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PLIGHT OF THE BODYSNATCHER: THE (NEW AND IMPROVED) DOUJINFICATION

Fantastic Four #10 (1961): Doctor Doom switches his body for Reed Richard's, with the intent to steal his life.

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thinking about what if situations, dunno why but I have the image in my head of Uncle Ben with Pete in hospital after he over does it doing Spider-man shit, Ben's worried. At the hospital, Ben meets a very uncertain Wade Wilson, suffering in his hospital bed with a cancer diagnosis, thinking about if going into the Weapon X program is genuinely worth it, they start talking. Ben talks about life, about how you shouldn't survive just to be alive, you should survive so you can live. Ben doesn't tell him to join the weapon X but he doesn't tell him not too, they just have a genuine deep talk about both sides until Ben needs to go back to Peter. I can literally hear Wade going, “That was fucking stupid", in his head, all that sentimental spiritual shit.. But.. It genuinely does help him, whether he realises it or not. Dunno, just like the idea of it, maybe years later when Peters talking about Uncle Ben, Wade finally feels brave enough to tell him about the time in hospital where he spoke to him.

hmm. i really think the "survive to live" philosophy isn't exactly a very uncle ben coded message. i think uncle ben doesn't embody that - he's a very selfless guy. he will put the needs of others above his own, always. he's like peter in that way - or, at least, peter wants to be like uncle ben. wants to be selfless, like uncle ben was. and he's actually not very good at it. he has to work at it. and it's difficult.

i think the "survive to live" philosophy aligns more with aunt may. aunt may is more about the self, and personal happiness - even though she's a nurse and she's very nurturing and selfless too. aunt may is kind of a free spirit - in fact, i think aunt may and wade have a very similar approach to life and love, and i had written a WHOLE lot of scripts about that. that aunt may and wade - they're kind of obscenely alike. that aunt may didn't know if she could make compromises and be selfless enough to succeed in love.

there are a lot of parallels between what wade and peter are going through, and how ben and may were, as dumb kids. may was a kind of free-spirit, who didn't actually see herself as settling down with ben parker. but ben was a patient, loving, supportive man, who waited for her.

a parker boy doesn't give up on love. he'll stupidly hang on, forever and ever.

I think there’s an irony to that “survive to live” philosophy being the entire wholeass opposite of what peter takes away from the death of uncle ben.

I can’t really speak to uncle ben’s philosophy - I don’t think “great power great responsibility” in whatever way he said it (or didn’t say it - remember, in the comics it was never actually said by uncle ben) - peter definitely took his own lesson from uncle ben’s death and I don’t think it was meant by uncle ben at all. in fact, i think wade might have even been onto something when he said -

obviously uncle ben wouldn’t say that. but - fact is, great power great responsibility is a self-imposed lesson from peter. and it has very little to do with what uncle ben actually meant when he said it in 9319.

I think uncle ben might’ve meant that peter had a responsibility to the people in his life. and a responsibility to himself. that he couldn’t just - disengage with life and shut himself away from it and avoid things and run away from things. it's actually a lesson that is hammered into peter over and over again, and a mistake he keeps repeating.

he uses his responsibilities as spider-man as an excuse to run away from his responsibilities as peter parker.

i think uncle ben would've been disappointed to see all the mistakes peter made with the people he's loved. all the secrets and lies he's kept - uncle ben was a chronically honest man. but he was a simple guy - he didn't have any secrets. may - may's more understanding about it. she knows sometimes secrets are necessary, at a time.

i think it's awesome and sexy that, finally - all the elements are coalescing so that peter will finally learn the lesson that uncle ben actually intended for him to learn.

sorry, i went off on a tangent again. but man, i should finish those wade/may posts. may is so, so good for wade. she'll heal him. i think all wade needed was the love of a mother.

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so many people can tell laura "i fucked your dad" that she doesn't even has a reaction anymore

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Petition to dress Hugh Jackman like this in Deadpool & Wolverine

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How do ya feel about Spider-noir getting a show before Deadpool does?

i say i should FINISH the deadpool show that i've been hacking away at for more than a year and release it before spider-noir, that's what i say.

i kind of am in disbelief we're getting a spider-noir show, but i think it's cool. it's guaranteed to be stylistically very cool and hopefully we'll get a lot of cool action and storylines because spider-noir isn't really just a cash-grab kind of a character. they're probably making it because they think they can actually do something cool with it.

deadpool doesn't have that advantage, i don't think. i think if we did get a deadpool series in the end up it would probably be a messy little cash-grab full of meta-humor and No Plot or Action whatsoever.

i think nobody wants to throw money at a deadpool animated project because a. it would cost a LOT of money to make it good actually and b. it's a risk because - actually, so, so much could go horribly wrong. i could see people absolutely despising a deadpool series if it's not done well. and if it's just mid, well - there's so much animation that's just mid and it gets cancelled after just one season and nobody remembers it. a deadpool animated series HAS to be an absolute sensation that everyone adores or else it shouldn't be made. there would be so much riding on that series. imagine a deadpool series that's just mid. how sad would that be. no. no. better without.

animation is such a gamble. and it's expensive to do well. and if it's done cheaply, nobody really likes it - unless you work within those constraints and find a quirky style that works and is inexpensive. and even then - you'd need the writing to carry what the animation can't. and writing well?? for deadpool?? near impossible. sorry to say, but it's true. deadpool is such a difficult character to get right.

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I very fondly think about that one panel of Wade and Peter singing at the Bahamas, well Wade singing and Peter watching. I don't know how you've did it but you managed to portray such a lovestruck look in Peters expression. The eyes, the smile, everything. You have a way with expressions that can portray so much emotion, so many different emotions in one frame (/pos).

that boy can fit so much love in him...

fun trivia! i always thought of it as wade's jennifer beals moment.

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Sometimes i get reminded of the fact movie Wade couldn't take getting pegged and part of me just gets so dissapointed, Wade would take it like a champ and we all know it.

oh i see so we're electing to ignore the beautiful character progression that happens in between deadpool 1 and deadpool 2

the off-screen character development between deadpool 1 and deadpool 2 where wade goes from rejecting the joys of pegging to letting the joys of pegging into his heart was something i was so obsessed with that it's the entire conceit of a fic i wrote that is so important and dear to me

started from the bottom...

now we're here

it's one of my favourite fics (i know i say that all the time, buuuut...) - it's kind of the most in-depth exploration of wade's weird relationship with masculinity and femininity i've written! i kind of am really obsessed with the thought that - you know, pre-weapon X wade was a lot more about machismo and performative masculinity, from his time in the military etc etc – and post-weapon X, he becomes this complicated creature that, you know – i don't know. because he's not beautiful, he seeks to find ways to feel beautiful. and he learns to stop being ashamed about that. i don't know. i think it's interesting.

and it's stupid. that i read so much into two throwaway lines concerning a strap-on in deadpool 1 and deadpool 2 starring ryan reynolds, and imposed an entire gender journey upon wade wilson based upon 10 seconds of film.

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I got a bunch of spider-man clothes for Christmas, which is awesome. I have a jacket that is the ps4 spider-man suit design and I hear people laugh and comment about it bc I also wear beanies that are also spidey themed. Pj day at school and im wearing a onesie I got as a gift, and nobody is laughing but are complimenting me. It's so weird. Only one dude said something ik is meant to make fun of me. He said he wants to take a picture of me, which means he wants to show it to his friends and laugh. 🙄

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qould... Wouldn't stable Wade Wilson just be.. Like, dead. Cause... Yknow...

well, if we're going for the in-canon explanation of why he's so freaky weird being that his cells are in constant flux then - oh yeah. yep. i think canon is really, really wishy washy about wade's powers and his biology, same as any superhero buuut... there's basis in canon that the only reason wade's alive is because his freaky cancer cells and his freaky healing factor are in a constant stalemate and keep each other in-check. so he's actually alive because all the cells in his body are freaky unstable.

chronically unstable man in every conceivable sense of the word craves stability more than anything. hilarity ensues.

i think wade's such an interesting character in that he's at war with his biology constantly. he can't be stable. it's literally hardwired into his body and brain. to the point where even the terrain of his skin isn't the same from minute to minute.

obsessed with it,, obsessed with it. that telepaths can't read him because his brain is ever-shifting sand. that a palm-reader can't tell his future, because his skin keeps changing. that he's grabbing and grasping for stability and wants to trust himself but is literally, physically condemned to instability and uncertainty.

man is doomed by his biology. i love him.

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“Depression turns you into a series of nouns, without the adjectives and without the verbs. You don’t remember where you misplaced your descriptions, your actions … You become: bed, shower, socks, coffee, keys, obligations.”— A Series of Nouns

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GWEN DEATH ASKER AGAIN!! I’m just going to use 🕸 to identify myself from now on 😮‍💨 also sorry if this whole argument is getting to long or annoying you :(

All in all I don’t believe the death of Gwen was ever fully Peter’s fault. The fault was on Green Goblin (obviously) Gwen and Peter. Yes Peter did act ahead of time by webbing Gwen to a car but righttt before Harry shows up, Peter is fighting Elektro. He is literally about to die before Gwen shows up and helps him kill(?) Elektro by over charging him like a battery. Peter in that moment knows he would’ve died if Gwen hadn’t intervened, I believe that in that moment he forgot about everything, Gwen was literally his hero, she saved him and he forgot his whole mentality of her being constantly in danger.

Then comes in Harry. He really couldn’t have predicted that psycho injecting himself with literal SPIDER VENOM (just points out how weird harry is in that movie) in that moment of him arguing with Harry about how not giving him his blood is the best thing to do, he forgets about Gwen. In his mind she’s safe, she’s gone, until of course Harry directs his attention to her.

Peter wasn’t prepared for what was about to happen, neither was Gwen. Both of them only knew about the threat of Elektro and I feel like they are both equally responsible for her death.

Peter was too slow, he reacted to slow and he was directly involved with killing her. Gwen knew she was running head first into danger after being told not to, being told to stay out of it and be safe. She knew there was a risk and she took it.

Harry literally just took pride in killing her 💀 bro smiled when she died he had no regrets.

All in all there is a Peter Parker effect. (PP effect) He hurts everyone he loves in one way or another across multiple forms of media.

With Tobey Maguire’s Spider-Man, he hurts Aunt May, Uncle Ben, MJ, Norman, Harry, Gwen, even Eddie Brock who he didn’t know that well.

With Andrew Garfield’s Spider-Man he hurts/kills Captain Stacy, Flash Tompson, Aunt May, Gwen, Harry, Uncle Ben, and even kinda Doc Connors in a self blaming PP way.

With Tom Holland he hurts Liz, Ned, Aunt May, (almost Gwen Stacyifies MJ) and also probably uncle Ben.

Went off on a lil rant at the end but basically Peter is just a sad lil guy who gets brief comercial like breaks of happiness. And his commercial break barely lasts a few seconds each time 😋

the PP effect… yeah I’m keeping that

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Multishipper indeed. But winterhawk has a special place in my heart ❤️

Winterhawk commissions! @nightwideopen

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Oh Peter. The angst is real. I feel like people don't talk enough about Gwen besides the memes of her death in The Amazing Spiderman 2 movie

I think Peter finding out Gwen was not a perfect angel is even more heartbreaking because she had things to figure out, some looking into herself to do.

And when she died, yes she had her whole life in front of her, college, a job, dreams...ect. But for Peter, she was already all she would be as a person, her futur was things to do, not a person to becomes.

And it hurt even more, realizing she could have grown.

oh yep – oh yep. that kind of is - yeah. that's the crux of why peter and gwen in 9319 fell apart. peter parker was so, so resilient to change.

change is a threat, to him. it's terrifying. change means people leaving. change means him not being able to keep up. change means uncertainty. instability. change means unanswered questions.

peter - peter craves something simple.

he always craves easy answers. he wants things to be straightforward. he wants things to be bland. he wants things to be uncomplicated for him. things are always - always so complicated for him.

he's so resilient to things becoming too complicated for him to understand. and gwen was one of those things. one of those things that he so desperately wanted to be uncomplicated.

gwen kind of starts recognising this, and it becomes something she's afraid of. gwen knows that she has to evolve. she knows there are things she needs to figure out. and she knows there are things peter needs to figure out, too. but peter won't hear it.

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peter won't hear it, and gwen's suffocating because of it. gwen has the desire to evolve - to accept that something is wrong and she and peter both need to face it, but peter's in denial, and knows he's in denial.

but peter doesn't want to believe that he and gwen could be anything less than perfect. gwen is an angel, and his lifeline, and the only good thing about him.

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right now in the process of writing girl's night - the flipside to boy's night, where we're in gwen's head (for the first time!) and we get to see just what her anxieties were. and, oh. my bread-and-butter - existential nightmares.

and - well, we're kind of seeing it resurfacing, with 9319 peter of present. he craves simplicity, but is dating the most complicated man in the world. misfortune ensues.

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Gets me everytime 😢

oh-

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I'm starting to write fanfiction about our baby boi Peter. Ofc Wade is gonna be in the fic. It might have a bit of angst but mostly them enjoying each other's company