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Drawing Markiplier with my eyes closed

I did Jack, so I had to do Mark too. :D This one was way more frustrating…

and with eyes open

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Where do I go

Where do I go from here, when my mind is mush. I hate that you have this hold on me. No matter how long I have my walls built, all it takes is a simple message. The fuck.. how do you have this hold on me. HOW... you never wanted anything more than just friends. You say you did, you lead me to believe you did.. How is this hold so powerful.. is it because we’ve never explored our path? I was doing so good.. I’m such a fucking idiot. 

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!!! WARNING, EVERYONE !!!

IF YOU SEE THIS IN A YOUTUBE AD MUTE YOUR DEVICE AND SCROLL UNTIL YOU CAN’T SEE THE VIDEO SCREEN ANYMORE.

This is an ad about animal cruelty that has very loud screaming of dying animals. Also flashing, graphic pictures of said animals, like a dead chicken or a pig biting a wired fence.

It’s about thirty seconds, the screaming starts 10 seconds in and the ad isn’t skippable.

It can trigger panic attacks and cause your anxiety to skyrocket, and it’s just generally a very disturbing thing no one should see.

I’ve only seen a warning yet, haven’t stumbled across this before despite using YT a lot but for the love of God please be careful. Here is a link to that video but ONLY WATCH IT IF YOU KNOW YOU’RE NOT SENSITIVE TO THIS TYPE OF CONTENT. I’m merely giving out the link so you can report it and I wouldn’t advise any of you actually watch it.

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EDIT: The ad isn’t by PETA. It’s by World Animal Protection USA. Just thought I’d clarify. They’re both horrible though.

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Another edit just to reassure you guys: The animals you can hear in it aren’t suffering! It’s heavily edited pig squeals, pigs are noisy animals and are most likely to get loud when they’re excited or there’s food around. The audio was drastically altered to make it more traumatizing. Still wouldn’t recommend anyone listens to this.

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world champion hot dog eater material right here

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If you want one.

I have to take this dive for me. I feel it's time.. it has to be. I want it, even tho I'm nervous as shit. However, how can you not look at your sweet child and continue to stay stationary.. I must change for him. Hes my whole world.

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I got you babe

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Midnight post

Of course, here I am, laying wide awake at 12:30.. I do this every time. I know better and should be sleeping, but my mind races on all things I cant change at this moment in time. Why the hell does my mind do this shit. 😖 Its exhausting as all get out, but I just cannot help it but to lay here and stress over shit. Shit like, holiday, my set, future jobs, baby sitters, where we're going to move, the wedding, insurance.. I mean the list just goes on and on. Stupid cycle too. 🙄 anyways, I need some food so I'm going to make some and hopefully get my mind to stop. Lol.

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Our Christmas tree is now up for the christmas season ! & I do not care what anyone says lol. This year has hit me different, and I cant have Thanksgiving dinner anyways so ima jump right into Christmas haha.

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Morning Coffee

Today I made it my mission to make coffee. I haven’t had coffee from home, since probably around the time of my baby shower or before. I can’t honestly remember. Soon, I’ll finish getting the family ready & then we’ll go see some other members of the family. My mission is to get our tree up today, and yes I know it’s early, but when you can’t have a Thanksgiving this year, might as well skip it lol. I cannot wait to be able to chew food again, and once me and my fiance are allowed to, we will have our Thanksgiving, but for now, I’ma enjoy my son’s first Christmas as long as I can! Anyways, I’m going to get this day going & get to finishing getting ready. I can’t wait to get out the house, I can’t tell you how long that’s been either. -_- lol 

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Trapped Inside My Mind

I've come to this site to try and free my thoughts. I suppose my goal is to write, in hopes maybe I'll make some sense on a screne vs paper. I've been trapped inside my mind for a while and it's hard to escape. There's plenty of things I'd like my account to turn into, but if it just becomes a place for me to express myself, then I'll be just fine. I doubt many family or friends have this site, and if they do and find my blogs, so have it. I don't honestly have things to hide, but I don't want to go all willy nilly with things in my head, to those on my main social media. Some blogs might become deep, others might be simply what I did that day.. & in between of course.

So here's to a new mind opening journey, for myself to explore. Here's to hoping this is worth it. Here's to hoping it frees me from the cages inside my head. I hope this may be a piece of a key in opening those doors.

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I needed this..