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Whoever first thought of drinking something hot rather than cold when it's hot outside was a genius because. Woah.

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migraines pt2

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when we plug our computer in again, might make this blog more tidy... my hands are itching to get busy

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i'm so fr when i say this but. ppl who are pale af scare me cuz like AUGH ARE YOU OKAY??? WHY DO YOU LOOK LIKE THAT

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what 200cc mk8dx does to an mf

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people (cough cough PC GAMERS) who act like certain ways of playing a game are the only proper way to play piss me off. was talking with someone about a game and they said they wanna do a "challenge run" by playing with controller.

and not something bizarre or unconventional like a wii steering wheel or a playstation move. nope, they were gonna use a normal ass xbox controller.

that's not a fucking "challenge run", that's just playing the game in a [conventional] way different from what you're used to. there's several people who play on xbox or play on pc with xbox controllers. i play on pc with a ps4 controller.

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new dst update and new wes skin, time to ruin this man

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bro i fucking hate being asked why i like [doing] something. like maybe i just fucking enjoy it it's not that fucking serious.

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there's this baller ass filipino place about two hours away by bus and i wanna go soooooo bad cuz we haven't eaten there in so long but i have no moneyyyyyyyyyyy 😩

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"heyyy jsyk we're all worried about you ❤️ hope you're doing okay, and you can tell us if you need anything!!" okay then why aren't you begging and sobbing for me to come back like a real friend would

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i have two sides

im better than all of you and idc about being a dick to you because you're an insect to me and im better than you in ways you cannot comprehend i am Your God. fucking bow down. obey me and don't you dare fucking talk back. know who the fuck i am.

and

oh fuck fuck fuck im a piece of shit I hate myself im sorry im sorry i don't want to be mean to you im sorry im sorry i deserve to be punished punish me hurt me i deserve it all im a monster please i wanna be better i wanna be good

so sick of myself

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Being on the internet with OCD is like “I want to post a picture of my outfit because I look bomb but what if my full address and National Insurance number is written in the reflection of this random public bathroom mirror and I didn’t notice”

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hrmghm migrainens.......

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one must imagine the non-white picrew user happy

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ouagh augh ousgh oaihh ouagh oouh aguah

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DID rant

I don’t think people look into the other aspects of dissociation enough and just focus a lot on switching and alters. I don’t think enough people realize that dissociation and memory gaps can happen with the same person front the whole time. People don’t think enough about how intensely dissociated you can get and never switch.

I have a near constant headache, I can nearly never trust my memory, and I HAVE to rely on others I know to inform me of events and things even with how much I try to stay on top of them. I cannot remember birthdays, faces, or names. People get offended I don’t know their birthday but I do remember that you like this one band. I don’t control what I do and don’t remember.

I would never blame my actions on dissociation, I still try and live my life and be kind to everyone but that means that I do forget everyday things sometimes. I’ll forget a task at work I always do or say something and not even hear myself. My voice and hands are often distant and fuzzy even when I’m not switching.

My dissociation is SEVERE and gaps in my memories appear without me knowing. I’ve forgotten whole movies, days, there are months, near years missing from my life, and no one has that info, not another later, not a gatekeeper, it’s just gone.

It's not just about the alters.