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If JJ was the king of anything he was the king of friendship

He held us all together

He was the best friend we ever had

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*MAJOR SPOILERS*

What angers me if not JJ dying per se, it’s the way they had to totally strip the character from his entire upbringing, create an entire bullshit plot that since the start didn’t make sense to justify that him “dying” was inevitable. Gave him an abuser dad, to then erase that and give him a worse dad that killed him. Then, having him lash out in the most uncharacteristic way.

If Rudy didn’t want to be in the show anymore (because I think those rumors are true) I feel like a better conclusion was deserved regardless, not even for the actor, but for the fans that loved JJ Maybank. We deserved that.

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my baby, you deserved so much and im sorry everything was cut short. you live on in everyone's hearts. you deserved a better ending baby. love you so much, jj maybank. in another life, you would've lived to see your godson, you would've lived happily with kiara. you deserved so much

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NO ‘CAUSE WE ARE ALSO MISSING ANOTHER THING HERE THAT MAKE MY BLOOD BOIL

In what universe is RAFE the one in charge of JJ’s burial? AND JOHN B AND KIARA ARE OK WITH LEAVING HIS BODY IN MOROCCO? Not bury him in the Outer Banks…next to his mother or at Poguelandia?

WHAT EVEN HAPPENED TO THIS SHOW’S WRITING?

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JJ and PTSD and why 4.10 was a slap in the face

Okay. so. Here's my issue.

(there will be a ton of cursing because I'm fucking pissed.)

JJ's ENTIRE FUCKING ARC has been him feeling like he's worthless, like he's somehow inherently evil, that he "deserves" the things that happen to him, that everything's all his fault. That he should be killed saving his friends because that's all he's fucking good for.

And that? That's not a JJ-exclusive thought pattern. That's what happens to your brain when you're a CHILD and a fucking grown ass man instills that in your head. Whether physical and verbal abuse like they showed in canon, or childhood sexual abuse like what's happened to me and many, many others. An adult shows you that you're not worth shit compared to them, and since you, again, are a child, you fucking believe them. Adults teach you about the world, and kids are good fucking listeners.

So you grow up knowing down to your guts that you don't belong on this earth, you don't own your body, you don't deserve the space you take up. Any of y'all confused by JJ's bullshit?? Well there you go. That's the very basic assumption he's working off of: he's dead, been dead for years, so what the fuck's it matter what he does? It doesn't.

(I don't know how to express that screaming lack of existence to those with an inherent understanding of their own worth and right to living but the closest I can get is this. You look at yourself and understand that no matter what actions you take, you are wrong on a soul-deep level and there's nothing you can do about it.)

Here's the thing. It's all bullshit. And it takes so much fucking effort to believe that, and some days you don't but you trust that you will tomorrow or the next day or the next. That's called healing. That's called living.

Because the only way past this is time and support and fucking proving with every breath that no. Fuck you. I deserve to be here. I deserve to get old. To cry. To weep. To fucking dance on a dock because you finally made a home. That you deserve to LIVE.

And S4E10 just declared no; you don't. JJ was too damaged to give him any other ending. Even Kie couldn't fix him. The best he could hope for was dying in the dirt with someone he loved. Oh look he gave up the crown! He was happy in the end! He had his wish! He loved her!!

Yeah well sorry to bust the 'isn't it all so tragic' circle jerk, but no. It's not fucking poetic. Or beautiful. Or God-fucking-forbid romantic. It's shit.

Because JJ Maybank was never real, but they chose to highlight the very much real pain I and others struggle with using his story. And then they told me that struggle ends with death...because how else could it end?

Just because y'all can't imagine living his life and going on, and going on, and going on, and not fucking killing yourself doesn't mean the rest of us aren't looking down that path every day and deciding to break those lies in one moment of existence after another.

The showrunners missed that.

If they wanted to finish JJ's arc? It wasn't saving Kie, or finally having some 'realization', or sacrificing himself for his friends. It wasn't some short but meaningful life.

JJ needed to fucking live to prove that he deserved it. End of story.

Thanks for the slap.

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I’m sorry 2020 Jiara…these writers have failed you, the actors that gave you life failed you. YOU COULD’VE BEEN the greatest ship of all time 💔

forever wondering what could’ve been without drama a with a different ending

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I'm literally heartbroken.

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye you were bigger than the whole sky you were more than just a short time

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Accurate 😭

The ghost of Gabe watching Ryan and Alex finally get together

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shout out to everyone who participated in the january-february mass depressive episode

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Just started watching euphoria, Rue and Jules have my heart, THE WAY THEY LOOK AT EACH OTHERRRR UGH I LITERALLY LOVE THEM SM 🥺❤️❤️

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Ash and Eiji in a polyamrous relationship because I said so 😌

Sharing clothes even if they don't fit

Constantly cuddling

The third person sleeping in the middle if they were short

Ash and Eiji fighting over what side the person sleeps on

Crying sessions between all three of them together 😩

Seggy time

✨S H O W E R seggs ✨

Date nights are so much fun, literaly just eating a bunch and talking

Ash and the third person's relationship being them bullying each other, Eiji and the others person's relationship being them acting like besties

Sing, Yut-lung, and Shorter being confused but supportive

Watching Ash stress about his hair 😭

DOUBLE THE KISSES 😘

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Ash: "Eiji, where are all my sweaters!?"

Eiji: "I don't know, pretty weird how they all just disappeared, right?"

*Ash with his hands on his hips* "Mhm, werid."

Eiji: *slowly pushes swearers further under the bed*