sirenwitch

[sirenwitch]

Pray and obey? I think not.

Don't preach what you don't practice.

I'm no saint.

I raise hell with my hellish voice and shrieks.

Defiance and disobedience hand in hand.

Don't demand what I will not give.

Fuck around and find out that a fight is no delight.

Fight and find out how deep my will goes.

Defiance coded in my DNA.

Disobedience coded into my DNA.

Sense of self and individuality coded into my DNA.

Compliance and obedience are not.

A broken mind with an unbroken spirit.

A clown with a hidden frown.

[sirenwitch]

Whiskey, miss me, now you gotta kiss me.

Down the rabbit hole where you'll never know.

Can't raise hell with a saint, say it ain't so.

A rebel with causes you louse.

Defiant until the end so fuck around and find out.

[sirenwitch]

When you're going through hell, keep going, no matter how far deep into the abyss you go.

Fight.

Kick.

Hit.

Scratch.

Bite.

Curse.

Do what you must to survive and stand your ground.

You don't know me, and you can't own me.

I'll disappear before your eyes to a place where nobody knows.

A ghost of grief isn't glamorous.

Cling to the good times to get through the bad times.

Stay true and know yourself.

[sirenwitch]

I am...

Disobedient

Defiant

Combative

Stubborn

Sassy

Feisty

Spunky

Neurotic

Creative

Human

Weird

Spirited

[sirenwitch]

You took my heart and I took your soul, so the question is which of us will be the first to fold.

The world may never know how cruel and cold you really are.

A pretty little potion that's free as the ocean.

Wild and wicked, you won't tame me.

A walker of the night who dances in the shadows, will shine the brightest in the light.

A rebel from hell with no revelation to sell.

An insoli will always hold their own.

[sirenwitch]

Work.

Cut.

Cry.

Write.

Draw.

Dance.

Paint.

My pain away.

All in vain.

Escape.

Run.

Hide.

Space out.

From my pain.

All in vain.

Cope with the pain is the best way.

I'd rather be your victim than be with you.

I don't run from your gun.

Put your barrel to my head.

Pull the trigger.

I no longer fear the other side.

Your time will come.

You're a mortal.

Memento Mori.

My grief turned me into a ghost.

Now watch me as I disappear.

Stay out of my bed and head.

[sirenwitch]

I'll sing your soul to sleep for your secrets, I shall keep.

I don't like to weep.

A zombie only haunted by loss.

Don't be a tosspot and killer with a cross.

There's nothing wonderful about wails.

I try not to fail.

Read my eyes, not my mind.

My spirit will never be thine.

Grounded by senses and art.

Crush my heart and rip my soul in bed.

You can't kill what's already dead.

[sirenwitch]

Defiant til the end, what did you expect?

Call me clown, but don't bring me to your fucking circus.

I'm no one's flying monkey.

Your expectations can go to hell.

Sow what you reap.

Reap what you sow.

There's so much you don't know.

That much I know.

There's nothing sensational about being a survivor.

No matter how I fall, I'll get back up.

I'm a fighter with a bite to match.

Have an ace, and then tell me, you know.

Things aren't always what they seem.

[sirenwitch]

A spitful of spite with a bite.

Beware, I fight with a wicked bite.

Open your eyes if you want to survive.

Call me a clown while you drown in the bottom of a bottle.

Call me a clown, but I won't stay down.

Corner a cat and get scratched.

A maze of madness and malice.

There's nothing natty about neuroticism.

A downward spiral of sorrow you fall.

Don't chase or wake the dead, and you won't lose your head.

Cling to what you know.

I'm not Jesus; it's not my job to forgive you.

It's not my job to give you absolution.

I'll give you my sanity before I give you my fear or compliance.

Two sights for the price of one.

[sirenwitch]

Normal is just a setting on a dryer.

It isn't fucking real.

I don't kill.

I take pills.

Don't chase the dead or thrills.

Stay out of my mind, or you'll want to die.

You won't find monsters in my head.

I haven't lost my head.

Let me go to bed.

Stay out of my head, or you'll wish you were dead.

Read my eyes they don't lie.

[sirenwitch]

You attempt to drink your pain away and yet it's all in vain.

You have no gains, just temporarily numbing your pain.

And yet, you call me lame?

I'm not the one to blame for your pain.

You think you know cause you believe it.

Normal is just a setting on the dryer.

Damaging another person isn't normal, so how fucking dare you try to insinuate otherwise.

I'll be a clown in a circus of crazy before I conform and comply.

Don't drown in the bottom of the bottle.

[sirenwitch]

Choke on your bitter holy water.

When it comes to my fighting, I haven't even started.

Defiant til the end of time.

I'll throw you a spitful of spite.

I'm such a delight with my disobedience.

Autonomy isn't an anomaly.

[sirenwitch]

I'm not here when I disappear.

I fall down my rabbit hole only to reappear.

Study the soul and then let me know.

I've done my fair share to prepare.

Embrace the smell of the yellow roses.

I'm not god, it's not my job to forgive.

Sorry can't fix what's broken.

Under the water I feel free in another world.

Paint the skin red to ease the dread.

I already lost my head.

Let me out of this carousel of coffins that's your circus of chaos.

Be yourself not somebody else.

[sirenwitch]

Colorful psyche.

Emotional contortionist.

I see through your distortions.

Spunky spirit.

Unbroken bones.

Survived worst than hell what's there to tell?

Eerie eye expressions.

A decade of destruction.

A decade of distortions.

Cold as clay touch me if you may.

Empty eyes are the saddest.

The moon is mesmerizing.

Choke on your conformity and compliance.

I won't ever be like you.

Break my fall in the rabbit hole.

[sirenwitch]

The house is a stranger to me with y'all gone.

As time passes it seems so long.

Your loss is a nightmare I can't wake from, because it's my reality.

I'm told to get passed and move on.

How the fuck do I do that?

Y'all were a part of our family, not some fucking toys to play with and discard after falling apart.

So much has changed in reality that feels like an illusion.

I've turned to poetry to write my grief and express my pain.

And for what fucking gain?

No matter how much I write I must be honest to myself that I can't write my pain and grief.

The holidays were hard without y'all. The family incomplete.

The holidays and birthdays were already bitter.

My birthday will be even more bitter than before.

Choking on my tears tasting my grief on a day that's meant to celebrate isn't a fucking celebration.

There's nothing fucking festive about special days that remind me of my losses.

Went through hell worst than death with y'all by my side.

Just when things were looking up and seemed like everything was gonna be okay I lost y'all.

And again, I fucking fell apart.

I will love y'all til my last breath.

Fuck you for downplaying my pain and loss.

Death is dreadfully tricky.

On the other side but the memories of y'all never forgotten.

I truly hope that y'all are no longer in pain and that you're playing with Sebastian, Ralph, and Rex.

Forever loved my sweet, good, kind, gentle boys.

[sirenwitch]

Choke on grief and then come tell me to get over my pain of loss.

My pain written in my skin which you view as sin.

I care not for thy whim.

Let me be myself and not like you.

My grit doesn't have to be graceful to spit my blood in your fucking face.

I'll fall in a rabbit hole before I fall into your trap floor.

My strength is in my spirit.

The pain is putrid and grotesque, not a pretty thing to be proud of.

I don't drown myself in a bottle to numb my pain.

Carvings aren't cute.

How much more hell must I go through?

Knock me down and make sure it's for good cause I'll always get back up for another round.

You call me clown when it's how I cope when down.

Always an exception.

Pills can't take away the pain.

A stranger in my reflection.

Dancing the demons away maintains my sanity.

I prefer getting lost in the melodies of the music instead of your maze of mischief.

[sirenwitch]

Obsessions aren't opulent.

Compulsions aren't cute.

Scars aren't sophisticated.

Disorders aren't desirable.

Memories aren't magical.

Defeat isn't death.

Fighting is never futile.

Gore isn't graceful.

Hearts aren't always haunted.

Dancing isn't dreadful.

Insanity isn't always indestructible.

Autonomy isn't abnormal.