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Someone asked me, if you could do or have anything, what would it be. I straight away replied with wings. So I could fly whenever I was down. I could soar when I was upset. I could feel weightless and all my problems would get smaller as I flew higher. I could watch my world shrink beneath me and take to the skies.

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Don't cut. Don't shoot. Don't swallow. Don't jump. Don't end. Don't stop. Don't die.

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Note

Sorry I've not been active in about a month. I've been dealing with some shit that's been going on and it's taken a lot of my energy. It's made me realise that I don't make a difference in this world, so I might not write anymore. I don't do anything and no one really cares, so I don't think I can try to write anymore inspirational stuff. If you think I should then I will, I just need to know someone's actually listening. Also, if anyone needs to message me for help or advice, feel free. You don't have to tell me names or anything, I can just be there :) thank you all x

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Do you ever just want everything to go silent? So you can't hear anything. Not even the beating of your heart.

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Have you ever wanted someone to notice you so badly, you will come up with any excuse to see them? I have. It doesn't make a difference because it's you. You'll never notice me.

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So true👌🏼

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Dying doesn't scare me, but death does. Dying is an action, death is a person, a place, a thing. We're all going to die. I've accepted that. But death is different. Death is being forgotten. Death is not knowing what is coming next. Death is not knowing who you were or who you will become. When you die, you simply let go. You just fall asleep and don't wake up. Death is the fear. The darkness. Being there one second and then disappearing the next. The vulnerability of being between existing and not. So when someone says to me, "Are you not afraid of dying?" I'll reply, "No I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of death itself"

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I don't want to be remembered. I hear every day about how people want to do great things and go down in history. I don't. My life was mine to live. I don't want people who didn't know me, who didn't take the time to know me, talk about me and how great I was. You didn't care when I was here, so why care now? No one who will 'remember' me will have ever known me. No other person will ever know or understand how I felt. Not truly. I would rather be forgotten than remembered. It's that simple.

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I saw my friend rubbing her wrists the other day. I pulled her sleeve up and found hundreds of red cuts. Some an angry red, some had faded into silvery scars. She started crying and said I’m so sorry. I just hugged her. She asked me why I hadn’t left. Why would I leave? She said that she was messed up and I should be disgusted with her. I hugged her and said no. She’s not disgusting and she shouldn’t be ashamed. Those scars are a part of her and I wouldn’t change anything. Every time she sees them, she can see how much she has gone through. She can see that however many things have gone wrong, those cuts weren’t deep enough. She has survived through so much and she is the bravest person I know. I don’t think the scars are ugly. I think they’re beautiful. She never cut again.

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I'm sick of dealing with how you treat me. I keep saying to myself, "It'll be alright soon, it's just temporary" No it's not. And I can't stand it anymore. So I don't want you in my life. And one day, you're going to realise who you lost. Because I would have done anything for you. And now I'm gone.

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Be a human at your own risk

Don’t be gay, the world is homophobic. Don’t be straight, there are some who are heterophobic. Don’t be black, the world is racist. Don’t be brown, they’ll call you stupid.

Don’t be Muslim, Islamophobia does exist. Don’t be Sikh, they’ll mistake you for a terrorist. Don’t be Syrian, there’s no home for refugees. Don’t be American, gun violence might never cease.

Don’t be a man, you’ll be termed anti-feminist. Don’t be a woman, rapists will get away because you were asking for it. Don’t be a kid, the bogeyman with a gun is not a myth. Don’t get older, capitalism is a trap you have to live with.

Don’t be yourself, the world is full of judgemental pricks. Don’t be someone else, they’ll call you an unoriginal hick.

If you ask me what to do, I’ll tell you I don’t know. But I’m praying to God for a better tomorrow.

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I'm on my low, hope I get my high.

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Sometimes, I wonder what my life could have been like if I did it differently. Could I have been happier? Would I have been sadder? Would I have more friends? Then it hit me. If I spend my whole life, thinking of what could have been or what could be, I’m never going to truly live the life I am living. And it’s scary. The way life goes so quickly. So live it. Don’t think in the past because what’s done is done. No one can change it, but you can change what’s happening now. So do it.

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My teacher called me into his office today. He said, "I want what's best for you. I care and want you to be happy" I walked out and laughed. These people don't give a shit about me. They're paid to care. No one gives a shit about me. And that's how it always has been and always will be. I live with that. I'm out for myself. I don't depend on anyone. I am myself and no one else. So I will rely on myself and no one else.

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Sometimes I want someone to care. Sometimes I want someone to notice. I want someone to ask me if I'm okay. I want to be asked if I need a hug. Because although I might act cold, I just need someone to care.

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I realised something scary today. I've never cried in front on any of my friends. I've never seeked comfort from them. It hit me today. They come to me for help and guidance, and I realised, i had never had that. I've always kept my worries on my shoulders in fear of being a burden. When I realised, I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. I've never let anyone see me cry. Because that is a sign of weakness. And I can't let that be seen, because if it is, I'll let my walls down. And then people will come in and tear me down. They will wreck me until there's nothing there anymore. I'm a closed book. And no one is going to get to open me.

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You think you're special? You're not. I've seen hundreds of people in my life like you. You want to know what happened to them? I don't know one single one of them who has made something of themselves. They're all relying on someone else. And that makes me laugh. You know why? Because those people you are relying on now, are the ones you used to mock. I guess you learnt your lesson didn't you.

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