sissytrapjamie

[sissytrapjamie]

Need to be just flat out treated like any other boy. Mocked for expressing myself or letting emotion show, abused, being threatened or beaten for looking or sounding like a faggot, only allowed to touch myself or cum if it's for huge breasts, a massive ass or tight pussy until I just repress everything I feel, conform to the same casual boyish look and goon it all out for unrealistic mainstream porn like a good boy.

[sissytrapjamie]

My blog is a safe space for using all the slurs, insults and condesending mockery against me <3

[sissytrapjamie]

I still love that a decade of HRT gave me pathetic little oversized pecs on my boychest, like my body just outright refused to give me real breasts. I remember having a real man grind of top of me and the way he had moobs nearly as big as mine.

I don't talk about her super often cause this blog is mostly separate but my Mummy is a real trans woman. Breasts so much bigger, a voice so much more passable. She barely needs to even shave her body cause it just doesn't grow much hair anyway. So effortless for her, it takes a fakegirl like me so much effort to even try to keep up. How can I not simp for that natural beauty? 🥺🥺🥺

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Under orders from a superior, any pity orgasms I recieve should come at a price, so I was made to put a poll to leave my punishment for the next one up to my followers. Amd needless to say, I'm to big a spineless loser to refuse. I'm unsure yet of the length/severity or other details just yet, but I'm getting really desperate and so it's probably worth pre-emptively asking now.

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Fakegirl/fakeboy omorashi just hits different, the stakes are so much higher. Just to be done up the most obviously tranny you could possibly imagine and made to gulp down a fuckton of water, hours from home...

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Being in pain is so hot, makes it harder not to blow my pathetic, watery load. It's hard, I'm desperate but having fruatration piled on me for others' pleasure is one of the few things I'm good for, so I'm glad to edge myself braindead, burning with sweet jealousy for those who can anytime they want.

I know I'm basically said that before but I'm dumb and horny and desperate and hopefully it'll bring pleasure to someone

[sissytrapjamie]

Need to be forced into cute boyish shorts that expose my manly, hairy lower legs. And what do we think, a faggy little tank top to expose my manly hairy pits?

Actually, if I ever did start dressing boyish again, I think I'd be in need of fashion sdvice 🥺

[sissytrapjamie]

Is kinda hot too that my posts about sex get the most engagement. For all of my rambling, I'll inevitably be seen as a dildo and a coupld of holes, people will get close yo me to get to either of those things. Why fight it? <3

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The word prince has been burrowing its way into my mind, I think it feels nice? Like in a precious femboy must be protected kind of way? 🥺🥺🥺

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Positive affirmations, but reaffirming who I really always have been:

I am secure in my masculinity

It's okay to accept being a gay man

I am a pretty boy

I am a handsome lad

I am the kind of man women can relate to and trust

It's okay to be a bottom (I was gonna say pillow prince??? Do gay men have another term for that?)

My body knows what to do, I don't have to fight it

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I found it really hot reading about how kink is always sexual no matter what. Like yes, these things get me hard, yes, I am a liitle faker, yes it stimulates the sex part of my brain so you might as well rail me <3

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Maybe I would look hot af with short hair in plain, loose, sporty trackies and a top to match...

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Not to be pathetic, but very nice foot, I couldn't help noticing, very much in the category of male feet I'd been conditioning myself on until I received a command to the contrary.

Speakng of which, I will be in pain later for noticing and being aroused by it <3

Ngl I feel hotter than I've felt in my entire life. I can tell myself I'm a woman but the evidence is piling up, I'm just hotter as a twink plain and simple

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Thinking about the eczema on my scalp being used as an excuse to hack most of my hair off, for my own good...

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Kind of honoured to be the first example to come to mind 🥺

Since I post about both, both for me come from a place of masochism, humiliation, sometimes lack of autonomy, all kinks I have more broadly. I was drawn in by the taboo within queer communities, rightly, of misgendering and forcibly detransing people. When I discovered I was ace, felt like the other side of the same coin to play with that too. At least consciously, I don't tend to have real transphobia in mind very much when I post, though that context does make it more cathartic. I guess for me it comes more from what felt/would feel wrong, a part of why having my head shaved is a big dark fantasy. I think my acebreaking posts come from a similar place, the stress sex would cause, and some of the "corrective" measures people try to take. But even so, I can't deny that even since that self discovery, the vast majority have been detrans kink posts, sometimes with acebreaking in there too. I think the kink is as niche as it is thanks to the relative invisibility of the identity, compounded with the specific invisibility of kinky aces. Just seemingly not as many of us here. And to your point, I mostly wouldn't know what to write in an acebreaking post without detrans kink content. Sometimes the inspiration strikes, but that transphobia has forced trans people into just about everyone's minds, it's kind of the opposite, ever present.

As a side note, being ace is why neither really focussed on the sex. If it comes up, it serves a kink, usually masochistic. I just don't process my kinks that way.

A strange complaint

Something that really bugs me about acebreaking as a fetish is that, unlike literally every other sexuality/gender identity, there is no actual acephobia out there that can be built off of. Like, acephobia absolutely exists, but it’s more passive than homophobia or transphobia. Normally this is great for us, especially given how easily we can pass as straight (or gay in some cases), but it’s kinda frustrating in a fetish sense. Like, look at @sissytrapjamie’s posts about trans superiority/inferiority. They work in part because of the climate they are written in of increasing transphobia. Or the plethora of misogyny blogs ran by women that base off of actual misogynistic talking points.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m definitely not suggesting that I want aces to be discriminated against irl, or that homophobia and transphobia are good. It’s just that they make for much easier bases for masochistic members of those groups to build off of.

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I'll admit it feels right to be punished for being a footfag. I haven't looked at feet at all for a few days, taking the pain like a good boy in the meantime. So hot, pressure building in my pindick so much faster than usual, making it burn so sweetly that I have no chance of letting it burst. A lot of people masturbate to my content, able to cum freely, it's so hot to think about...

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What would a thing like me use basic human rights for? <3