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Day 4

Ok I already skipped a day. Whoops

I'm sore today, like holy shit I hurt. I haven't done anything that would warrant being this sore, so I'm wondering if it's the T? It's mainly my lower back and hips, and I never get pain or soreness in my hips. But I don't know, I'm hoping the pain will ease by tomorrow.

Still no changes (I think?), I'm getting so impatient. I did have the motivation to cut my hair today though, and that really helped my mood.

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Day 2

I slept in today. A lot. That's not uncommon for me, but I was kinda hoping yesterday would be the start of something new.

Speaking of, last night kinda sucked lol. My shower was cut short, cause the landlord decided that he should have some people look at our air ducts *right now*

But it wasn't horrible, at least they agreed the vents and aircon unit needed to be replaced years ago. The landlord probably won't do anything about it, but it feels nice that a professional agrees with me.

I haven't done much today, but I did pirate several games for my quest 2, so the next few days should be fun.

I'm getting so impatient, I want to start seeing changes already.

I've been thinking about who I have left to come out to. I'm trying to figure out the best way to come out, as some of them are. Very religious. I want to do so before too many changes happen, because I want to be the one to initiate the conversation. I don't want them to ask why things are changing.

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Day 1

Started T last night, kinda want to have a diary of sorts going. I'm not one for vlogs, so this way I can keep track of my progress

Ok so day one went pretty good. I took my first dose at 6 pm yesterday, and felt a little nauseous for about 10 minutes. No clue if that was from the T, or the nerves, or my usual nausea. But it wasn't bad, I'm not concerned about it.

About an hour after my dose I became really restless. I felt like I had energy and wanted to go for a run. It was a lot different than how I feel on caffeine, I liked it. I'm curious to know if that is something I'll experience every time, or if it was due to nerves.

Today has been pretty good too, I got up at like 9 am and stayed up the whole day. That's really unusual for me, but maybe I can make it a habit.

I've been looking forward to taking my next dose all day. I can't wait to start seeing the changes

On a side note I feel like I'm hungrier? I don't know if it's just coincidence, but between last night and today I've eaten probably double what I normally eat. I'm not complaining, I'm looking forward to being fat and hairy :3

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CAN YOU STOP HAVING RELATIONSHIP ISSUES WHEN IM ON THE PHONE???

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I love having unknown gut illnesses

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A few weeks ago I was at a supermarket with my grandma

She needed several things, most of which are too heavy for her to lift on her own

While walking through the meat isle I saw a group of young men dressed in white polos

With perfectly cut and styled hair

There were four of them

All smiling

Confident in themselves

And I hated them

I live 3 blocks from a private Christian school

I never attended

But I see the white polos and perfectly cut and styled hair

The confidence

These people know who they are

Who they're meant to be

Have faith that their god is all-knowing

And that everything that happens is part of his plan

It took me a while to understand why I hated the group of men I saw

It's because I'm jealous

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Was going to make a hornypost on my alt but I suddenly had sharp chest and shoulder pains and now I'm incredibly nauseous

So I think my body vetoed that

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What does it mean that my chest feels like it's being crushed when I think of you?

What does it mean when I would displace the sun if you asked me to?

What does it mean when I deam of you every night

And wake up feeling

empty

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A hornypost on my alt just exploded in popularity. What the fuck