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WEEK 10
This is the final week.
ANJA: summary and analysis This is the final week of the project, only lasting five days. The books are full now and it feels very strange. In contrast to last week, this weeks artworks are more intuitive and colorful. I think I feel more free to use color when there aren't any pre decided themes. I have just been creating what feels good in the moment. The 6th is interesting, because I'm processing something that happened last week, that I didn't really get to explore in the book because of the shadow work prompts. I noticed upon reflecting that I'm taking longer to process things if I don't get to draw it when it happens. This also highlights the benefit of art journaling. I had supervision with our professor on the 7th and was thinking a lot about the project as a whole. The artwork feels like a throwback visually to several earlier entries, with the map, the receipt, the torn book pages, and the cut up photographs. This one feels more light hearted and silly than some of the similar ones. The last day - 9th of May. I struggled with what to make, and was just sitting there and looking at the page for a while before I started. The feeling was warm and I felt the need to thank the project, and Kila. It hit me pretty hard that it's over, and it feels sad. I'm surprised that we managed to stay consistent and that it didn't feel like too much or make us resentful of the demand we had made from ourselves. It feels like we accomplished something with this project, and I'm proud.
Kila's thoughts I was curious to see Anja’s week as it has been everyday for ten weeks that we have been drawing within this project together. Looking at the week as a whole I can see that Anja used a lot of colour this week which was almost the opposite to me and the use of varying mediums felt playful and fun. I was interested by Anja’s first day as it seems to be pulsing, we spoke about this and how it could be interpreted in many ways, but we agreed on this pulsing energy it omits. I found it particularly interesting to hear about Anja’s entry on the 6th, it mirrored in some ways my own feelings of what comes next after the shadow work, but in Anja’s case she had felt that there was more to explore that she hadn’t the time for in the previous week. I really enjoyed hearing about the creation of the entries for 7th and 8th, both of which really tied together the process as a whole with the reuse of previous materials and even by products of the art making, these days felt special to me. Looking at the last page I had wondered if Anja, similarly to me, had to ponder what could be worth the pride of place, the last entry of the entire project before filling that page, or if it was obvious to her. It was through talking that I heard that she too had struggled briefly with this decision although it was nice to see that her standout feelings for the process were feelings of gratitude.
KILA: summary and analysis This week was filled with mixed emotions for me - it felt momentous that we had finally reached the end of the art making process 10 weeks in total. I felt proud that we had made it the whole way through together and that we had succeeded in art making every day without break, however it was also sad that we now had reached the end. It was interesting reflecting how at the beginning of the process myself and Anja were concerned that we might not be so enthusiastic towards the end of the art making and that we might be almost wishing it over however, it was in fact the opposite and we spoke about how we both have a desire to keep it going in some form or other and it feels like a gap in the day now not sitting down for the daily dose of art journaling. As we had done shadow work the week previous I felt almost lost for ideas at the beginning of this week, I felt that nothing in particular had happened that day and yet it felt very surface level to not delve deep into myself and so I drew simply what came to mind, however I didn’t feel negatively about the entry after completing it. Interestingly I use a lot of black and white, a lot of monochromatic pages this week and some quite simple, however they're all quite positive I would say even if you can't tell when looking at some. I felt badly that on the 8th I had no time that day and drew simply a quick fine line pen drawing. It felt bad to not put much effort into the second last day however I simply had no time or energy to do anymore. Despite this it was still a positive day for me. It was interesting sitting down to the very last page, I thought to myself I don't know what I could possibly put. I felt a sense of accomplishment and achievement and I was thinking back through all that we've done last 10 weeks and these were the feelings that I put down on the page, I had summited the mountain and was looking back over my accomplishments.
Anja's thoughts The first thing that strikes me in Kila's works this week is repetition. The artworks are mostly black and white, monochrome, and with a repetition that creates rhythm and movement: the small lines on the 5th, the dots on the 6th, the anime radishes on the 7th, and the dandelion and sparkles on the 8th. Like mine, they might have less deep meaning this week and be more meditative and in the moment. She talked about feeling a bit empty after the shadow work, not knowing what to make this week. The benefit of the prompts seems to be that it helps you get into the artwork without having to wonder (that much) about what do make, but this can also feel restrictive over time. Maybe having one prompt a week and being able to choose when and how much you explore it is a good balance. The second is how much of a contrast her last page is compared to the rest. The 9th stands out, and is a worthy end to the project. I think it might be one of, if not the most, colorful artwork Kila has made in her books. It feels like there's a lot of symbolism and meaning there. The mountains have been climbed, there's a sense of accomplishment. The journey through our minds that this project is, might be the surrealism in this piece. This entry might compare to my May 7th, because she talked about looking back at the project and reflecting on the journey. Overall it seems like we both were thinking a lot about this being the last week and starting to really reflect on what we have learned - both about ourselves and the therapeutic possibilities.
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WEEK 9
This week we decided to explore shadow work, with one prompt every day:
How do you believe people see you? How would they describe you to someone else? How does that make you feel?
What are the worst traits someone can have, according to you? When did you demonstrate these traits?
What traits have you inherited?
Write a letter to the person who’s hurt you the most in your life, and tell them everything you’d like to say.
What frightens you the most? What are some ways you could safely expose yourself to this fear?
What emotions typically bring out the worst in you, and why do you think this happens?
Describe a trait you see in other people that you wish you had yourself. Why do you not have this trait?
ANJA: summary and analysis I decided to start by writing before creating the artworks this week. It made the art more thought through and with deeper meaning. The artworks functioned as a way of processing the writings. It seems like I got a lot out in the first three days, because those writings were longer. Still, the works are consistently detailed, with an exception of the 1st of May, which is deliberately minimalist. The result however is quite striking. Black fine liner dominated this week, and it might be because of the more serious themes. I think I feel more silly and childlike when I use lots of color. I felt a bit activated when writing earlier in the week. The 29th shows a creature that represents the bottom sludge of bad traits in me, and interestingly, I feel a lot of care for myself when I read through what I wrote. Several of the prompts made me aware that I've already done a lot of work and have accepted many of my shortcomings. I have blind spots, of course, but the take away is positive. I feel like I got to know myself better, even though I've already processed a lot in therapy. I think we've probably waited with the shadow work until we knew each other better, and were familiar with the medium. This tells me that you can't just jump into shadow work with clients, especially if the sharing and talking is important in the process - which we have discovered that it is. It was also pretty intense doing a different prompt every day, kind of fast tracking shadow work, so it might be more realistic to focus on one prompt each week, when doing this as an intervention.
Kila's thoughts Looking at Anja’s week, on the first day I wondered if she had done something similar to me by exploring both how people who know her and those who don’t perceive her. Upon speaking we discovered that was true and it was interesting to see how we both decided to explore that. On April 29th, I was struck by the intensity of the creature, the way it stared at me made me feel as though Anja must’ve been staring deeply into herself when she created it. We noted that this was the only day that Anja used colour throughout the whole week, a bright green, this was of particular interest as I too used a bright eye catching green on this day. May 1st stood out to me as emotionally grounded. It feels like she has come to terms with a relationship ending, it didn’t feel to be written in a bout of anger, but rather with a sense of acceptance. After talking with Anja, it turned out this interpretation was correct and was interesting to hear that similarly to me, Anja had written a full letter that was not shown in the entry itself. The drawing on May 2nd is beautiful and eye catching, I could tell that there was love in this piece and it was an interesting juxtaposition that the theme that day was fear, it was enlightening to hear the fears and feelings that prompted the optimistic artwork. Throughout the week, there’s a noticeable lack of colour in Anja’s pieces, except for the vivid green on the 29th, which really stands out. Looking at her work overall, I got the sense that Anja spent a lot of time thinking through her ideas and emotions, something that was confirmed when we spoke. We discussed how it was interesting that the entries this week felt a lot more deliberate than previous weeks due to the guided topics and themes. We also discussed how it was important for us that this week came this far into the art journaling process as we felt comfortable enough with each other to really open up and discuss things that previously in the process we may not have been comfortable doing. I was glad to have the opportunity to share the experience with Anja.
KILA: summary and analysis On April 28th, I divided my artwork into two sides: one showing how I think people close to me perceive me. The contrast helped me visualise the difference between different perceptions and how it shouldn’t be important how people who don’t know me perceive me. On April 29th I decided to focus on three traits, I used direct imagery such as a green hand for jealousy whereas the representation of passive aggressiveness using masked figures was perhaps less clear to viewers. While this was an inherently negative topic, I enjoyed the creation, and I was quite tactile within this entry. April 30th, I created a visual of my mother passing down anxiety and self-doubt to me, but she is also providing warmth and care, through soft, earthy tones and the hands themselves feel safe and protecting despite the broken shells inside. On May 1st I painted over most of the words, leaving only keywords visible, I think that the use of thick dark paint symbolises suppression for me in this context. Writing the letter was surprisingly easy and I found it cathartic. On May 2nd, while exploring my fears and how they fears inhibit me in my life, I concluded that healing them starts with acceptance and trusted support. On May 3rd, I looked at the emotions that bring out the worst in me, and I acknowledged how it can make me act out of character and in ways I regret, this is something that I try to avoid and it’s a part of me that I dislike however it is still something that I can continue working on. Lastly on May 4th, I reflected on traits I admire in others, that I wish I have myself and explored why I don’t have these traits. When I was working on this entry, I found it was greatly linked to the letter I wrote previously this week, something I found interesting as I hadn’t considered that link before. When looking at the week as a whole I was surprised by how much colour I used and by the dynamic use of mediums. There was a lot of interconnectedness between the days. I found the week to be revealing and deeply interesting. I learned about myself and found the week catharthic. From a therapeutic relevancy standpoint myself and Anja agreed that it is definitely a useful tool in getting a patient to explore and discover their inner self however it would be impractical to do as we did and have a new shadow work topic everyday for a whole week. It could be beneficial to break the topics into each session over many weeks or months. It would also be challenging to expect this to work without obstacle within a group setting as life events could easily get in the way of delving in to one’s inner psyche, a task which needs dedicated uninterrupted time.
Anja's thoughts This is definitely one of the most visually interesting weeks Kila's had. I see a lot of details, colors, and apparent hidden meanings. She's taken up a lot of space. I really looked forward to hearing about the artworks, because I could see that there was thought put into them. I knew the prompts, and some of them still surprised me. Both her artworks from the 28th and the 29th had similarities to mine on the same days. We had the same thought on the 28th, that how people view us really depend on who they are, and this clearly shows up in our artworks. The 29th was the only day that I used a color, and incidentally Kila also used green that day. Her artwork on the 1st of May intrigued me. The black out poem made from the letter gave me a small and authentic glimpse into her life. I also learned that the bird from the 4th was building on this letter, and it made me hope that she could see how much space she can take up with her thoughts and creativity. I feel like I got to know Kila better and I appreciate the trust.
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WEEK 8
ANJA: summary and analysis First off, this week was very busy and therefore stressful. This is highlighted by quick artworks made late at night, a general lack of color, and surface level motifs. I don't have as much to say because of this, and I think the process has probably been a bit less therapeutic this week - but having kept up with the project is still an achievement, and may contribute to wellbeing amides stress and never ending to do-lists. Two of the artworks were very colorful, in contrast to the rest. The 21st shows my Care Bear pajamas that I bought for myself in 2022, when I realized that I haven't had any since I was a young child. Raising my inner child has been at the forefront since around that time, and I was thinking about that when I painted it. On the 23rd, I did a quick Guided Drawing/self massage inspired artwork. Picked out some crayons and drew some of the different shapes with my eyes closed. The goal was to make comforting movements and be present in my body and the moment for a few minutes, after a hectic day. Self care is evident in both of these. The same can also be said for the 25th; the drawing is how my head felt at the time. I already made two other artworks for gifts that day and didn't have the capacity to make something detailed for PiP. This was me allowing myself to do the bare minimum, because I had done probably too much already.
Kila's thoughts At the start of the week, it seems that Anja had the most time to dedicate to her journal entries. We had spoken earlier about both having a busy week, so it’s interesting to see that, like me, she often made quicker entries throughout the week. The entry on the 22nd is simple, with a lot of empty space left on the page, giving it a minimalist feel. It wasn’t until after speaking with Anja that I could understand the meaning behind the piece however. The 23rd stands out as very expressive and full of lively colours, suggesting a burst of energy or emotion I was curious about this page as it is much more abstract than the other days. I found out after speaking that this page was completed with her eyes closed. The week features a few self-portraits including the 25th, this one uses a very expressive art style that feels intuitive and energetic. On the last day, Anja's journal shows a drawing related to going to the cinema. This entry feels quick but fun and whimsical, I could tell that she had a positive day. Overall, despite a busy schedule, Anja’s journal captures a lot of spontaneity, personal reflection, and emotional expressiveness throughout the week.
KILA: summary and analysis It’s clear that I didn’t have much time to dedicate to the art-making process this week as my parents came to visit. Similar to Anja’s experience, I had the most time available on the first day, with less time to create as the week went on. Throughout the week, I incorporated a lot of collage elements, photographs, and also included pieces from previous artworks, something which I have seen in Anjas’s work previously but had never done myself. Compared to last week, there was a noticeable increase in the use of colour in some entries. Although the week felt very positive overall, I was definitely low on time. I think anyone viewing the entries could sense a feeling of contentment and cosy, relaxed vibes in the work, even though I didn’t have much time to reflect or dive deeper into my thoughts. Most of the images this week were created very intuitively and on the fly, with less deliberate planning than usual.
Anja's thoughts This week has a lot of variation in art materials. It overall feels very positive at first glance, although busy, and this was confirmed when we talked about it. I found that I was wondering a lot about what the different artworks meant, and if there was any hidden meaning, and it seem like I might have put too much of my interpretations into it. A majority of the artworks were lighthearted, quick and without deep hidden meaning. This shows me (again) that a lot of the interpretations we have of other peoples art are just that - interpretations. It's subjective, and in this contexts its important to listen before you assume. We both had a childlike and colorful artwork, her on the 23rd and me on the 21st. Even a busy week has room for a break. The 25th has a picture of Kila and her partner hanging out with her parents visiting from Ireland, and was describes as terrible. I think it's quite wonderful that a terrible photo found a place to live. This might be a metaphor for this whole project, in that these books are a place for all our small and big thoughts to live, however ugly, terrible or mundane. A theme in both our weeks might be consistency, and a feeling of achievement.
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WEEK 7
ANJA: summary and analysis This week, I see a lot of color in my artworks. Most of them are detailed, and shows that I've had time for them. The materials and mediums are varied, with two collages, two watercolor paintings, and three pen/marker/pencil drawings. Three of the entries are quite straight forward in showing what I did that day, and four are a bit more abstract. A theme this week has been to look forward. The 14th show stripes of cutouts, and it feels like looking out through blinds at a forest with sunlight streaming down through the leaves. Standing behind the blinds might be interpreted as having some obstacles to get past, but that I can see where I'm going. On the 17th I deep cleaned my whole apartment and was having fun with planning some changes that I'm gonna do to the interior, to make room for my partner. I had my best friend + his weird little dog over for dinner on the 19th. We had a very interesting and deep conversation about relationships, the future and what we hope for. I was still thinking of this when I made the artwork on the 20th. I wanted to do a collage, and am trying to get rid of those old photos, so I destroyed a bunch of them for this. During the conversation the day before we talked about having a weakness for a certain type of person. We accept too much, and they know that. How do we protect ourselves from them, when we can't see them? Being open with each other and asking for help might be a way. Looking into the future isn't so scary today. I've felt very much like an individual this week, despite (and maybe because of) being more social than I usually am.
Kila's thoughts I was struck from Anjas first entry of the week by the bright vivid colours, the image is striking with the contrast of colour and empty space. I was curious by the 15th, I found the image whimsical and fun. I found it comforting with the knowledge that there is more that exists off the page even if I can’t see it. I was immediately curious as to what the inspiration was for this piece. It was only after speaking with Anja that I found out she had used finger painting here which added to the feeling of life in the entry. I have my own biases which can come in while viewing Anja’s works and this was present on the 18th where I saw a Sims character version of Anja, I couldn’t help but recall my own experiences of playing Sims and found myself feeling nostalgic. I enjoyed looking at Anjas entry on the 19th, the image of a smiling dog just brightened up my day, and I felt joy radiating from the dogs’ eyes, it was nice to see the reference picture when I spoke with Anja and to see that the dog emits this much joy in photos too. I was particularly drawn to the last entry from Anja’s week. This use of photos is intriguing, I found myself wondering what this entry represents, was there a particular thought process Anja followed or was it intuitive? Speaking with Anja I came to understand it a bit more although I think its impossible for anyone other than Anja to fully understand.
KILA: summary and analysis I felt content overall this week, nothing particularly noteworthy happened but I felt that’s good in a way, I don’t need excitement all the time. I think perhaps this is reflected by my palette which was made up of very muted colours this week, I also used only traditional mediums, no collage/photos etc. I found it a bit hard to motivate myself to create the entries some of the days however and some of them were left until quite late in the evening (night). I did end up enjoying the artmaking once starting each day although it was frustrating that the paint I used on the 19th leaked through onto multiple previous days. On the 14th I was drained after getting no sleep and having to work early. I found it especially frustrating as I had spoken with Anja the day before about my plans to sleep early. I think this day it was very clear that my entry wasn’t positive, Anja could feel my emotions on this day. Some of my entries this week were quite simple in their meanings, for example the 17th was simply a nice point of note that evening. We went to our local which was nice in itself, I had already prepped a nice dinner which I looked forward to and we chatted nonsense. I simply had fun with Ronan. Similarly, on the 19th I felt content, happy and present but also, I did nothing of note with the day. This day was intriguing to Anja before we spoke as it stood out from the others with the use of colour and empty space. We spoke about how it was interesting to compare our different use of colours this week and how this could be interpreted differently by those who aren’t experiencing the week firsthand. Once again this highlighted the importance of asking someone about their own meanings and not assuming.
Anja's thoughts She has taken care to cover the pages, except for the artwork from the 19th. She has used very little color. Mostly black, with hints of brown on some. The exception is, again, the 19th with purple. I found it hard to interpret several of the artworks this week, and had a feeling that it was filled with less joy? I was also wondering what the purple circle represents in that case? When talking with Kila, it turns out that this week was just very mundane and a lot of nothing, but that this is a good thing. It's not a lack of joy, but more a lack of stress and demands. I also learned that the purple circle on the 19th is a self portrait, which contrasts a lot to the self portrait from the 14th - which was the only bad day. Almost all her days were good and cozy, with an overarching feeling of contentedness. The color choices contrasts a lot with my week as well; I used a lot of color, but weren't especially content and calm. This again shows the importance of listening before judging from your own biases.
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WEEK 6
KILA: summary and analysis This week I spent a bit more time on my entries than the previous week. Looking at the week as a whole I can see that the beginning of the week I made use of sticking external items such as collage material and crepe paper in, whereas the second half of the week I used more traditional mediums such as paint and pen. I enjoyed the artmaking this week especially as I had more time and energy to set aside. I didn’t make use of many colours this week, mainly greys with some green dotted in. The only day that has vivid use of colour is the 9th where red jumps out of the page. A couple of the days I feel are particularly clear to the viewer what my feelings whereas other days are more abstract in their meaning. The 9th I felt clearly speaks of pain, however Anja had felt anger through my entry. The only day that I didn’t have something in particular in mind was the 13th where I just did the drawing for fun, myself and Anja spoke about how we both experienced such days this week. I had a pretty good week overall and I find it interesting as there are days where my entries are focused on certain less enjoyable topics however these topics weren’t the full focus of the days for me, and I found my mood was quite good.
Anja's thoughts I notice that most of the artworks fill up the whole page, and that she has played around more with collaging. Most of the pages are pretty muted in color, with an exception of the 9th. I interpreted the artwork as angry - but that might just be my bias as an angry person, because Kila talked more about a feeling of worry about physical pain. The two artworks dealing with more difficult feelings, the 9th and 11th, doesn't define the whole week - or even the day they were made. Kila shared that the 10th is about having too many choices and looking for direction, and I was thinking that this could pretty easily have been a much more negative artwork, but there's a big sun and a calmness over the whole thing. This shows resilience and a positive mindset, in my opinion. Overall, this seems like a good week, and this war confirmed by Kila.
ANJA: summary and analysis I realize that Monday the 7th can be interpreted as me drowning and being overwhelmed, but it's actually about me feeling like I finally have my head above water again. Life is calming down now that I'm done with practice and Easter is nearing. Again, the dialogue after creating is important to interpret the artwork correctly. However, it might also be fruitful to get a different perspective on the artwork, because there might be something there that I'm not seeing. Maybe I feel like I'm drowning a little bit in my emotions surrounding an ongoing private struggle? The 7th and 10th are the only artworks this week that have been somewhat planned in my head before I started, the rest are spontaneous. The spontaneous ones aren't necessarily more interesting, but they might more often lead to profound reflections. Still, even if the 10th was planned, it was only the visual, so the meaning didn't come until after. I've been sad from Thursday the 10th and until now, Sunday the 13th. I think the 10th reflects how I don't want to let myself feel the sadness yet, so I'm keeping it in. This of course doesn't really work, especially not in the long run. The 12th is on the surface a simple drawing about pizza and beer on a Saturday, but as I was making it and began adding shadows, more layers started appearing. While working on it, I was reflecting on the shadow side of relationships, and how difficult it is to figure out the right way to approach difficult topics. The artwork on the 13th is kind of hopeful, even if the day is marred by sadness. I'm dealing with feelings of missing someone and uncertainty, but also deep love and thankfulness. Those last ones are important to remember. For some reason, reading Kila's thoughts before publishing touched me. I feel very seen. Our dialogue and relationship has become a valuable part of this project for me, and elevates the therapeutic aspect of art journaling.
Kila's thoughts Looking at Anja’s week I saw some similar themes as in previous weeks, self-portraits are present again on the 7th and 8th. The entry on 7th was of note as before talking with Anja, I perceived it as Anja feeling overwhelmed however, through speaking I learned that it was in fact the opposite and represented finally getting time to catch a breath. I found it interesting that both of us had entries that were monochromatic and also had one day where we used a bright and eye catching red and the focal point. The 10th which was the day where Anja used red intrigued me, I wondered upon seeing it if it represents pain of some sort, it seemed bright, vivid and powerful. I understand now that it represents emotional more than physical pain. Before speaking with Anja about her week I could see that there were a few days where she didn’t have the desire/ability to delve into deeper themes, for example 9th is a visually simple entry which has no hidden meaning behind it, although I immediately got a sense of carefree joy from the image. It was apparent that on the 11th Anja had nothing she felt the need to draw or create however she still created an entry and showed acceptance for the fact that some days we have less energy or creative drive and that’s okay. I was surprised by the meaning behind the 12th. I had initially thought that Anja simply drew her evening, and I didn’t see that there was great deep meaning attached to the image, interestingly this piece was very intuitive for Anja, and she went into it with no plan, just letting herself create with meaning developing organically. Just something of note, I found it interesting also that I began my week with sticking pages from an old book and Anja finished her week with this medium, it feels as though we came full circle together throughout the week.
Joint observations We found it noteworthy that both of us had a day this week where we took time, staring at a blank page waiting for inspiration or anything 'worth' putting on the page. Neither of us let this block prevent us from creating an entry for the day however, accepting that some days we just have to allow ourselves to not delve deeper.
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