All my life I have been told that I amย โtoo nice.โ As though kindness were a finite thing, and that by spreading mine to everyone I met I was somehow wasting it.ย Some have called it naivete, this persistant compassion of mine, but to say I am so callow is to ignore the path that I have walked.ย The world has tried to teach me cruelty, but I have dug my heels into the soil and refused to bend to its whims. Oh, there have been times where experience has been a brutal teacher. I have been taken advantage of, used for my kindness and then discarded like the peel of an orange that has been squeezed of every last drop of juice. But this will not stop me; if anything, it strengthens my resolve. So do not say that Iโm naive, for I know the world is cruel.ย
I need a girlfriend before October so we can go pumpkin picking and make those cut-and-bake ghost cookies together and share a really fluffy blanket while wearing super thick socks and dress up for halloween as lesbian witches.ย
Inner me: please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay please be gay