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fellas is it gay to 

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my mom just tried to blame her cancer on me not praying/not going to church. which. uhhhhh

she’s lucky i’m too devastated/ understanding of her fucked up concepts of religion bc otherwise i’d yell bc wow. you really believe that… pretty crazy pretty wild pretty good way to make me want to die even more boy i hate today lmao

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lmao i thought i was done crying NOPE

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my mom has cancer i cried she cried we all cried and now i'm just. okay let's think positively now... bc i know how bad it is to mope and worry that's like my brand. and i did worry i was like wtf run more tests get a full body scan!!! but now i'm just. you'll be okay.

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i need to stop crying lmao this is stupid as fuck how do you stop crying

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my mom might have cancer and this happened last year too with the tests being repeated and all but this year there were repeated tests and a biopsy and now a phone call to go in and talk instead of just. "no it's all good" so. i wish i knew. i wish it was me instead and my cells and not hers FUCK

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the aids memorial quilt tho :(

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i woke up at 6:15, completely suffering and all an hour later and i love muskoxen. everything happens for a reason

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i'm an idiot bc i Just took my meds like i meant to take them this morning but nope. full moron

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my body is being an asshole today and i need to take my meds bc what if i accidentally maybe didn't take them for like 2 weeks well i took them yesterday but before that. 2 weeks

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i’m so fed up w my hair that i’m just gonna go get a trim tomorrow even tho it’s v possible that i have the terrible conversation of “why do u have bald spots what is this” lmao

like i just tried to trim my own split ends but just so much needs to be cut off lmao so it’s probably best to just. rip off the bandaid and go in and have a terrible time and come out w healthier looking hair

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lmao i was overthinking a text and then just "wait i don't care this much wtf" and hit send

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i have been out of it all morning lmao i don't get it but also i do if i don't get my shit together in the next 10 minutes i'm gonna... idk. suffer later as a consequence why am i like this

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my parents are too straight for me bc they don't care about art or anything fun

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i spent at least an hour blabbering about church history to my mom and then another hour hearing about our dysfunctional family and the current terrible argument that has torn everyone apart. then i yelled about how i hate my uncle and now i'm doing a clay mask 💁🏾

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i just started thinking bout how roads are cool... like how they come into existence GAY for history urbanization civilization everything i didn't study lmao

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i pulled an all nighter last night and then lived this day and now i still can't sleep wtf