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[softest-babie]

thank u everyone for the birthday wishes 🥳❤️

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Hey a couple people have asked, here’s my new Amazon wishlist. I have some stuff on there that I could use here in the crisis unit and in my therapy classes, and then there’s some little stuff. If anyone is interested in sending me something to help get me through this stay , that’d be awesome ❤️

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day 15 in the crisis unit :( im ready to go home and get drunk (which means im obviously not ready to leave yet). No clue when I’ll be out. Love u all ❤️🌱

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I’d be interested in being a daddy / big bro to you I don’t care if your not female or male it doesn’t matter

message me :3

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need diapers and snuggles 👉👈

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Hello beautiful I know your looking for a daddy I’m 24 single been into ABDL since I waz 13 more into the DL side of things personally but I’ve allways dreamed of being with a female AB I’m bisexual into kink bondage etc… from Utah would love to chat see if we click 😁😜🥳

im not a female.

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officially looking for a new daddy <3

if you're new here, hi! i'm greyson :3 I'm 22 and am an age regressor. i'm from utah, I have a cat who I adore, and my fave past times includes bubble baths and watching cartoons.

i would prefer to stay in the age range 21-45, and the closer you are the better but I don't mind long distance !

message or shoot me an ask if you'd maybe be interested in chatting ❤🌱

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Read your recent post, I’m so sorry for everything you’re going through ❤️❤️❤️❤️ sending love and good vibes!

Thank u so much😣❤ its been rough asf recently but we're just waiting for it to get better...eventually

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pastel princess💟

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I've literally only started following you, but your recent post broke my heart. I hope you're okay. From one fellow human to another, I wish you nothing but the best! 🩷

thank u very much ❤️🌱 i appreciate it lots

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I just read your post and I wanted to reach out. I'm a little older and was diagnosed with BPD when I was younger. When you get older your brain develops a little bit more and things just... click. Idk how to describe it. You can be undiagnosed with BPD. You just have to do a lot of introspection and work, but you aren't stuck and you won't feel this chaotic and heavy forever. I promise. For the schizoaffective disorder, I don't have it, but a friend of mine for 13 years was diagnosed after a psychotic break when we were about 25/26. He struggled with the weight gain and the voices and sometimes he still does. The medicines had awful side effects. I know everyone is different, but I wanted to let you know that his life got better as we got older too. I know it sounds cliche, but maybe it helps to hear from another mentally ill person?

thank u 🥺 i have heard that it gets easier as time goes on. im pretty much doing everything i can just to stay alive so hopefully I can get to that point eventually

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Alright, I'm gonna be honest with you guys. This might end up being a long read , if so I apologize. Tw// suicidal ideation, mental health, self harm mention

I had a schizophrenic break about 2-2.5 years ago. The technical term for my diagnosis is Schizoaffective Disorder. For those who don't know, Schizoaffective is like the love child of Bipolar and Schizophrenia. It's distinct in having both severe mood issues + psychotic symptoms for an extended period of time. It is not curable, but meds and therapy can help. I also have been recently diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder which wrecks me in its own way. This one can be cured but it takes a LOT of therapy. It's no longer considered OSDD-1B, they are considering my alters as a symptom of the psychosis. 

This is why my legs no longer look perfect, I caused the scars on them over the years. The several antipsychotics I take have made me gain an unreasonable amount of weight, this is why I have stretch marks and am fat now. I eat clean and exercise but the meds mess with my metabolism really bad. 

I'm having an AWFUL time trying to cope with this. I've had 2 hospitalizations in the last 6 months as an attempt to stabilize myself. I can't believe I'm going to be stuck like this forever. The symptoms are so horrible. I am paranoid, terrified of people, terrified to leave my house, especially alone. Every walk to a doctor's appointment causes me panic attacks. I constantly hear people screaming, phones ringing repeatedly, people fighting and talking indistinctly. I hear footsteps behind me even if nobody is there. I never have silence. I feel bugs on my skin, I scratch at myself in an attempt to make them go away. I have to check my bed regularly to check for bugs, even though I know there aren't any. I feel people grabbing me. I feel bursts of wind when there aren't any. I see shadows, they follow me. Sometimes they talk to me, sometimes they just stare from the corner of a room. They tell me to kill myself on a regular basis. It's very hard to avoid self harming.

I am miserable and despite being heavily medicated, I  still have symptoms every single day. I go to therapy twice a week, take all my meds, I've done all the hippie shit too, and nothing seems to be helping. I'm so exhausted from being alive. I can't regress much anymore either. 

If you've noticed a change in me, this is why. I almost want to deactivate all my social media but rn it's my only outlet so I don't think I'll be doing that yet. I love you all but I'm really sad at the response I've gotten in the last couple years. I've tried my best to remain active and do content but it's so extremely taxing and difficult on my brain. I don't look the same and y'all don't like that. I have 11k followers and only get interaction from like, 30. It used to be 700 was like the minimum notes on my posts and now I'm lucky to even break 100. Which isn't why I'm here, but it does make me feel bad and rejected. 

Thank you to everyone who has stayed here for me through the years. I appreciate every one of you. I also appreciate everyone who has read this all the way through. I'm still trying to smile through all this.

[softest-babie]

i'm so isolated. if any other littles wanna be friends or sum that'd be cool 🌱❤️

[softest-babie]

dada made me put 5 diapers on, look how hard im trying to close my leggies🙈

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Hey friend 🤗

What's your favorite quote and why?

Mine is "don't be ashamed of your story. It just might inspire someone."

It's my favorite because when I share my story, I hope people see that even when life is at its most bleak, most raw and painful, there is always an opportunity to persevere and thrive. I still have a long path of healing but my quality of life is so much better.

Love your content friend. I hope you have a great weekend 💜🩵💜🩵

mine would be "I'll fuck you up if you're mean to bugs" (cavetown)

I pick this one because it also resonates with me about all minorities, and I care about rights for everyone. I'll fuck u up if u take away rights from people who can't fight back. 🌱

Thank u for kind words 🥺😊 I hope everything works out exactly how you want it to

[softest-babie]

looking for new daddies/mommies 🥺 if ur interested shoot me a message or an ask 💕i need someone with a lot of free time, I need all the affection and attention

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so sleepy

binky from @babyyourdollco