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I have no clue what she's saying, and I can't read Chinese, but that doesn't stop her from being ridiculously beautiful and hot.

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You have lore?

none of you even care about my lore 😒

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Which Kingston is this??

and they say white people can’t cook

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Gotta do one of these

Reblog if you wanna have your metabolism ruined by a gym girl

Trust me, it works

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Does women have their fingers being taken over by their fats?

No idea what you mean, but I do enjoy chubby hands if that's what you mean.

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Me too please!

Have your way with me ma'am

Will do

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Agreed 👍

The ideal for couples. BHM with and FFA.

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So, I'm back, feeling less stressed, not better. Honestly it's the holidays, and I want to enjoy myself.

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Hey there

You know that one person you legitimately despise for no reason? The one person who, by simply existing in the same space as you, absolutely ruins your day, puts you in an awful mood, and means you can barely get anything done? Yeah that's my mother.

Let's begin when I was little. I was 4 or 5, greatly enjoying elementary school, having fun with both my teachers, and life was actually pretty fun. My mother recently told me about homeschooling, that it would help me get smarter, and that we could spend more time together. Being a dumb, impressional kid, I said yes.

Worst mistake of my life.

I barely had any human contact, because my Mom considered working on the computer and talking to her friends on the phone a better use of her time than teaching me. There weren't any other kids around, and she freaked out whenever I left the house, so I just stayed inside and watched TV. She still yelled at me though.

Eventually she realized that I didn't have any friends, and decided to start hosting this random homeschoolers club that other parents used. I met my first friend there, and his name was Eli.

We played a ton together, and wanted to stay friends forever. He moved down to Massachusetts though, so I didn't see him after that.

Eventually after a few more years, I made two more friends. Twins, Lucas and Emily. I liked them both, and really liked Emily. She was kind of my first crush, before I even knew what that really was. Their Mom and mine didn't get along though, and I bet everything i own that they were waiting for a reason to separate us.

I ended up causing that reason.

No, I'm not talking about it on here, but it was pretty bad, and I still feel awful about what happened. Emily, if by some chance you're reading this, I'm so sorry. I must've ruined your first kiss.

After that, Mom and Dad finally separated. I wanted to go with Dad, but I couldn't say it. My social skills were so awful that I couldn't even talk to my own parents.

Things got worse. Dad always was the brunt of Mom's outrage cause he occasionally drank. With him gone, I was to blame for everything. Every slight, every iota that she disliked about the world, she dumped onto me. I was supposed to help her with whatever she needed, and like a good little chattel slave, I went right along.

Though, she just yelled at me more.

I ended up taking some college courses when I was technically in highschool, but I wasn't able to meet anyone new there. Then COVID hit, and I was trapped with her again. I was used to that though, so I think I did better than most people? I'm not sure.

Finally i got my first job at 20. Retail work, but most people were nice to me, and the older folks always want to chat with me. I'm still at that job currently, and I actually really like it. It's tiring, but the worst part of it is going back home.

After that, an old friend of my Dad moved in with him. Chris. He went to jail for raping a teenager. He is an awful person, but he did hit me with the reality of my situation, and I'll be grateful to him for that. He's still an absolute dickhead though, but he moved out when he got my Dad evicted.

Now that the holidays are on their way, Mom is getting stressed, which means she's making me stressed. I have a DnD group I've been trying to DM for, but I barely have time to write up the next session, and she's having issues because I swear occasionally with them.

A very nice old man who is a repeat customer at my job painted a few really good murals of Jesus in one of the local churches, and invited me to see them sometime. I was supposed to let him know before today. I hope he isn't disappointed.

I want to kill myself so much it's driving me insane. I can't, because I'm the only thing keeping my father from doing the same. Every single day I want to die, or I want to kill my mother. Most of the time it's both.

There are people that rely on me and care about me, and that makes it so much harder. Is it worth making them sad, angry, and depressed because I can't deal with this anymore?

It isn't. It never is, but my only other option is existing like I am now.

I'm not religious, but God, I want to die.

Kill me, please. I'm too much of a coward to go through with it on my own terms, and I hate myself for it.

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Please tell me someone wants to RP this with me.

Evil momo be like: gains weight on purpose, vulgar, gross, no manners, swears, will punch your lights out

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Yeah I want both!

What if i want both of them 🫣🐷

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Oh cool! It's my birthday too!

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! enjoy how big i'm becoming each year that goes by ❤️

and if you want to help me get a lil treat today, this is my ko fi!

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Why Men Don’t Talk

Honestly I think more people should know about this lady.

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This is the money grunkle, reblog in the next 24 hours and money will come your way!

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Confession time...

Please re-blog this if it is okay to anonymously confess a fantasy to you.

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