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Arcane and chromakopia, I can’t get them out of my head. It’s fucking wild. Well I guess I shouldn’t be surprised about the arcane there are like 20 league characters in my brain. -Noxen

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Hello all, it’s just wonderful to finally be able to freely post how I’m feeling. You all on tumblr are quite an interesting bunch. I don’t mind being here but I cannot quite wrap my head around why you all are so obsessed with sexy men? I personally believe women should be a bigger focus on this website.

-Caitlyn

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Dash con was funny huh. Anyways I wanna be high real bad. I’m so tired of being curbstomped by life and watching the people I care about get even more so. There’s two women I care about, they both had a real shit weekend and I wish I could just take on their problems. Maybe then I’d be worth the love and care I’ve got in my life nowadays. Just whatever I guess, hotshot hope your ankle gets better and to stardust I hope you can emotionally recover.

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Went to a falls nearby so here’s a picture, went with my lovely boyfriend. -Noxen

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I’m stoned out of my mind so here’s a little secret today chat. I think being a waitress if they were treated nicer or paid more would be a decent job. At the very least it would make it enjoyable for me. Just saying, - y

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Had a lancer game today, was fun, played deadlock after. Hoping for that job. -Sera

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Hey here’s so cats I guess, Sarah nearly emotionally destroyed our therapist today. I had to step in to stop anything too bad from happening. Noxen nearly broke down in tears. So all things considered a *great* therapy session. -Jinx

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Interview went well, I don’t remember any of it but I know it went well. One of my partners it works there and heard from some people that I did good. So fingers crossed. Have a frog picture I took of a frog on our second story window. Welp… Noxen signing off for the night.

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This is the interview fit in case any of y’all wanted to see it. Cropping my face for some semblance of anonymity. I had to take out my piercing though because I’m worried they’ll freak out if I don’t. Anything to get me this job at this point. Oh also probably should intro myself hi I’m Noxen I’m the host. Not loving life but hopefully the job helps.

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We have an interview tomorrow, I’m really nervous hopefully it goes well. I know Noxen seemed anxious and so they almost threw up. For the record having an online record is a threat to our safety but we need more friends so here we are. And have a picture of some dice while we’re at it.

—“y”

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Hello all, Spark said I could post here. I’m Dandelion, hope you all are having an okay time. I like omori and giving my friends really tight hugs. Also to anyone who sees this I’m part of a D.I.D. System if you wanna be my friend you can send me anything. DMs are open.

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A little more human

I can feel myself getting more human

I’m shedding who I used to be

Blooming I’m becoming

Seemingly brand new

Although I’ve always been here right?

Hidden beneath the paint and scars

I both still am and never was

What I was before

It’s freeing some may say

To know that I’m brand new

I’m no longer the devil I saw in me those years ago

No

I am a little more human

And that feeling is how I grew

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Little kitten

We got a kitten yesterday

He’s soft and kind and pretty playful

So full of trust and love he cannot contain

It reminds me of when I was younger

I think…

It’s hard for me to remember anyway

I know I used to ramble on in a lull

And because of this l can still remain

I think…

I struggle with it a lot of days

My heart seemingly a broken hull

I think…

Thus my mind is set to be gay

I think…

He’s adorable, just to say

Goodness gracious he’s rowdy as a bull

I think…

See, only bull I’ve ever met was clay

My friend with their hands began to roll

I begged them on that day to fix my pain

I think…

I wanted them to be my ray

Of sunshine. Because I couldn’t pull

My head from clouds or out the rain

The hope in the end wetter and stronger

I think…

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From the other side of bed:

I can’t sleep

Neither can you

The bed is up against the wall

The sheets unwashed for months

I want to feel

Your love again

Against your turned back

I’m as ignored as the pillow cases

And so I’ll sit here

On my side of the bed

Begging in my silence

To be seen by you again

Another poem by me. -Spark

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A note from the night of April 18th:

I lost track so long ago.

Despite everything it’s still you.

The line ringing through me.

It hurts.

Bringing down my status quo .

I lost track so long ago.

So many masks, so many faces.

I wanted to fit in so badly.

But how do you hide what eats you from the inside?

How do you change your life?

When you couldn’t take a step before?

I dunno.

I lost track so long ago.

I never had a home.

When safety comes so does fear.

Fear of loss.

Watching for the signs of the world to end.

They always come from behind a new door.

But the content is the same.

Me. You. Us. We. I. A brand new low

I lost track so long ago.

I’m stuck here.

We all are, have been I mean.

I realize now it’s not meant to be.

My life as meaningless as the last.

So perhaps I’ll throw my body to the rocks.

But then again.

Maybe there are still people who care?

No.

I lost track so long ago.

And now we face the final act.

A curtain call, a closing ceremony.

No more tricks to the madness.

Am I leaving or are you going?

The end of the show.

I lost track many years ago.

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