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Rachel: hey, are you in a spot to be a shoulder to cry on ?

Quinn: Uh, depends on the reason for the crying

Rachel: I was supposed to say goodbye to Bay this afternoon and he just left me hanging...I don’t know why that makes it your problem I just don’t want to be alone.

Quinn: Fuckin Basil.

Quinn: I'm putting pants on.

Rachel: You’d do that for me?

Quinn: You came to me. You don't wanna be alone. Why wouldn't I do that for you?

Rachel: Putting pants on is hard sometimes

Quinn: Eh, they'll be off again soon enough.

Rachel: I can’t exactly argue with that.

Rachel: I’m not wearing pants.

Quinn: Nice

Rachel: Thank you Quinn

Rachel: I really appreciate you.

Rachel: And I get to see you one last time!

Quinn: Of course

Rachel: See you soon.

Quinn: I'm on my waY

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Rachel: I leave Monday. I hope I’ll get the chance to say a proper goodbye!

Quinn: I can't imagine why you wouldn't

Rachel: When are you free? Or when can I see you? Any evening, besides Sunday

Quinn: Literally always

Rachel: So maybe tonight and tomorrow then? If I’m lucky?

Quinn: Sure

Rachel: You doing okay over there?

Quinn: My family is tearing itself apart at the seams

Quinn: More than usual

Rachel: I was just going to say...

Rachel: How can I help?

Rachel: Wanna talk about it?

Rachel: Want cuddles and comfort?

Rachel: Or should we find a way to be distracted?

Rachel: Combinations are good too.

Quinn: What I want to do about it is one text away and I shouldn't, but it'd be so easy.

Rachel: What is it?

Quinn: Something I shouldn't do.

Rachel: Can you tell me?

Quinn: If you have to ask you probably don't want to know

Rachel: I have my assumptions.

Rachel: Distraction it is then but I’m here for more than that. I’m here for you!

Quinn: It's not hard to guess.

Rachel: Do you have a therapist in the area?

Rachel: I’m calling an Uber now.

Quinn: Technically? Are they any fucking help currently? No.

Quinn: M'kay

Rachel: What is it that you’re feeling that you want to numb?

Quinn: My younger sister is a bitch who refuses to deal with her trauma much less admit it exists. One of my best friends is dealing with her brother who has had a flare up of trauma that is possibly the same fucking trauma as said bitchy little sister. Said best friend is also worried about my older sister because they're A THING and cos Fran is having to worry about living with toxic younger sister and you know it's fucking bad when Arin gives up on somebody. Which makes all of that so much worse, cos Arin doesn't give up on anybody worth shit. Well, Fran is finally at a point where she's MAYBE coming back into herself, which like... about time, she deserves it, and best friend and Arin are both worried little miss bitch is going to fuck that up. And then I'm having to relive my trauma to a fucking stranger to try and maybe get help for it.

Quinn: So, everything.

Rachel: That’s a lot.

Rachel: Is everyone actively seeing a therapist- outside of the younger sister?

Rachel: Setbacks can be worked through, you just need extra supports in place.

Rachel: I can see why you’d want to get away from that for a while.

Quinn: Uh... I don't know. Think so? Except for Arin. Idk, can't speak for the brother but he's engaged to one if that means anything.

Quinn: It's bad when Frannie is hiding.

Rachel: I just think that extra supports is always wise and a therapist is a good place to start.

Rachel: Hiding?

Rachel: Yeah, not a good sign. I’m sorry you have to worry. It’s a tough feeling to handle on top of everything else.

Quinn I guess.

Quinn: Mmhmm, Arin mentioned something about her and Liv having holed up in her room. So, at least she's not alone but... not much better.

Quinn: Just fucking sucks. Picked the worst fucking time to get clean apparently.

Rachel: It’s never the worst time or the best time. It’s just kind of what you need to continue working towards if it’s really what you want.

Quinn: Do I tho?

Rachel: That’s up to you Quinn.

Rachel: Ultimately

Rachel: I don’t think you want to hurt anyone but you also don’t want to feel hurt.

Rachel: Can I just hold you tonight?

Quinn: I'm tired of hurting all the fucking time.

Quinn: Sure

Rachel: I’m sure it’s exhausting. I can’t imagine.

Rachel: Do you want to be held? I just want to be with you.

Rachel: I don’t want you to be alone

Quinn: It's easier to be numb, to be high, to just drift

Quinn: I mean, I'm not against it? If it's what you want, then sure.

Rachel: I get it. In my own way.

Rachel: It doesn’t fix anything. I’m not sure anything in life can actually be fixed fully but that’s besides the point.

Rachel: I just want you. I don’t want to do the wrong thing.

Rachel: I don’t want to be bad for you.

Quinn: Right now it's either you or drugs, and not of the 'mostly harmless' variety. I think we're both very much aware which is bad for me.

Rachel: I’m pulling up now, Quinn.

Quinn: Then I will meet you at the gate

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Quinn: Then I can definitely do so.

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Quinn: I think I can do that.

Rachel: I'd really like it if you did.

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Quinn: Having something to do is typically preferable, yes.

Rachel: Come over?

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Quinn: I guess?

Rachel: Do you want something to do?

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Quinn: It is, though I'm not sure how that's particularly relevant.

Rachel: It could give you something to do!

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Quinn: That's very true.

Quinn: I can, yeah. Not like I have better things to do.

Rachel: It is getting warming outside?

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Quinn: Sorry to hear that.

Rachel: It could be worse.

Rachel: Do you think you'd come see me perform before I leave?

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Quinn: So I saw. Enjoying yourself, then?

Rachel: Always.

Rachel: Just a little lonely as usual.

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Quinn: It's a good time.

Rachel: I'm glad!

Rachel: I have my wine.

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Quinn: Mmhmm

Rachel: Fun. You must feel really nice then.

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Quinn: That's alright, not like I've been much better.

Quinn: Good, good. High.

Rachel: Like stoned?

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ladieshadesandathena​:

It certainly wouldn’t be in your best interest to do so.

I can try, by all means.

That would be appreciated. I’m free all evenings, unless I’m not I suppose.

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Quinn: Hallo

Rachel: I've been meaning to reach out sooner.

Rachel: How are you doing?

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ladieshadesandathena​:

We all know that would be a terrible idea and I doubt any of us would want you doing such.

It’s like no one believes it could actually happen. Very interesting!

Regardless, I leave in two weeks so I’d like to see you at least once more before I go.

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