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All our lives, we tell ourselves: Love must look a certain way.

The weight of expectation makes love the most uncertain thing in the world.

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unsaid rule

Seemingly perfect=breaking within

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Pink

He threw her out at 22 05

She remembered how dark it was

Darker was his face when he got to know

That the child was another girl

Labor hadn't given her

The pain she thought she'd feel

The child had probably understood

That she wasn't wanted

And tried her best not to hurt her more

At 23 35, she stood shivering outside her parents' door

The baby girl wrapped in pink

The only color meant for her

She went in, dropped on the couch

Weary, sick, and mostly done

The baby, her mother exclaimed

She's so quiet, it scares me

It's as if she's communicating with a higher entity

Silent, still, unmoving

The baby girl had learnt her first lesson

The teacher had been cruel, so had fate

But the lesson wasn't,

She let it sink: thanklessness is unforgivable

Especially for a little angel clad in pink

-Soph

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Isn't the most underrated love language making someone laugh when they are taking life too seriously?

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I swear my own heart hurts me more than people.

What's the point of it all? Their's was better, stop trying, you're all talk no show, they never liked you, it's all your fault, everything, everything, everything, everything.

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Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَتَعَالَى) doesn’t promise us that this life will be safe or sweet, but He promises that He will be near, closer than our own jugular vein. And sometimes, the way Allah shows His mercy isn't by changing the outside, but by building an ocean of patience and light inside you, so the storms can rage outside, but they can't destroy you.

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Which of the people am I when I'm on my own?

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I am learning to heal. I will now take chances, risks, and everything in between. To heal means to let go, but also to seize.

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You talk to me like I'm the problem

And you're nothing but sugar and ice

But how do I explain that I can't catch everything thrown at me

I'm already holding crap from years ago that seems like it won't disintegrate for another eternity

Just sometimes, I give into what others have to say

But then the person I was knocks at my door, and gives me a disapproving stare

I stare back and tell them it's not worth fighting anymore

No one believes me, no one will know, it's already worse than before

The person stares on, smaller than me but the eyes are bigger and aflame

They grab me by the neck and whisper in pain,

"If we were the problem, why was everyone else so afraid?"

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What I tell myself is what I become.

That is what I start to believe, and that is what I begin to act on; nothing is more fatal than the stories and lies that I occasionally inoculate myself with.