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this is how ive always imagined cloaking brooches working on animal-born mutants lolol

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Remember next episode we'll have "You never love mother, you never love me, you love him" so

People are gonna be thrown off I guess when Octavia is mad at Stolas next episode even as he's trying to go get her. Even though she's obviously being emotionally manipulated by Stella. Many say that Octavia will be the one that saves Blitz and Stolas from Andy next ep and like-no. She hates her dad right now. He literally broke his promise. That he'd never leave her, and he was about to DIE. Literally leave all of Hell, for Blitz. Of course she's gonna hate him for a little while. And Stella is just gonna fuel that fire.

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hyperfixation combo GO!!!!

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what the hell parts of this episode felt like a fucking fever dream

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Blitz watching someone else kiss Stolas :((

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Stolas getting a glimpse of Blitzø’s self hatred

Blitzø getting a glimpse at Stolas’ drinking/ loneliness/ self destructive behaviors

They’re in their “finally getting to see the real me” era

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This just added 5 years onto my life

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Stolas and Blitz’s relationship is a really well written misunderstanding plot, and here’s why 

I didn’t exactly have bad expectations about the Full Moon episode, yet I find myself pleasantly surprised by just how well the show handled the final confrontation between Stolas and Blitz. It was perfectly tragic and, most importantly, it perfectly fits how their relationship was built up to this point.

But how did Stolas get to this point?

Stolas has been starved for love since he was a child. His father only knew how to buy Stolas’ stuff to distract him from his distress (whenever Paimon bothered to even be around). Stolas’ wife – whom he did not choose – disdained him and did not miss a chance to humiliate him. He used to have a good relationship with his daughter, even though things got more complicated as she grew up and started to realize that her parents hate each other; but having your own child love you isn’t the same as having someone love you because you are you.

And then, out of nowhere, This Guy whom he considers his first friend - someone who was at the center of one of the best memories from his childhood - sneaks into his house and tries to seduce him!! Needless to say, Stolas is taken by surprise!

He even tries to talk to Blitz at first, and asks him about his life. He wants a connection, but Blitz just kinda pushes Stolas on his bed and starts doing sexy things to him, while dodging his questions. And, well, Stolas has never had good sex before that moment! His only experience is with a woman who does not like him and whom he doesn’t like. He gets swept away! Turns out, kinky sex really does it for him, and Blitz just Keeps Going all night!

Now, we don’t get to see how Stolas reacted when he figured out that Blitz was there to steal his book. The next thing we know (which is actually the first time the audience is introduced to Stolas) is that he is determined not to let that night with Blitz be the last. And who knows, even if Blitz had an ulterior motive for that first night, Stolas could still have a chance to seduce him! But how to do that? Well, the only thing Stolas knows about Blitz is that he really seemed to be into kinky sex and dirty talk…. So, Stolas goes for that!

After a while, though, he realizes it isn’t working. Plus, as much as the sex is good, what he really wants from Blitz is romance! So, he tries changing his approach, he introduces the idea of dates, of staying at home without fucking… But every time Stolas tries to change things, Blitz is resistant.

Stolas has many flaws. He is unaware of his privilege, he can be entitled, too self-centered… but one thing he is not, at least, is clueless about his own feelings. Stolas knows he loves Blitz, he knows he wants them to be together, and so he spends a long time trying to figure out how to confess, how to convince Blitz that his feelings are sincere…

In a way, it’s all that planning that dooms him. He spends so much time thinking things over, finding the perfect words, the perfect selfless act to confess to Blitz and set him free, that he does not realize that his confession will come out of nowhere for Blitz. And that Blitz will not have had hours and hours to rehearse his own reaction!

To be fair to him, Blitz truly is spectacularly clueless – to the level that it’s difficult to understand, without knowing his history - when it comes to his own feelings…

Right, how did Blitz get to this point?

The first time Blitz met Stolas, as a child, Blitz’s father had literally sold him as entertainment, and then ordered Blitz to steal from Stolas' house. “Go make yourself useful for once.” “It’s what those rich privileged fuckers deserve.”

Blitz grows up in an environment where his own father prefers another child to him. His only worth to his dad is to be a trading card, and to be an instrument to get rich.

Blitz doesn’t grow completely without love, tho! He knows what it is like to be loved. He has a best friend, his twin sister, his mother… And then he manages to lose all three of them in one single, spectacular accident. And it was an accident! But it was also his fault. And that’s the night Blitz learns that nobody can love him for long, because he does not deserve it. Even if someone did care for him, eventually they will realize he is worthless and dangerous.

Blitz hates himself.

Still, he does what he has to do to survive, and he goes on.

Years pass, and Blitz is trying to achieve his oldest dream, the dream to be his own boss, to lead a successful business, to prove that he can do something right. He needs Stolas’ book to achieve his dream, so what? It’s what those rich privileged fuckers deserve. He can make himself useful for once.

Does Blitz understand that it’s not Stolas himself who bought him all those years ago, but rather his father? It doesn’t really matter in the end, the only thing that’s important is that he knows that if he distracts Stolas enough, it’s not that hard to steal from him. If he sells himself, he can get anything out of Stolas.

The sex an accident, in the end. Stolas suggests Blitz is there to seduce him (Stolas is joking, but Blitz doesn't realize that), so Blitz goes for that. He bites Stolas’ neck to distract him from the theft, and Stolas reacts to that! Blitz can use this! He just happens to encourage Stolas when Stolas talks dirty to him, he doesn’t know he’s the one planting the idea in Stolas’ brain.

And Blitz could leave Stolas tied up and flee with the book, but at the end he feels bad. He decides to fuck Stolas after all, and well… That wasn’t so bad. He was supposed to do it “real fast”, but ends up spending the whole night!

Still, what if the sex was good? Stolas is still an entitled and powerful prince. And Stolas’ behavior in the following months only confirms that the other demon is just using him! And when Stolas’ actions start to change, well, surely that’s just some new kink, some new game…

Blitz constantly confirms his own biases, and he is incapable of seeing beyond them. He expects to be used because he has been used so many times, ever since he was a child. He doesn’t expect to be loved, because he doesn’t believe anyone can love him.

And if he starts to enjoy the time he spends with Stolas, at least sometimes, well….. That’s just the good sex. Plus, he feels powerful, when he’s fucking Stolas. Not only because Blitz dominates him in bed, but also because this is an arrangement he entered of his own free will, and he’s the one directly benefiting from it.

And! Isn’t it easier this way??? Relationships are messy! This arrangement, tho, no feelings involved, at all! He can push Stolas around as much as he wants, and Stolas will let him.

(Stolas cannot get hurt, after all.)

(He can get hurt??)

Blitz has many flaws. Being clueless about his feelings, and other people’s feelings, is maybe his biggest flaw. Stolas’ confession comes out of nowhere from him. He is confused. Nobody can love him, so it is a game, right?

It’s not a game. Where did this “confession” come from? He’s mad now. Stolas broke the rules, Stolas is using him again, somehow, Stolas… Stolas is crying.

It’s not a trick.

Their whole relationship has been a huge misunderstanding since day 1, and Blitz only just realized.

And Stolas sent Blitz away before he had time to realize, as well.

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I have been destroyed by the episode but at least we got Fizzarolli

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Ok sorry I'm gonna open the wound again but

Do you realize that when Stolas said he wanted to end their deal, Blitz didn't get angry but implores him bcs of the book.

But AFTER getting the crystal, his anger explodes because Stolas talks to him about feelings.

He could have got angry right away bcs it would ruin his business, or just take the crystal and don't bother about the rest, but no, he lashed out because the poor guy thinks Stolas is joking with his feelings, and it affects him because HE CARES FOR HIM. And he refuses to believe Stolas or anyone could love him so it HURTS HIM.

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Ozzie’s vs The Full Moon

The roles are now switched let’s see how blitz reacts

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"But this transactional thing we have... it's not right anymore. It hasn't been-- it never was."

HELLUVA BOSS 2.08 - The Full Moon

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"I think so highly of you... I didn't realize you think so lowly of me." Just kill me it would hurt less

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The way Blitzø was desperately begging Stolas like “I can do better!” how many times do y’all think he said that to his dad at the circus 😭

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HOLD ON BECAUSE WHY AM I SUDDENLY AT THE VERGE OF TEARS FROM LISTENING TO 'TALKING TO THE MOON' BY BRUNO MARS????? WHAT HAS STOLITZ DONE TO ME

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actually fuck the moon deal fuck healthy communication. stolas looking like he's about to fly off the handle? blitz SMILING about it?? the bedroom eyes and feet kicked up on the dash??? fuck problem resolution brother i'm ready for season 3 to be their hatefuck era

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ALGUIEN N PORFAVOR HAGA EL EDIT 😭😭😭😭😭

M-A-M-A-B-O-Y

MAMA'S BOY, MAMA'S BOY