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More grief and pregnancy mention below

I keep having completely irrational thoughts that are stupid but being self aware that they’re stupid isn’t making them stop

I keep thinking that if I didn’t have such a massive hangup on being pregnant, then maybe we’d have kids by now and thus he could have gotten to experience being a grandpa for a bit. I know he would’ve loved them and been such a great grandfather. But I’m stupid and have a weird fear of it so we’re adopting. And that takes longer. So he never got to. I feel guilty. As if I could have known this would happen.

Just gonna use this as a diary cuz I’ve had a major couple of days so. Mentions of death, grief, and dead bodies in the cut

My father in law died suddenly. I have the blessing of this being the first really major death in my life. And definitely the quickest. He went from a kidney stone to dead in a couple days. I saw his body. First non embalmed one I’ve ever seen. He didn’t look like him anymore but also did? It’s hard to explain. Like my brain knew the person was gone and that was just a body

I’ve been trying to not be a mess about it because he wasn’t my dad he was my spouse’s dad and I need to be the support but it’s also a lot. I have known him for over a decade now.

He will not get to be a grandfather. The kids were trying to adopt are never going to know him. The leftovers in the fridge of the food he made is the last time I’ll get to have it. His desk is all papers and reading glasses. I keep remembering the little ways he showed he cared and made me feel welcome. And he’s gone.

Sorry. This feels silly. But I don’t know how to navigate this. Playing it by ear which is a personal circle of hell for me. I like knowing what I’m supposed to do.

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Just gonna use this as a diary cuz I’ve had a major couple of days so. Mentions of death, grief, and dead bodies in the cut

My father in law died suddenly. I have the blessing of this being the first really major death in my life. And definitely the quickest. He went from a kidney stone to dead in a couple days. I saw his body. First non embalmed one I’ve ever seen. He didn’t look like him anymore but also did? It’s hard to explain. Like my brain knew the person was gone and that was just a body

I’ve been trying to not be a mess about it because he wasn’t my dad he was my spouse’s dad and I need to be the support but it’s also a lot. I have known him for over a decade now.

He will not get to be a grandfather. The kids were trying to adopt are never going to know him. The leftovers in the fridge of the food he made is the last time I’ll get to have it. His desk is all papers and reading glasses. I keep remembering the little ways he showed he cared and made me feel welcome. And he’s gone.

Sorry. This feels silly. But I don’t know how to navigate this. Playing it by ear which is a personal circle of hell for me. I like knowing what I’m supposed to do.

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donations for marah have significantly slowed down! the balousha family is famished, exhausted, depressed, and desperate. i care about them deeply and i hope that you're able to share this post and spare a dollar or two! :)

I am hosting this campaign !! The money you have all helped raise for this family has kept them alive through this nightmare - please continue to share and donate if you can!

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PLEASE DON’T IGNORE ME!!

My four-year-old sister Soso has caught chickenpox from other children. It would be fine if her body hadn’t been weakened to the extreme by almost two years of malnutrition, sickness, poor life conditions, lack of sleep and lack of access to clean water. She’s very sick and won’t stop crying. She’s battling a high fever while baking in the intense summer heat. All I can do is fan her face with a piece of paper because we don’t even have windows to shield us.

Until now, we held on to our gold rings because they held sentimental value, but yesterday we sold them to buy medicine for her. As painful as it was to part with this last piece of our old lives, it’s not enough. She needs more medicine, she needs food, she needs clean water. I can’t bear watching her deteriorate anymore, what is her fault?!

Please help me help her. She’s only four, how is this fair? At the very least please share this post if you see it. You might not be able to donate, but someone out there can and we need to reach them. Please!!

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