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I feel as if I have messed up

I feel as if I have messed up. I feel as if I was given a chance, but I missed it. I couldn’t see it. I couldn’t see the chance that you gave me. I was given a chance to make life go the way I want. And yet, I was unable to see it. I have missed it. I had missed it multiple times before. Time and time again, I’m given a time for life to work out the way I want. Time and time again, life…

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The smile that illuminated the world

Her smile illuminated my life. Our interaction was only for a short while, but during that moment, I created a thousand words just to say to you. I wrote poems and sonnets about how I felt, and I drew pictures in my head that showed you just how beautiful you were. You were a dream in my mind, but you barely knew I existed. ‘At least for now’ is what I hoped. You’ll forget about me…

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A Common Question

A common question: Have you met the one? Yes. I’ve met the one. What were they like? They were perfect. They understood me. They respected me. They knew what I was going through. They made me laugh. They made me smile. They were taken. They belonged to someone else. There was no place for me. I have met the one. I have encountered the perfect person for me. Or so I believed. I…

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I want to tell you how I feel

I want to tell you how I feel. I want to say it out loud I want to say it as if I was proud. I want to tell you how I feel. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to spend the rest of my days with you. I want to tell you how I feel. I want you to see me for me. I want you to know me for me. I want to tell you how I feel. I can’t speak the words in my mind. No matter how…

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Childish Grin

Am I allowed to have a childish grin on my face? Am I, an adult past my prime, allowed to feel as if I am back to my youth. The feeling of joy when something finally goes right. The feeling of joy when you finally feel as if your heart is no longer chained by burden. You struggle and fight against a chain that ties you down. A single thought or thread that keeps you from thinking of…

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I feel like I'm running out of time

Sometimes in my mind, I feel as if I have no time. I feel like I am chasing something and that if I do not act quickly, then I will lose it. As if within the span of a minute it could all change.  My heart doesn’t rest because of this. I have no idea what it is, but I feel as if I should act now. I feel as if I should take the risk and the gamble on whatever troubles my heart. I feel a sense…

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I Believe I was a fool

I believe I was a fool I think I was a fool for thinking that you loved me. I was an idiot for thinking we had a chance.I told myself lies until I smiled to sleep. I kept dreaming until I could no longer desire to stay awake. All because I loved you. I kept thinking of what could be. I kept thinking that you felt the same. We were both too shy to say. We were both unable to say. We had…

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2024: My Goals for 2025

Another year has ended. Another year has started. Life continues. In this post, I’ll be talking about my current plans for 2025, speaking mostly about projects and personal projects I hope to achieve. Every year, I create some plans for myself, and most of the time I fail most of them. Maybe 2025 will be different, maybe it won’t. But, I’m still going to create some goals for myself as a…

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2024: Happy Holidays (Christmas Message)

Merry Christmas! As always, I’m here with a little post to just say Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! There is nothing more to it, but this time of year is a time for friends and family. It is a time when everyone around the world understands each other. But sadly, life isn’t always fair. There are people out there who cannot celebrate in the way they want. I won’t discuss any of that here,…

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The Snowflake That Falls (Short Story)

If the snowflakes knew that they would eventually melt away, would they fall? If the snowflakes knew that they would turn to water and then to nothing, would they still grace us with their fun? If the snowflakes knew they were loved by many, yet unknown to most, would they share themselves with the few they do? The wind blows them about, in a captivating dance. Fluttering down to the ground,…

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2024: The Best Of…

Another year has gone by. As always, I like to create a post about my favourite things of the year. This could be my favourite TV show, film, song, game or whatever. The only rule is that I must have discovered it in 2024. That means, even if it came out in 1981 if I first watched/listened/read/played it this year, it counts. Let’s begin. FILM: This was tricky, because I thought I had an…

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2024: Did I achieve my goals? (Yearly Roundup)

2024 is coming to an end. It’s been a hell of a year. Just like in 2023, it was painful. It was a very slow and gruelling year that beat me up mentally. But, did I achieve the goals I discussed at the end of last year? Probably not. Honestly, I can’t remember any of them. I’m having to look them up now. In 2024, I’ve been so confused and uncertain about what direction I want my life to go in.…

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There are times

There are times. There are times when I want to just speak out loud There are times when I just want to say what I want to say. There are times when I believe a lot of things. There are times when I am correct. There are times when I think I am wrong. There are times when I am happy to just be able to talk to you. There are times when the memories I make of us together are greater than…

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In comparison to others

In comparison to others, I’m doing ok. In comparison to others, I’m doing great. There are people in this world who will hate someone because of such a minor thing. If the above paragraph was understood by you. I can only offer my condolences, but then again, you may be the person I’m talking about. Everyone in this world is selfish. Everyone has an ego. That ego, that selfishness, is what…

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Why do I wirte?

Why do I write? Why do I live? Why do I sniff my own farts? I write because it helps me enjoy life. I write because by doing so I am experiencing a life I wish I was able to experience more of. The human mind is able to create so many wonders. The human mind creates so much anxiety, that in doing so it creates all new scenarios and wonders.  That is why I write. I write because by doing so…

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I hate a lot

I hate a lot. I personally think that humanity cannot be saved. I believe that we are doomed. I don’t enjoy living because so many people make life not worth living. These people make life the worst but act as if they own their own lives. I cannot understand that. Some people believe they are owed a life and don’t owe a life. Many people think they have another life waiting for them, which…

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I want to speak to God.

I want to speak to God. I’m not even sure I believe in such a creature. I believe that something must exist, whatever it may be. But, after looking at life, it cannot be all kind. It cannot be all-knowing. And it cannot be all-powerful. If it claims to be then it is no God. No God would accept and continue to let life happen. No God would make excuses as to why we must suffer the way we…