and only that in itself made it special, but it's carmy's original dish that only got to get served because of a specific coincidental circumstance that is sydney's allergy to fields' fennel. which is i will repeat. fifty times crazier. 😭

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was liveposting bear s3 on my new twitter acc that got shadowbanned almost immediately. anyways I stand by this I love richie carmy feud era

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staring at jeremy allen white's face in the bear chanting i DON'T. envy his just some guy charm

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the hamachi red string dish is so much crazier than the few seconds of transition used in edits obv can convey. the fact that that was the first dish accepted by fields but only with major non-negotiable non- discussable changes that rendered it worse than impersonal for carmy, a twisted version of his original vision - and then just that once he actually gets to serve, let out there, what he actually wanted, the actual result, representation of his work. and it's sydney who receives it! and it becomes her literal fucking favourite dish. because from limited context i thought that yeah, it was carmy's original dish and only that in itself made it special, but it's carmy's original dish that only got to get served because of a specific coincidental circumstance that is sydney's allergy to fields' fennel. which is i will repeat. fifty times crazier. 😭

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was still thinking about tina and sydney when I couldn’t fall asleep. tbh I wasn’t really impressed with the writing in the ‘napkins’ ep as a whole but the speech tina gives about her struggles with finding a job truly do engage so well with her behavior in the first half of s1. like I already could fill in the reasons for hostility towards sydney: her appearing in the already changing climate as an outsider with a seemingly different, like carmy, perspective on cooking, coming from a place ‘higher’ than theirs, immediately in a position to change things - except unlike carmen she doesn’t have familial ties to the beef that soften that. plus there is an added element of being the only female cook in that kitchen until sydney’s appearance and I know that courtney storer consulted on not just the food but the experience of warming in the kitchen and specifically as a female chef. but then napkins make it clear that on top of that syd is thee epitome of the ‘hungry beautiful youth’ that tina was forced into competition with until her miraculous introduction to the beef, and now with syd’s intro the beef is seemingly not a safe space anymore. carmen is once again not the same because he is the owner of the place and in the beginning to the staff that was already there he is first and foremost Michael’s brother. marcus is young but he came in when things were same old. so it’s also double meaningful that what makes tina finally lower her hackles and see sydney for what she is - objective and just and knowing the value of every cook - is when she expects a blow from her but receives an honest appraisal of her hard work. and tina herself was not confident about the potatoes, so sydney’s evaluation is giving her that confidence and not just approving of it. so it’s very important to me that tina has her special familial relationship with carmy but it’s sydney who is the most important figure in her professional growth journey. it’s sydney who guides her forward. tina tells syd that she taught her skills even after a very brief period of time in the beef, and it’s sydney who picks tina specifically to be her sous in the bear which gives tina the greatest confidence boost - she is not just appreciated for the work she already does, she doesn’t just have security in her job, but sydney points at an even greater potential, the opportunities tina didn’t even imagine for herself. and in the pressure cooker created by carmy in s3 it’s sydney who takes time to rehearse a specifically anxiety-inducing dish with her and it’s sydney who interferes carmen when that dish caused complications during service, and it’s sydney who sees tina working on a dish of her own and offers advice and support of her idea. so I’m very curious as to what tina’s reaction is going to be if she ever finds out about sydney potentially leaving. she is fully capable of working and continuing to grow without her, but on a personal level, I think that relationship and Sydney’s steady presence and support are very important to tina especially in the current state of disarray the bear is in. anyways. wonderful to see that kind of complex relationship on my screen.

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i would give anything to be one of them motherfuckers

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ok!