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Never gonna take cooking advice from people who hate calories and sugar. How’s my food gonna taste good if i’m learning from someone who apparently hates food?

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The phrase "Don't let your disability stop you" has such this weird undertone of ableism to it as if you can pick and choose what your disability limits you from doing. As if what you're going through is a result of you letting it/allowing it to happen. Which is such an awful, untrue thing to accuse someone of.

Those who are disabled/chronically ill have a much better understanding of their bodies' limitations in comparison to able-bodied individuals because they've literally had to train themselves to recognize patterns, warning signs, flares, all of which can have a severe negative impact if not taken seriously.

We can't simply "manifest with positivity and optimism" to get through the day and push ourselves through something straining when it can result in a massive setback on both a physical and mental level.

If someone who is disabled/chronically ill tells you that they can't do something, they can't. That's the end of it. There's no "oh maybe you could just do it for a little while.." or "just maybe half an hour or a few minutes.." or "just a small outing/visit.." NO. No means NO.

I am not going to do something that I KNOW my body is not capable of handling just to compensate for someone elses feelings. At the end of the day, them giving up and going, "Alright, another time, maybe." will cause them about 20 minutes of disappointment. ME caving in will cause me months of recovery when things inevitably go south because I forced myself to do something that I knew my body couldn't handle.

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I have a bisexual guppy and its funny as hell to watch because it seems like he’s only bi out of desperation. Like all of the female guppies are unimpressed by him, and dont accept his mating displays, and every time he fails, he goes over to a SPECIFIC male guppy (the prettiest male guppy in the tank) like PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE and that male guppy always lets him????

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"I asked ChatGPT--"

Yeah well, I asked the wasps nest in my attic. It sang its answer so beautifully to me, but I am so very afraid of it. Perhaps it will soothe my itching soul...

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"Punishment works!!!" We're drowning in three to four generations of people so pants-shittingly terrified of ever being wrong that half of everyone has constructed a worldview wherein they never even consider the possibility that they could be wrong and the other half behaves like one wrong move will make anything or anyone explode violently into a million irreperable pieces. I don't think it works guys

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like pixane but if they were to break up I think it would be because of their weird relationship with dependency and self sacrifice.

I think one or both would realise that their relationship is very stressful (with pixal feeling like she has to be useful to zane since she was once part of him, and zane feeling like he has to continuously shut himself emotionally in order to be a useful to the team), and explain this to the other and request a period of very little contact/strictly professional relationship as coworkers (as ninja/samurai).

It would be stoney and cold and they would not be able to properly face each other for a good while i think.

Pixxane divorce fans... how do you think the breakup would go

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Its actually the same as the last post!

I'm not even going to try to translate this.

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I went through the liberty of translating using the wiki.

Its all in german and i don’t speak german so i used a lot of googling and google translate to work out what they say. As far as i could tell, there are some additional or missing letters in some words, but the wiki does state that sometimes thats just the case in madoka.

The bottom text is in the archaic font of the runes and probably says:

BEKÄ[m]PFE SCHÄDLICHE INSEKT

Bekämpfen means fight or to fight

Schädlich means harmful

And insekt means insect.

Which when you learn a bit more about this witch, it completely checks out (someone hates insects).

I also translated the yellow tape, its in a modern font and reads:

Kein Durchgang

Which just means “no passage”. So basically its “do not enter” tape.

I keep trying to read whatever that font is in the background and my brain can't focus on the letters long enough to decipher it.

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anybody else have like. public and private pronouns. like yeah strangers can use he or she for me idc but if you're a friend im expecting they/them only. and if you're a close friend you unlock the super secret rights to use it/its (exclusive) (rare drop)

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Anyway if nothing else matters then I hope people remember that Pope Francis used his last public address to call for a ceasefire in Gaza and call Israel a terrorist state:

"I continue to receive very serious and painful news from Gaza. Unarmed civilians are subjected to bombings and shootings. It is terrorism."

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I feel like the big push for AI is starting to flag. Even my relatively tech obsessed dad is kinda over it. What do you even use it for? Because you sure as hell dont want to use it for fact checking.

There's an advertisement featuring a woman surreptitiously asking her phone to provide her with discussion topics for her book club. And like... what. Is this the use case for commercial AI? This the best you could come up with? Lying to your friends about Moby Dick?

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JUSY GOT RAIN WORLD THW WATCHER UNFOLLOW ME NOW THIS IS GONNA BE ALL I TALK ABOUT

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This but instead of dancing, they are experiencing severe emotional distress

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Rachel Corrie, an American citizen, was murdered, repeatedly run over by a bulldozer as she stood in defense of Palestinians.

Her family was threatened and anyone who spoke about her was smeared as an antisemite including Alan Rickman who wrote and directed a play about her.

To this day she is remembered and honoured as a martyr in Palestine.

While, at the time, her death was mocked in Israel by putting her face on pancakes.

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(Bit of a vent, mentions of mental health and parental abuse, as well as spoilers for various stuff)

Not to sound to depressing but to me, there’s something so underratedly comforting about stories where there was no happy ending to be found. Where in order to have a happy ending au, you need to surgically remove an integral piece of the characters.

Stories where the worse thing that could happen, was always going too.

The things I have most recently gotten into are Mouthwashing, Madoka Magica, Bojack horseman (unfinished), and Midsommar.

Which don’t get me wrong, they are all very different medias. But they are all fairytale esque tragedies. Bound by the narrative that the characters themselves believe themselves to be trapped in. Yes there’s a lot of external factors that endanger these characters, but in the end they are doomed by the person they think they’re supposed to be. And not just their character traits, but their whole identity. Who they define themselves as. And if there was any happy ending in sight, they’d have to be a completely different person.

(Incoming ramble about my arbitrary hyperfixations, spoilers abound).

Jimpy Mouthwashing only does what he does because he believes he must be the heroic responsible underdog captain. He thinks he’s entitled to the violence against Anya because of his need of control as a man, and he dooms the the ship due to his need to be seen as the hero.

Madoka (magica) is only targeted because she defines her self worth as being a magical girl, feeling like she has nothing else to offer and she must offer something. She only feels confident in herself when saving someone else, and without that, she turns into a witch. She becomes god because she must be the one that takes away others pain.

Bojack constantly self sabotages others because he believes he has to be the main character of his sitcom. He needs to be liked, his life needs to function the way a tv show would because thats they only way he thinks happiness can be found (granted not finished this show so don’t come at me).

And Midsommar, at least in the beginning, Dani believes she needs to be in a good relationship, she clings onto Christian and forgoes her own self so that she can keep him (look up the video essay “I was wrong about Midsommar” for more context if you’re curious).

Okay enough rambles.

I think the reason I find tragedies like this kinda comforting, is that as someone with depression, abusive parents, disabilities, sometimes in life, the worst thing that could happen, does happen.

And you can’t write yourself a happy end au where those things didn’t.

You have to accept the fact that people who were supposed to love you, were just not going to, may not have been capable of it.

You have to accept that you can’t do all the things you wanted to, its just not the ability you have.

And while we don’t live in fairytales where we are defined by our singular tragedy, periods of our life revolve around the bad moments. And I cannot cut out the trauma and the inability out of who I am, neither can anyone else.

And thats okay. Thats worth something too. The worst thing does happen. Its not just in tragic fairytales.

And I see myself in tragedies. Some people’s gut reaction is to pretend they don’t exist, that life can’t get that bad. But I often feel like this is my daily. And its comforting to remember I exist, I’m allowed to.

Too many people tell me I should just do the things my disability stops me from.

Too many people say I need to go back to uni, get a job, get back to living a normal life as quickly as possible. Run away from the tragedy because its too much to bear. The only ending worth having is the happy ending. That if you can never have the happy ending the think must exist, then you must not exist at all.

Sometimes people blind themselves to tragedy. Say that its not worth living through. But it is. The worst things that could happen to me happen and I’m still someone worth living through. Our worst moments don’t make us worthless. I’m still worth being in people’s lives even if I have baggage. Even if I am a reminder of the worst things that could happen. We don’t stop existing just because its painful to look at. And just because we aren’t normal, or at the usual levels of happy and functional, doesn’t mean we aren’t worth existing.

I can be depressed and traumatised and still capable of love and life and hope and dreams. The tragedy is a beloved part of me too, because all of me is worth something. And there’s no use looking for what could’ve been. The me I am now is enough.

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Just posting some of my clangen ocs bc i’m really proud of their designs!

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