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i’m rewatching the bear and i’m thinking of that one person that said carmen baby trapped syd with the restaurant and i get it they thought theyer doing it together but ended up leaving it all to her to figure it out. and she picked up and his behavior and his goal to become better then everyone around them. carmy is a perfect example of how an insecure man can ruin a strong woman.

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I wish I liked Claire. 🙂

Just started S2 of The Bear (SORRY I never got around to it). I don't know if I just haven't seen S1 in a while, but the vibe is really different right? It's interesting.

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Okayyy wait, Marcus and Luca?? Let's wake that pair up!!!

Just started S2 of The Bear (SORRY I never got around to it). I don't know if I just haven't seen S1 in a while, but the vibe is really different right? It's interesting.

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Okay on Ep 3 and now I feel like the vibe is connecting back to S1. The first 2 eps kind of reminded me of a play? Lots of exposition. But now we're *in* it.

Just started S2 of The Bear (SORRY I never got around to it). I don't know if I just haven't seen S1 in a while, but the vibe is really different right? It's interesting.

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GOD Ayo Edebiri is so damn PRETTY

Just started S2 of The Bear (SORRY I never got around to it). I don't know if I just haven't seen S1 in a while, but the vibe is really different right? It's interesting.

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Just started S2 of The Bear (SORRY I never got around to it). I don't know if I just haven't seen S1 in a while, but the vibe is really different right? It's interesting.

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“She made me sick to my stomach. She made me well.” -Carmen

Sketching scenes from my fic.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/59536330/chapters/151838812

Drawing something every day of 2025, day 55: Syd.

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Just checking!

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Two times, Luo Binghe?

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i want to share an orange with you, lovingly, tenderly

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WHAT is wrong with you. It is so attractive

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Dog doodle

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To my birthday. I wish myself to one day be loved like that. Based on a dream

Dream Dish

“Can you explain it a little more?”

“So, the outside was covered in dried cranberries and blueberries, but the inside was like… grass? I don’t know…”

“Grass? Sounds delicious,” he laughs.

“Shut up.”

Carmen listened intentively and moved away his curls as you described the dream you had, a certain dish that you tried there.

“Ugh, it was so weird? Like, I don’t think I’ve ever encountered this grass before. It was like hay, but green? And the outside of the dessert was like a fortune cookie, but brown?” you sigh in frustration, unable to describe its complexity in full, until an idea appears in your head. You quickly stand up and blurt out - “I’ll show you!”

You run to get the pencils and paper, leaving Carmen to sit amused on the bed. He knew waking up with you would be an adventure, but not in this way. Either way, he liked it.

“Here!” You put the paper down and frantically drew shapes and coloured them in, making the dream a reality.

“So! This is what it looks like.”

You paused from your driven spurt and realized that Carmen hasn’t said a word. He was silently looking at the paper.

“Sorry, this must be really boring to hear,” you suddenly shut down. After all, it was you who tried that magical dish, not him.

He looks up at you, then down at the paper. “No- …no, it’s a fascinating dish. I’m just tryna understand how it works,“ he still sounds kinda sleepy.

"It's okay, Carm, you don't have to."

Several days have passed and you moved on. You didn’t want to abandon your friends after getting a boyfriend, so today was one of the nights when you met up for a chat. When you came back, the apartment felt warmer and had a fruity scent - Carmen must have tried something for the restaurant.

You take your heels off and tiptoe to the kitchen, curious. He hasn’t heard you come in, so he is still hunched over the counter. Your eyes shifted to the table - and you wondered whether you were awake.

“Carmen? What’s that?”

“Shit!” he jumps, at which you chuckle, “when’d you come back?”

“Right now,” you say hesitantly, “why, was I not supposed to?”

“Of course not,” he comes to hug you. His arms are on your waist, and you know he can still smell your perfume. “I just wanted to surprise you,” he releases you and turns to the table.

You recognize the dish.

“Is that-”

“Yes, baby, that’s your dish,” he smiles and looks kinda proud.

“Can I try it?” you ask, and he reaches down to take the plate and a spoon. You break the cookie in half, inspect the filling, and eat it. As you chew, the insanity of the situation grows on you. This is a made-up dish. From your dream. You’re eating it.

“I-I’m sorry, I couldn’t find the exact grass you were talkin’ about, I had to switch it out with-”

“It’s okay, Carm, I’m sure that if it existed you would have found it,” you put the plate down and your hands slide to his arms, “It’s amazing. It didn’t taste nearly as good in the dream,”

“It is pretty good, isn’t it?” he takes the other half of the cookie and eats it too.

“Hey, that’s mine!”

”I made it.”

“I came up with it.”

He doesn’t respond, just smiles at you. You look him in the eyes and think how happy you are.

“I love you,” he whispers and gives you a kiss.

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To be completely honest, I'm not sold on the romance in Tell Me That You Love Me. The show itself is addictively melancholy and quiet, and the characters were likable, so I made it to the last episode. (For context: I'm having a hard time finishing Kdramas lately, so this is saying something). I'm not hard of hearing myself, so take my praise with a grain of salt, but I also can't say enough good things about the way deafness and sign language are portrayed and, dare I say, honored in this show. There are so many better analyses about the representation in the show tag if you're interested.

(Warning: spoilers for Tell Me That You Love Me (2023) below.)

However.

When Jinwoo broke up with Moeun, I found myself saying, "good!" And when I sensed they would get back together in the end, I wished that they wouldn't.

Moeun deserves someone who will outwardly show their love for her.

The show beautifully navigates the softness and quiet tension of the characters. Where I would usually say the writers lacked somewhere, I actually don't think they did. I think they made the characters so human that we're able to see the relationships in the show for what they are.

It's likely necessary that Moeun approaches Jinwoo first and puts in the effort needed to show that she *does* want their relationship and wants to work on it. On the flip side, Jinwoo's energy felt like "Sure, we can be in a relationship if you want." I understand that they are a soft couple. But as a soft, slow, introverted drama enjoyer, I didn't have a moment where he did something and I (for lack of a better phrase) felt my heart flutter. Where are the flowers? Where's the painting of her? Where's the "let me introduce you formally to my kids (students)?"

They both deserve to be with someone who puts in effort for them.

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It's so interesting that I found this post under the tag, because it reminded me that I felt the exact same way. When Hyun-Ho said "you should have never developed feelings or at least never let it be discovered," I was thinking... I don't understand. The whole reason you didn't know about this the whole time was because he didn't say anything and he didn't interfere with your relationship AT ALL. I guess you could say Joon Young should have never sent Jung Kyung birthday CDs or maybe Hyun Ho meant he should have not been friends with them?

I guess that element makes sense. Why let yourself get SO close to a person that your best friend loves. But that still doesn't explain the sentiment of "you should have squashed those feelings and never had them."

When Min Sung said she would never have liked a person Song Ah liked in the first place, that was so unreal to me.

So all in all, I'm just as confused as you. I didn't know if I was supposed to see those feelings as valid, but they seemed unreasonable. If anything, you should be upset at the person in your relationship for harboring real feelings for another person.

I've got a question for you all, and I'm genuinely curious. I may just be wired more polyamorously than everyone else, but I've never once been jealous of a partner's romantic feelings towards someone else or a friend's romantic feelings towards a partner. Mostly because feelings (and thoughts) can't really be controlled, only our actions. Thoughts can be re-trained with a lot of mental discipline coupled with the passage of time. But feelings? Those just exist. They're neither good nor bad. The important thing is what we do with those feelings (let them pass, nurture them, dictate our actions, etc). So I never blame anyone for their feelings. I never get jealous over feelings. But I'm watching Do You Like Brahms? finally for the first time, and it's got a couple love triangles going on. Before the story even starts, both the FL and the ML were involved in love triangles where they fell in love with someone their best friends were also in love with. They NEVER acted on these feelings out of consideration for their besties. And in the process of letting go of those romantic attachments to people who are essentially off limits, they find each other and develop romantic feelings for each other. Crisis averted, right? They never acted on their feelings for those off-limit people (even when they discover that the off-limit people love them in return), and eventually those feelings passed. They never actually wronged their besties. Yet in the second half of the drama, the besties find out. And they take offense. And they sever the friendships.

But I just literally do not get why. Why are they mad that their best friend also loved someone they themselves loved? They say things like, "I don't blame person X for developing feelings for you, but I blame you for developing feelings for person X when you knew that I already loved them." ??? It does not compute. Why do you give person X a pass for falling in love, but not your bestie? And perhaps even more relevant, why are they mad about feelings that NEVER got acted on? Feelings that eventually disappeared to the point that they fell in love with someone else (each other)? Is this just how normal people think about love? Am I just really wired that differently? Or is there some other in universe explanation that has yet to reveal itself because I'm only on episode 10 out of 16? So, please! Chime in. Anyone. Everyone. I am genuinely curious.