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"the world isn't kind" ok??? Much more importantly are you?????

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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Uh anyways I rewatched the days movie and this is Roxas response to Axel explaining how long summer vacations are:

This boy lives through an eldritch horror even BEFORE he is put into a fake simulation of a parrallel life and then they have the gall to make little nudging jokes about it

what's your favorite horror movie? idk probably Roxas in the digital Twilight Town realising that all the friends he's ever known are actually fake and programmed to like him, while he himself has no actually sense of identity. He doesn't know who he is, he lives a life that doesn't belong to him to become a literal human sacrifice in order to bring back Sora.

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things i wish happened in original netflix daredevil, in no particular order

- matt kills someone by accident (classic daredevil trope, really don’t know how it didn’t pop up)

- karen and claire subplot (again. don’t know how this didn’t happen. they never even meet?)

- elektra comics backstory

- ditto ben urich

- foggy introduces matt as his partner and neither of them correct it when assumptions are made. this happens more than once. multiple times even

- frank and stick have the equivalent of a miami girls trip

- frank and stick have the equivalent of a miami girls trip fallout

- dex dies of influenza

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remember the olden days when it was just misha? i am so glad he finally has a partner in crime

MOOOOOOOOOoooom!! Misha Collins and Jensen Ackles are causing chaos in the supernatural fandom again!

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When sweethearts go on a date and share

Oh, look… Sam is off somewhere 🤣

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I love how he started this off like he was about to do something brave

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Hmmm i hate computer science i hate it hate it hate it

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Animation project I'm slowly working on. A cutscene forever in my core memory

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Every x-blade in Kingdom Hearts

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BEAT

fifteen years ago, i promised i would one day eat sephiroths's ass in kh2 and tonight i finally did it

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fifteen years ago, i promised i would one day eat sephiroths's ass in kh2 and tonight i finally did it

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playing terra's part in bbs for the first time and boy why does he keep trusting literally all the wrong people what is thissss

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I have a bisexual guppy and its funny as hell to watch because it seems like he’s only bi out of desperation. Like all of the female guppies are unimpressed by him, and dont accept his mating displays, and every time he fails, he goes over to a SPECIFIC male guppy (the prettiest male guppy in the tank) like PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE and that male guppy always lets him????

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the dash is in tatters. please say something nice to the person you reblog this from. it's so sad to see you all so sad

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i actually need to know people's thoughts on this because at least in my experience the answer to this has drastically changed since i was on tumblr in the 2010s and its driving me fucking insane

*im talking about fandom takes specifically. not someone being horribly evil about a real-life issue or or blatantly factually incorrect. literally just harmless fandom disagreements or differing interpretations of a text/character/etc.

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OH ALSO i do not care that the final fantasy games are not canon in kingdom hearts I CAN AND I WILL write a kh fanfiction where Sora talks to Yuna, Rikku and Paine and finds out that they know Auron and then brings him to them so that he can become the baby daddy of these three very unserious, treasure hunting fairies