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Blossoms

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Acrylics

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Flowers

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Her eyes spoke unsaid words

My pencil art

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Being Happy - happiness

It's been a tough time. As much as I've read everywhere or heard everyone saying it, it's always hard to understand how happiness is an internal victory rather than something from outside me. It's easy when I read or hear or say "Happiness is what I create. Happiness is what's inside me. Happiness depends on me and only me". But when reality hits, I realise that being happy is more than being in a state of mind. It's not something I just create. It's not something that's inside me or outside me. Being happy is an Art. What is 'Happy' then? Happy is a place, a particular world. What matters is what is that world made up of. When I create my Happy world, I don't stop there. I grow a whole place that's filled with all the things that I dream of becoming and all the things I wish I'd be. It's not just a mere creation but it's a growth. It's a place that is not just created but also grown inside me. Happiness is not an internal state entirely. It's a place which connects the inside and the outside. It comes from me and it connects my internal world with my external world. The most difficult thing that I've realised is to be happy even when things around me seem to weigh on me. Every corner shoots anger, frustration, sadness, disgust, etc. How can I even think about Happy? Then something helped. What I want to be, shields me from what I don't want to be. As simple as that. Happiness will shield me from all this because I want to be happy. How do I make my shield. This is where I got lost. As I said, being happy is an Art. Especially when I realised I'm insecure and vulnerable, I could lose myself anytime, I figured out that this art of being happy and staying happy is by practising it on others. Thank God for friends. They don't judge you. You don't expect anything. They don't expect anything. Every conversation I had with them, eventually helped me learn that it's both an inside and outside process. Everytime I felt empty and everytime I felt the person I thought needed the most to help me discover the outside element of happiness isn't around, I realised how insecure I could feel. A sense of total dependency. That's when I realised my happiness is in my hands. Anyone can help me be happy but no one can destroy my choice of being happy. What I believe is, my elements of my Happy world are entirety different from yours. Some of them may be the same. But Happy belongs to you and me and the whole world. It's true when others are happy because of you, you are happy too. But I realised that I am happy because I choose to be. I've created my Happy world and it's a place where my wildest and craziest dreams come true everyday. My state of insecurity and vulnerability will only help me realise there are people like me outside with whom I might need to share my world. I may not always smile or laugh or jump like a monkey. I'll have my rainy day

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Tried for the first time Abstract Painting

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My First ever Painting #Abstarct

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Expect nothing and you’ll not be disappointed.”

“Accept everything and you’ll be peaceful.”

A very subtle difference in the way we say it. But such opposites.

It’s always easy to expect everything and everyone to be perfect for us. It’s equally hard to accept everything and everyone when they’re imperfect. We get angry when things don’t go right. But right according to whom? Right according to us? Well, we were the one who “expected”, so we have to “accept” whatever comes out of it.

So many times we have faced disappointments. Defeat. Rejection. Failure. When we face them, we can either fall for them and let them numb us and make us stagnant or we can accept them and move on because acceptance is like water. It dissolves all these disappointments and makes it seem as if they never existed. When you expect something, be strong to accept whatever the outcome is.

We are all humans. We all make mistakes and yet we expect others to be perfect. But before that, we need to realise that if we cannot accept our own imperfections, then expecting others to be the way you want them to be will only cause us more disappointments. I have personally experienced it most of the times when I make a mistake and disappoint someone, I expect them to forgive me and accept me as I am. But when somebody else disappoints me, why is it so difficult for me to tell them it’s okay and they’re perfect in their own way? Expectations. More I expect, harder to accept.

I’s okay to expect. But I learnt that I need to see others the way I would want to be seen. I feel good and hopeful when someone accepts my stupidity, mistakes and disappointments without judging me. When I do the same, I learnt that acceptance is a saviour and a boon or art that rescues us when everything around us seems to fall and break. It helps me move on and makes me stronger. Denial only makes it worse because I have to live with it all my life while accepting helps me live without the disappointments. Like the water that accepts salt, it diminishes the presence of salt and the whole things look like water. Only when you taste it, you’ll know there’s salt. Accept and you’ll realise all disappointments fade away. When people look at you, they’ll realise that you’re stronger than before.