slowlyoptimisticwolf

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

Bye.

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

making a new account. sorry but i don't feel motivated to hear you talk about my tumblr. im tired.

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

you know things are getting bad when you spend all day in bed again and don't want to leave your room. your room is slowly becoming a mess. losing interest in everything that used to make you happy, or distract you. only eating one meal a day seems normal. ending it all starts crossing your mind once again.

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

i am tired. i am exhausted. from my head to my soul to my bones i am so fucking tired.

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

people really don’t get that despite all the fucked up shit i’ve seen and felt in my life that I’m genuinely still trying to be a good person despite my mental and emotional shortcomings.

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

Goodbye.

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

I want a vehicle to t bone me so I don't have to live like this anymore

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

I am scared to sleep in my own room

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

I'm deleting this account and making a new one. One that no one will ever find.

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

i break my own heart by expecting people to be as attached to me as i am to them.

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

i am overwhelmed and i just want everything to stop. just stop. just for a moment so i can think, so i can cry, so i can mourn but its so difficult because life just keeps going and my issues are piling on top of each other and suffocating me and i am so overwhelmed that i cant breathe. i hate this.

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

throwing up in the bathroom and crying at 5am just doesn't feel right or good. i am so tired. i just want to be loved.

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

me, an empath suspecting that the only gifts im receiving for my birthday is the taser i pre-ordered and the concert ticket i bought for myself and my ticket to an anime convention 😍😍😍😍

me an empath sensing that i am completely unlovable and that all i do is just ruin things and cry and wonder why nobody can love me 😍🥳🥳🥳

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

im just never going to be enough for you, am i? in every life, whenever we get into a disagreement, you would do anything in your power to make everything hurt all the bit more. changing your pfp, taking down our post, telling me to go fuck my friends, making me uncomfortable by going far beyond my boundaries and liking photos of some fucking Asian girl who i stressed makes me uncomfortable. i have to pretend like i don't give a shit to make myself believe that i should just stop trying for anything. it helps me detach from you because it hurts me and im tired of crying. i want to care but you do these things to spite me, to hurt me, you think about her and you know it hurts me, and you do it. but it's okay. ill just cry and allow myself to breakdown and pretend like nothing ever happened because that's how it's always been and it's how it'll ever be. :] </3.

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

im never going to let my guard down ever again. im so tired of trying my best and people debating whether or not they love me or not

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

im not enough. ill never be enough. im unlovable.

[slowlyoptimisticwolf]

i can't fucking sleep. all that's in my head is forcing myself to vomit. im never enough .