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Tony: Whoops

Pepper: Whoops? Whoops? This is not a “Whoops” situation. We are far past whoops. Whoops is a distant speck in the rearview mirror. We are solidly in “Oh fuck” territory, and I expect you to act like it.

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Philindaisy and the Relationship Between Found Family and Individual Character Growth

It’s easiest to point out that the dynamic between Coulson May and Daisy was intentional just because of Daisy’s ethnicity: she’s half-white half-Chinese, and searching for her true parents with white and Chinese SHIELD agents. To the unseasoned viewer of AOS, (and if AOS was a lesser show), it would be clear that Coulson and May would turn out to be Daisy’s parents. Since they subvert that trope and instead make Coulson and May Daisy’s stand-in parental figures, Daisy is not given the easy way out. It’s easy to fall back on her biological parents: they’ll love her no matter what, right? As demonstrated with how Daisy reacted to her “real” parents, she doesn’t feel she has to worry about being left behind when biology comes into play. Making May and Coulson her found parents instead of her biological parents forces her to reflect on her history and fear of abandonment. They chose her, now she has to push past her fear and choose them.

To Coulson, Daisy is everything he gave up. From his perspective, when he joined SHIELD, he gave up the life of ballet recitals and PTA meetings. When he gets attached to Daisy is probably the first time he realizes that there’s a chance he could still have that life even within SHIELD. With Daisy, he has a chance to have his cake and eat it too: he stays with SHIELD, and he has a daughter he loves.

Daisy is a harsher reality for May. May must reflect on all the pieces of herself that she lost in Bahrain if she wants to love Daisy. With Daisy comes the confrontation she’s been avoiding: can she recover those pieces? Does she have to? Is she even worthy of having a daughter? When given the chance to have a daughter, May’s years of learning to forgive herself come into question: has she grown enough as a person to trust herself with loving Daisy that way?And when it comes to Coulson, it’s a bit ironic: May spends four seasons “hiding” her feelings for Coulson, but everything she does is out of love for him. There’s no bigger confession she could make, there’s no “I did it for you” bomb, because we got that already in season 1. We’ve known that May is with SHIELD, went back into the field, and continues to fight because she believes in Coulson. She does it because she thinks he’s good and right, and following him is the closest she can get to being good and right, but all of her actions point to loving him too (initially refusing to kill him even though it would be safer to, taking a hard stance on “real SHIELD” because they question him, etc.). For supposedly hiding her true feelings for Coulson, everyone including Coulson knows that she’s fighting for him. The only thing she’s really doing is denying herself a relationship with him.

If anything, Daisy is the catalyst for that too. May chooses Daisy before she chooses Coulson. The moment she beat up Quinn she showed her hand. And if she hadn’t opened herself up to loving Daisy like a daughter, I really don’t think she would’ve managed to come into her feelings for Coulson. They’re platonic until they lose Daisy. It’s her absence between seasons 3 and 4 that pulls them closer again. One could say it’s their shifted roles within SHIELD, but really the only difference there is that if Coulson were director he would have found Daisy earlier. May starts - and I say that ironically - letting her feelings slip after she loses Daisy.

For Coulson, May just completes his “I left that life behind” trope circumvention. She should have been a narrative device like Rosalind: the tantalizing female partner who reminds him of the choice he made. Instead, he gets the chance to have love because even within the life he chose, someone loves him. He doesn’t have to see May as the symbol of a life lost: he can have that life if he chooses to take the risk. His apprehension when it comes to chasing her all boils down to that: SHIELD or selfishness? Maintain his working relationship with her that works, for the good of SHIELD, or be selfish?

What AOS does well here is draw the conclusion that it doesn’t have to be a choice. Chasing love and doing what’s right aren’t mutually exclusive. Coulson will do whatever it takes to save his agents, making him a phenomenal and well-respected director and doing right by SHIELD, because of his love for May, Daisy, and his team. His principle of zero acceptable casualties comes from the love in his heart that he tells himself he left behind in favor of joining SHIELD, but in actuality is magnified in his love for his team. Coulson’s reevaluating his “concession" would not have happened without May and Daisy, and without him neither of them would have reached their own self actualization.

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Talk a little nice to yourself today

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you knew it still hurts underneath my scars from when they pulled me apart, but what you did was just as dark

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Oh hey random storytime:

My mother had a dog of a fairly unusual breed, the kind breed whose existence I hadn't even heard of before the breeder became a family friend. This specific dog was a zero brain cell masterpiece specimen, so while he was fucking stupid, he had an impressive enough pedigree that it would have been a waste to not take him into dog shows, maybe win a few prizes and have him sire pups.

Anyway, this one time we were at a smaller dog show, not really an amateur one but definitely not a huge international event. It was held outdoors on a football field(?), and not only was my mom's dog the only one of his breed in the show, they had somehow completely forgot to include him in the show's schedule. We had come all the way over here to show off a dog that didn't have a time, judges, or ring for him anywhere in the plans.

So while my mother isn't the type to Demand To Speak To The Manager when something doesn't go her way, everyone was in the agreement that the fuck-up was on the show runners' side, and they were very apologetic about such an unprofessional mistake. And they did manage to find a show ring with a slot to squeeze him in, just before the next breed was about to start.

So they made a quick announcement in the ring just before the scheduled breed was going to start, and into the ring went the breeder and mom's dog. And while they were doing their little lap, surrounded by a mostly quiet, uninterested audience, I heard some random kid's faint voice asking

What happened to that one?

And it suddenly hit me how funny this whole situation must look like with no context. Mom's dog or his whole breed were not on the printed out leaflet schedule of the show, in this specific ring or otherwise. If someone showed up now, or somehow otherwise missed the announcement (which wasn't even broadcasted in any way, just yelled out over the crowd by one guy), holy shit they would be confused.

The dog breed that was booked on that spot was samoyeds. My mother's dog was a peruvian inca orchid. Imagine being at a dog show in the right place at the right time, 100% expecting to see one of those fluffy clouds on the left, and out walks the motherfucker on the right.

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The secret to a long lasting relationship is finding someone who hates leaving their comfort zone and then wiggle your way in there. You wiggle your way right inside their comfort zone and then you're there. By the time they notice you're there, they'll just sigh like "oh great, now there's a creature in here", but they don't want to move out of their comfort zone, and tossing you out of there would now alter the air pressure and constitution of the comfort zone too abruptly and it would pop like a bubble.

That's how you keep a relationship. You weasel your way inside someone's comfort zone and make yourself an essential component of it, so now they, too, will have to make sure that your dumb ass stays in there. Their comfort zone now has a fucking creature in it, and it's not going to be the same comfort zone if the creature isn't there.

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Imagine getting a cat from an animal shelter and deciding to pick the very sweet and gentle one who hasn't made a single sound the whole time you're there, and being told "yeah she doesn't meow like other cats do", and then when you say "oh it's ok, I don't mind a cat who isn't very vocal!" the shelter's people look at you like they're about to say something but decide against it.

And then you bring your kitty home and the first time she wants your attention, she opens her mouth and the sound that comes out is a low, soothing but abnormally long continuous tune that you can only describe as something between mongolian throat singing and a didgeridoo.

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"That was beneath me" is such a delightfully funny way to apologise. Like yeah I did something shitty that I regret doing, and I'm ready to admit to both of those points, but you're shitting squirrels if you think I'm going to get off my moral high horse to do that.

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surely the conses wont quence

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If only pre historic fish did not grow feet and crawled to the land

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astonishing how good it can feel to get some chores done sometimes. you’ll be sitting there like damn i am some type of horrid little smeagol like creature who should be crushed to death. but then you do some laundry and you’re like wrow. im actually gods most fuckable soldier.

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something that made me laugh in catching fire is that scene with katniss meeting finnick with the horses: when she tells him that “everybody seems to know my secrets before I know them myself" and finnick replies "unfortunately, I think that's true." cause finnick, of course, is already in on the plan to bust katniss out 😭

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obsolete angel

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when people are like “the hunger games just stole the plot of battle royale” like listen everything steals from the plot of everything the lion king is just furry hamlet westworld is jurassic park but sexier lost is edgy gilligan’s island there are no original stories and the only good piece of media is jennifer’s body