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me, in the middle of making icons, having done a bunch already: i hate this psd

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42 character development questions!

PHYSICAL PRESENCE AND GESTURE. 1. How do they move and carry themselves? Pace, rhythm, gestures, energy? 2. How much physical space do they use, active and at rest? 3. How do they position themselves in a group? Do they like to be the center of attention, or do they hang back at the edges of a crowd? 4. What is their size and build? How does it influence how they use their body, if it does? 5. How do they dress? What styles, colors, accessories, and other possessions do they favor? Why? 6. What are they like in motion–in different environments, and in different activities? What causes the differences between these? 7. How do they physically engage with other people, inanimate objects, and their environment? What causes the differences between these? 8. Where and when do they seem most and least at ease? Why? How can you tell? 9. How do they manifest energy, exhaustion, tension, or other strong emotions? 10. What energizes and drains them most? 11. How are they vocally expressive? What kind of voice, accent, tones, inflections, volume, phrases and slang, and manner of speaking do they use? 12. How are they bodily expressive? How do they use nonverbal cues such as their posture, stance, eyes, eyebrows, mouths, and hands? DISPOSITION AND TEMPERAMENT. 13. How do they greet the world — what is their typical attitude towards life? How does it differ in different circumstances, or towards different subjects? Why do they take these attitudes, and why do they change? How do these tend to be expressed? 14. What do they care deeply about? What kind of loyalties, commitments, moral codes, life philosophies, passions, callings, or spirituality and faith do they have? How do these tend to be expressed? 15. What kind of inner life do they have — rich and imaginative? Calculating and practical? Full of doubts and fears? Does it find any sort of outlet in their lives? 16. Do they dream? What are those dreams like? 17. Are they more shaped by nature or nurture — who they are, or what has happened to them? How have these shaped who they’ve become as a person? 18. What kind of person could they become in the future? What are some developmental paths that they could take, (best, worst, most likely?) what would cause them to come to pass, and what consequences might they have? What paths would you especially like to see, and why? CONNECTIONS WITH OTHERS. 19. How do they behave within a group? What role(s) do they take? Does this differ if they know and trust the group, versus finding themselves in a group of strangers? Why? 20. What kind of individual relationships do they have with others, and how do they behave in them? How are they different between intimate relationships like friends, family, and lovers versus more impersonal relationships? 21. What kind of relationships do they tend to intentionally seek out versus actually cultivate? What kind of social contact do they prefer, and why? 22. How do people respond to them, and why might these responses differ? 23. How do they respond to difficult social moments? What makes them consider a social situation difficult? 24. How do they present themselves socially? What distinguishes their “persona” from their “true self”, and what causes that difference? 25. What do they need and want out of relationships, and how do they go about getting it? 26. How do they view and feel about relationships, and how might this manifest in how they handle them, if it does? ACTIVITIES AND PREFERENCES. 27. What do they strongly like and dislike, in any category? Why? 28. What are they likely to do if they have the opportunity, resources, and time to accomplish it? Why? 29. What kind of activities, interests, and hobbies do they have? What significance and impact do these have in their lives, both positive and negative? 30. What is their preferred level of activity and stimulation? How do they cope if they get either too little or too much? 31. Is there anything that counts as a “dealbreaker” for them, positively or negatively? What makes things go smoothly, and what spoils an activity or ruins their day? Why? 32. Do they have any “props” that are a significant part of their life, identity, activities, or self-presentation somehow? What are they, how are they used, and why are they so significant? How would these props’ absence impact them, how would they compensate, and why? THINKING AND LEARNING. 33. How do they learn about the world–what is their preferred learning style? Hands-on learning with trial and error? Research, reading, and note-taking? Observation or rote memorization? Inductive or deductive reasoning? Seeking patterns and organization? Taking things apart and putting them back together? Creative processing via discussing, writing about, or dramatizing things? 34. How do they understand the world–what kind of worldview and thought processes do they have? Why? 35. How and why do they internalize knowledge? What effect has that had on them? 36. How much do they rely on their minds and intellect, versus other approaches like relying on instinct, intuition, faith and spirituality, or emotions? What is their opinion on this? 37. Have they had any special education or training that colors their means of learning about or understanding the world? Conversely, do they lack some kind of education considered essential in their world? What kind of impact has this addition or lack had on them? 38. Is there anything they wish they could change about their worldview or thought processes? What, and why? 39. What sort of questions or thoughts recur in their lives, either specifically or as a theme? Why are these never answered, or answered permanently to their satisfaction? 40. What do they wonder about? What sparks their curiosity and imagination, and why? How is this expressed, if it is? FREE FOR ALL. 41. What associations do they bring to mind? Words or phrases, images, metaphors or motifs? Why? 42. I have a question of my own!

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are there any silent voice muses you would like to see/interact with?

hello nonny!! the short answer would be well, ALL OF THEM. of course i’d love a nishimiya, but i’d also kill for a shimada & maybe an ueno because there’d be so much potential for angst to happen ( i’m a hoe for angst ). a nagatsuka would be cool too because he was ishida’s first friend in a long time, their bond is deep :) on the other hand i don’t care much for sahara because she has more to do with nishimiya than ishida, & kawai is just a terrible person who needs to stay in the trash where she belongs lmao. 

but also yuzuru!!! she’s practically a sister to ishida & i need that sibling type bond weeps.

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thatmebpd:

THEY CAN’T ABANDON YOU IF YOU PUSH THEM AWAY FIRST

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It takes him a few days (and some prodding from his friends) before he finally decides to make the trip down to the hospital where the boy he’d saved the week prior is being treated. He explains himself to one of the nurses at the desk, hoping to at least receive an update on how he’s doing, only for whom he assumes to be the boy’s mother to approach him and profusely thank him for his heroic actions, going as far as to ask Kirishima if he’d like to visit him. (1)

And that’s how he finds himself here: hovering outside Ishida Shouya’s hospital room, unsure if it’s even okay for him to be there. But he has to know for himself— he has to know that he’s alright. Kirishima’s movements are hesitant (yet determined) as he reaches out to slide the door open, head popping curiously around the doorframe. (2)

His gaze lands upon a familiar, slender figure sitting in the hospital bed by the window and all of Kirishima’s worries immediately fade away. He steps into the room with purpose, lifting a hand in greeting as he calls, “Yo! S’good to see you’re doing okay! Y’know, aside from the broken bones… I, uh…” He chuckles, a nervous sound, rubbing the back of his head. “Sorry about that, man… Didn’t know how else to absorb the impact without accidentally killin’ both of us.” (3)

the sound of his door sliding open seems louder than it should in the silence of his room, where the only other noises are the beeping of machines monitoring his condition & the background bustling of hospital life. he spares a glance toward his visitor but there’s no immediate recognition, he hadn’t seen his face before but there was a small stir of familiarity in his voice. his heart rate monitor picks up a little speed, he stares down at his hands fisted into the bedding & recalls a conversation he’d had with his mother when he’d regained consciousness. 

a flurry of harsh words stemming from the worry of a parent, filled with the sound of tears not far off & then,  ❛ you’re lucky that red riot kid was close by! ❜

his finger itched to press the call button, ached to have someone come by & tell all visitors to leave; but he knew that he’d have to deal with this sooner or later, knew that at some point, he’d be expected to show some gratitude toward the hero who’d saved him. he swallowed but the saliva felt sticky in his dry throat, he turned his head toward the window ( not without a small spike of pain ) so he could avoid having to face him. 

words were failing him & the silence stretched on between them — the longer they stayed like that, the higher the discomfort & anxiety rose within him. his fingers clenched, un-clenched at his sides, he felt so restricted. if he could walk then he would. he would get up & walk, walk, walk far away to a place no one knew him & he knew no one. he would escape. his chest felt uncomfortably tight, he could feel the hero’s gaze on him, waiting for a response that he didn’t think he could give. 

he squeezed his eyes shut to push back the stinging that threatened panicked tears. if the hero was watching close enough, he’d catch a small nod of acknowledgement that was the best he could manage right now, & the small hum that went with it.

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IN GENERAL:

REAL NAME: u need to be at least a level 7 friend to unlock NICKNAMES: lero SEXUALITY: very sexual but also very anti-people, ya feel?? PREFERRED PRONOUNS: she / her ARE YOU A MORNING PERSON?: i’m a bed type of person WHEN SWIMMING, DO YOU PREFER TO DO IT IN THE OCEAN, OR IN A LAKE?: anywhere i can 1000% not only see the bottom, but know there are no fishes or anything else around my feet

ON TUMBLR:

ANYONE YOU WOULD LIKE TO MEET IN REAL LIFE?: it would be nice ANYONE YOU HAVE MET IN REAL LIFE?: no WHEN DID YOU FIRST JOIN? HOW OLD IS YOUR CURRENT ACCOUNT?: i joined tumblr in 2011 & my current rp account is 4 days old ANY PEEVES?: probably a lot but i’m too lazy to think UNPOPULAR OPINION: again, a lot but lazy

FEELINGS:

DO YOU EASILY GET JEALOUS?: : too easily DO YOU EASILY GET ANGRY?: i do rip ARE YOU EASY TO CHEER UP?: it depends on who is trying ARE YOU GOOD AT HIDING YOUR EMOTIONS?: for a certain amount of time, then i explode & it turns into a shit storm WHAT’S THE VERY BEST WAY TO CHEER YOU UP?: personal attention? validation? constant reassurance? idek

RELATIONSHIPS:

ARE YOU CURRENTLY IN A RELATIONSHIP?: what is a relationship?  DO YOU CURRENTLY HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE?: not really? IF YES, MIGHT THAT SOMEONE BE READING THIS?: heck no the last person i had a crush on fucked me over like 2 years ago smh DO YOU KISS ON THE FIRST DATE?: i’m a hoe fuckin’ sue me i go all the way DO YOU PREFER GOING OUT, OR STAYING HOME, WHEN IT COMES TO DATES?: dates?? never even been on one tbh

THINGS:

FAVORITE DRINK: i drink an absurd amount of coke FAVORITE FOOD: fuckin cheese mate i love it MOST CALMING PLACE?: my bed :) MOST STRESSFUL PLACE?: outside of my home tbh MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?: if my house was on fire i’d pack up my laptop & all my anime figures & my body pillows

tagged by: @krulbred tagging: the dash :)

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okay listen, this meme didn’t specify that i had to gush about the actual sender but i’m going to do it anyway!! this is going to be short & sweet because i’m nearing my max level of gushing for the day so i’ll get right to it. i have loved all of your blogs right the way since i started following that angry dragon son ages ago, before i even watched the show, because i knew RIGHT THEN that your writing was amazing. i believe i’ve followed most of your blogs since then from various blogs of my own because i always sought your blogs out, simply so i could sit & enjoy your writing. honestly!!! half & half son? love it. hacker son? love it too. THIS SON RIGHT HERE??? love it. keep writing good, much good, very good, love it. @demoncorrupt

lemme gush // no longer accepting though because its difficult for me

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well lets see, okay so there’s this person okay and they have a few blogs & i kinda love them all? but mostly, this person is a+ & super funny, so nice too, super helpful & positive. also not to mention that no matter which blog they’re on ( whether it be kuroo or jumin or some bitch ass vampire named mika ), they’re always so spot on with their writing & i’m over here like ??? how lmao how are you so good? basically cher is amazing as a person & as a writer too, there are no words that express how this wonderful human being has made me feel so comfortable just by being so nice to me??? that is all i gotta say because i suck at gushing, but i love cher, who is currently over at KRULBRED :)

lemme gush // no longer accepting though because its difficult for me

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mesianism.

&& @solitudebased / starter call. 

                   ♰ “ Excuse me? ” he tried again, slender fingers touching the shoulder of a boy who seemed to be the same age as him. Being ignored was one of Light’s least favorite things; it frustrated him. “ For the third time, can you answer my question? Are you a student here? ” The male’s annoyed expression changed immediately in a much softer one, followed by a thin smile. “ I need some help. ” ♰

like most days, he tended to keep himself distant from the other students at school. he tuned himself out, everything was just background noise & hardly anyone bothered to approach him; he liked it better that way — isolation. if he chose to be alone than it wouldn’t feel like he was made to be alone, or at least that was the idea behind it. 

he could distantly feel a presence lingering by him but chose to ignore it & pinned it down to being someone ignoring him just as much; but when he felt fingers at his shoulder he lurched forward in shock, letting out a despairing whine at the remainder of his lunch spilling out onto the ground. as he fumbled to pick up the pieces, he spared a glance at the strangers feet,  ❛ i don’t think i can help ... ❜  he swallowed around his words, hoping by some miracle that he’d be left alone.

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Character Development Questions: Hard Mode

Does your character have siblings or family members in their age group? Which one are they closest with?

What is/was your character’s relationship with their mother like?

What is/was your character’s relationship with their father like?

Has your character ever witnessed something that fundamentally changed them? If so, does anyone else know?

On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?

Does your character have recurring themes in their dreams?

Does your character have recurring themes in their nightmares?

Has your character ever fired a gun? If so, what was their first target?

Is your character’s current socioeconomic status different than it was when they were growing up?

Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing?

In what situation was your character the most afraid they’ve ever been?

In what situation was your character the most calm they’ve ever been?

Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way?

Does your character remember names or faces easier?

Is your character preoccupied with money or material possession? Why or why not?

Which does your character idealize most: happiness or success?

What was your character’s favorite toy as a child?

Is your character more likely to admire wisdom, or ambition in others?

What is your character’s biggest relationship flaw? Has this flaw destroyed relationships for them before?

In what ways does your character compare themselves to others? Do they do this for the sake of self-validation, or self-criticism?

If something tragic or negative happens to your character, do they believe they may have caused or deserved it, or are they quick to blame others?

What does your character like in other people?

What does your character dislike in other people?

How quick is your character to trust someone else?

How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?

How does your character behave around children?

How does your character normally deal with confrontation?

How quick or slow is your character to resort to physical violence in a confrontation?

What did your character dream of being or doing as a child? Did that dream come true?

What does your character find repulsive or disgusting?

Describe a scenario in which your character feels most comfortable.

Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable.

In the face of criticism, is your character defensive, self-deprecating, or willing to improve?

Is your character more likely to keep trying a solution/method that didn’t work the first time, or immediately move on to a different solution/method?

How does your character behave around people they like?

How does your character behave around people they dislike?

Is your character more concerned with defending their honor, or protecting their status?

Is your character more likely to remove a problem/threat, or remove themselves from a problem/threat?

Has your character ever been bitten by an animal? How were they affected (or unaffected)?

How does your character treat people in service jobs?

Does your character feel that they deserve to have what they want, whether it be material or abstract, or do they feel they must earn it first?

Has your character ever had a parental figure who was not related to them?

Has your character ever had a dependent figure who was not related to them?

How easy or difficult is it for your character to say “I love you?” Can they say it without meaning it?

What does your character believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them?

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Send me a " 💞 " and I will talk about a blog that I look up to

Note: it is optional to tag whomever you’re talking about.

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me: wants to be hugged and held, is totally touch starved and needs to be cuddled

also me: allows only a very limited number of people to touch me at all, let alone in a slightly intimate way. barely ever allows myself to show emotional weakness around people. gets anxious when someone hugs me for too long.

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HEY. so i haven’t ever seen a ‘tell me what you think of me’ meme that really explains what i want to hear to grow and better myself, so THIS IS A PERSONAL, DIRECT CALL FOR COMMENTARY/CRITIQUE. anyone and everyone, whether roleplay blog or personal, whether mutual or not, whether old friends or this-day followers, come into my inbox and tell me what you think of how i play my muse. and be negative if you want to! this is important! we improve when people point out our weak spots, so please, please, i will thank you to point out mine. tell me if you feel like you know my character, and if his characterization is consistent. do you feel like i’m bringing something new and vital to his character? does the style of my writing fit my muse? is there something you wish you saw more of or less of from my writing? anything and everything is helpful, but i beg of you, be honest! don’t feel like you need to flatter me! i am not fishing for compliments. say what you’ve really wanted to say! i promise you that you will gain my absolute love and gratitude.

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psa that i love u 💕

curls around you with all my love ♥ my day has been made by this wonderful being

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❛ I will not fall; I will not fade. ❜

he swallows, eyes glued to the weapon held mere feet from where he sits stunned. striking green against black, he’d heard the rumours whispered among others like him still stuck below ground & suffering in the darkness, about a human boy who had managed to escape a few years ago & joined the imperial army — could this be him? he sounded so sure, so defiant / confident in his stance with his back toward this poor excuse for a human & facing the vampire ahead. 

it was then that panic struck. if this vampire was killed then what would become of him? he’d surely be killed too! another vampire would come & he’d made sure to be good, so good, to gain their favour, to gain better treatment for himself & those he lived with.  ❛ s-stop, what are you doing? ❜  dragging his body forward on shaking arms, he reached out to grab a hold of what material he could from the back of his uniform. his fingers were weak from a recent feed he’d been subjected to, his grip didn’t hold for long but the way his eyes held their tears matched well with the sheer terror in his voice.

❛ if you do that … if you — ❜  his voice dropped to a whisper of what it was,  ❛ please stop. i don’t want to die. ❜  he let out a choked sob. I WILL NOT FALL, but what if he does? I WILL NOT FADE, but what about the rest? so what if this boy soldier saved a few from the many? it would only lead to those left behind suffering more & he wasn’t sure he could live with that.

bb lyric starters

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breaking benjamin lyric starters

breath

❛ I see nothing in your eyes, the more I see the less I like. ❜ ❛ I know nothing of your kind. ❜ ❛ I won’t reveal your evil mind. ❜ ❛ So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what’s left. ❜ ❛ I know I can find the fire in your eyes. ❜ ❛ I’m going all the way, get away, please. ❜ ❛ You take the breath right out of me. ❜ ❛ You left a hole where my heart should be. ❜ ❛ You got to fight just to make it through. ❜ ❛ Cause I will be the death of you. ❜ ❛ This will all be over soon. ❜ ❛ Pour salt into the open wound. ❜ ❛ Is it over yet? Let me in. ❜ ❛ I’m waiting, I’m praying, realize, start hating. ❜

dance with the devil

❛ Here I stand, helpless and left for dead. ❜ ❛ Close your eyes, so many days go by. ❜ ❛ Easy to find what’s wrong. ❜ ❛ Harder to find what’s right. ❜ ❛ I believe in you. ❜ ❛ I can show you that I can see right through all your empty lies. ❜ ❛ I won’t stay long, in this world so wrong. ❜ ❛ Say goodbye, as we dance with the devil tonight. ❜ ❛ Don’t you dare look him in the eye. ❜ ❛ Trembling, crawling across my skin. ❜ ❛ Feeling your cold dead eyes, stealing the life of mine. ❜ ❛ I won’t last long, in this world so wrong. ❜

had enough

❛ Milk it for all it’s worth. ❜ ❛ Make sure you get there first. ❜ ❛ The apple of your eye; the rotten core inside. ❜ ❛ Things couldn’t get much worse. ❜ ❛ I’ve had it up to here, know your end is near. ❜ ❛ You had to have it all, well have you had enough? ❜ ❛ You greedy little bastard, you’ll get what you deserve. ❜ ❛ I will be the one to leave you in your misery and hate what you’ve become. ❜ ❛ You should have learned by now; I’ll burn this whole world down. ❜ ❛ I need some peace of mind. ❜ ❛ You think you’ve won this fight, you’ve only lost your mind. ❜ ❛ Hold me down; I will live again. ❜ ❛ Heaven help you. ❜

i will not bow

❛ Save your breath, it’s far from over. ❜ ❛ Leave the lost and dead behind. ❜ ❛ Now’s the chance to run for cover. ❜ ❛ I don’t want to change the world; I just wanna leave it colder. ❜ ❛ Light the fuse and burn it up. ❜ ❛ Take the path that leads to nowhere. ❜ ❛ All is lost again, but I’m not giving in. ❜ ❛ I will not bow; I will not break. ❜ ❛ I will shut the world away. ❜ ❛ I will not fall; I will not fade. ❜ ❛ I will take your breath away. ❜ ❛ Watch the world through dying eyes. ❜ ❛ Show me where forever dies. ❜ ❛ And I’ll survive, paranoid. ❜ ❛ I have lost the will to change. ❜ ❛ And I am not proud, cold-blooded fake. ❜ ❛ Open your eyes! ❜

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I realized that your sins always come back to bite you, and that I had to bear that cross, and the punishment that came with it. And then… I found myself all alone