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this heart, it beats

beats for only you

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safe haven

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In the shrine of the Scrap Immortal and Crimson Rain Sought Flower, the Ghost King and the god are worshipped together.

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you know how when two people snuggle in one bed, it can get too hot and uncomfortable, right? now i want you to remember that Hua Cheng's skin is cool to the touch. which means that when Hualian snuggle at night, the temperature is perfect because no matter how warm Xie Lian might be and how warm it is under the blankets, their body temperatures will create the perfect balance when put next to each other. just a thought.

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blooming together!!

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none of you understand the core theme of MDZS, because it tackles a fundamentally unpleasant subject. How debt is coercive, abusive, and corrodes a relationship, even if it might seem like it makes people tied to you. There's a reason that WWX's love confession contains a disclaimer about how his love for LWJ is not because he is indebted to him. There's a reason LWJ does not confess, or push WWX for a relationship. WWX is hypersensitive to the debts he owes, whether to the Jiangs, to the Wens, or even to Jin Ling. LWJ does not want a relationship where WWX feels the need to repay him. Thus, "no sorries, or thank yous between us".

Honestly, the reason a lot of people don't understand this theme is because they are stuck on the idea that WWX owes someone something, anything, they think his sensitivity to debt is something to be encouraged. But, it's not a good thing, and it eats away at him, bit by bit. That's the story of his first life. LWJ is his reward, essentially, and represents freedom from debt, a love that does not contain the subtle and corrosive coercion of debt

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They're conspiring

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i want to wish a happy pride month to all the queer folks in the danmei fandom, and especially to those who were unfortunate enough to be born under homophobic governments. you are not forgotten, you are loved, and your struggles are seen. i promise that it's not your fault, and the world is also not entitled to your youth nor your right to be happy on your own terms. i hope that one day you will be accepted for who you are in your hometowns, or find happiness regardless if it doesn't happen. happy pride ❤️‍🩹

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Xie Lian POV

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This is the first time I've touched my ipad in weeks but trust I'm going to lock in and start some more stuff soon

cheeky close up kissy kissy

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happy valentines day, sonadow nation ^^

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past and future // 去向未言说曾经

ty hualian for curing my artblock 🙏

(no reposts; reblogs appreciated)

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People who think Hua Cheng hates everyone and everything that isn’t Xie Lian truly just misunderstand that the thing he fell in love with first is Xie Lians kindness and how he devotes himself to the common people who are below his station.

Xie Lian cares for the common people that his thing. Hua Cheng doesn’t even try to make that his responsibility because frankly that’s a lot and no matter how good he would be at it he could never be Xie Lian. That’s why he doesn’t try to be nice or patient because he knows it would only be a facade when with Xie Lian it would be genuine and he won’t do Xie Lian the disservice of pretending. And yes as far and he’s conceded his God shouldn’t humble himself like this but does over and over again because he is most importantly a kind person.

Hua Cheng could not love Xie Lian the way he does or worship him as he does if he didn’t give a fuck about people. He may think no one in the world deserves Xie Lians care but that’s because he has seen the truly terrifying self destructive lengths Xie Lian is willing to go to and he doesn’t think anyone is worth Xie Lian suffering like that including himself.

He understands fundamentally that Xie Lians cares so much about everyone and Hua Cheng which is why he literally says "If your dream is to save the common people, then my dream is only you"?

That is not him saying hey I only care about you and fuck everyone else they don’t matter.

This is him saying if you want to make the world better and care for people then you should because you’re the best person at it. No one could do it like you can. But as someone who has received that kindness I will be here to be sure you are adored and appreciated for your good acts like letting that tiny orphan eat from a shrine dedicated to you because ego means nothing to you if children are starving.

He is saying I will be there to pull you together and give you the affection and love and consideration I saw you lose time and time again because people see you as a God and a Prince and a Miracle Worker and I understand that you are just a man trying his hardest to make the world a better place and that is what I adore.

If you are willing to devote yourself to humanity I am willing to devote myself to you meaning that I will be a part of that dream. I will by help ease your burden by helping people at your side.

I created a city that tries to keep dangerous ghostly objects like my lantern fall into children’s hands. This city will become a home for you and a place full of ghosts, regular spirits of the common people just living their afterlives because I understand you would never want to be alone without people to help forever. So I will look after them because you would want them looked after. I will help the farmers in Puqi village and the Gods who I hate because you are doing that so that is what I will do.

The common people will always be cared for in Hua Cheng ideal world because that is a world that Xie Lian wants and he wouldn’t be Xie Lian if he didn’t want that which Hua Cheng understands that his kindness and compassion is why he became so devoted to Xie Lian in the first place.

So no he doesn’t hate everyone and everything, he doesn’t want Xie Lian to be locked in alone with him where no one can bother them forever and ever because he knows Xie Lian would be fucking miserable and feel so guilty for not being there and feeling like it’s his responsibility to be there for people all the time.

He may resent that and grumble because he like Xie Lian is still a regular person with flaws which include wanting to disappear to a quiet place in the world and love his husband forever because he’s been through so much but he is under no illusions of that happening because there are people to care for and he will help his God do that and give him everything including himself to make that happen.

Also we never find out what he’s like without Xie Lian because he is the POV character. Like he clearly doesn’t hate people he just doesn’t think anyone is as wonderful as Xie Lian so why spend time with them when Xie Lian is in the room. He is genuinely mad and bitchy at anyone but Xie Lian talking to him because they are distracting him from Xie Lian or annoying Xie Lian so he has to snap at them because Xie Lian is the only person worth his attention. If Xie Lian wants to talk to people that’s his business Hua Cheng will be right beside him listening and waiting till he’s needed because that’s his purpose but that doesn’t mean he wants everyone to shut up and die that’s just not who he is.

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Rejoice

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Listen, I love the "XL helps HC to see how beautiful he is" scenario as much as the next person... But I also see it like this.

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In honor of my "gege am i ugly" post getting over 10k notes, here's a "san lang am i ugly" version of it. Featuring: how I'm picturing Hua Cheng 90% of the time.

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Modern Wei Ying