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Who Am I pt1

When I was a 13, my dad told me not to worry about boys. He said “You should not get yourself into a relationship until you know who you are as person”. I promised I would take his advice, but it didn’t take long for me to break it. 

It was 7th grade when I met him. The boy who I had fallen in love with. He was not my type what-so-ever. He was outdoorsy, loved to hunt and fish, wore cowboy boots and camo. I can’t remember how it happened, but we became really close. We had a couple of the same classes and sat in the cafeteria together. 

I made it pretty clear how I felt about him, but he was not interested in me. At least thats what I thought. I didn’t know how to flirt, so I looked up tutorials on Pinterest and let my friends teach me stupid pick up lines. I even came up with a stupid plan to get his phone number. Then the day before I was going to try out my plan, he got my number from a mutual friend. 

Fast forward 3 years. This boy and I were still friends, but not anywhere as close as we used to be. In 10th grade he started dating one of my friends, and I was happy for them. But she worried about him a lot! I remember the night of homecoming, we had a sleepover and she kept checking on him, asking where he was and what he was doing. 

6 months later, they broke up. All 3 of us started to become distant for a while, but the ex-girlfriend and I still talked on the weekly basis. Junior year came along and this boy was dating another girl. A girl from a different school, and who happened to be a year older. The boy and I starting talking again, and he would even sit with me on the bus. 

I remember one day mentioning that I wanted to go to the farm show to see the cows. Without hesitation, he offered to take me. I figured he was just trying to be nice, so I declined the offer. After school, I checked his social media to find that he had deleted all of the pictures of his girlfriend. I didn’t ask questions, but I did text him that night and ask if the offer still stood. 

pt2 coming soon