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yes please do ramble my ears off i wanna hear about it please-

OKAY HI! so i'm not the best at explaining things and my wording might seem off at times but i think i should preface by saying telamon definitely was not the best parent. a lot of stuff was absolutely his fault, and i'd imagine that him being a deity could have partly been a reason as for why 1x's upbringing was so different. in my eyes, telamon saw them as more of a creation than his own blood and flesh, something he thought he knew like the back of his hand; he created them, so how would he not? down to what 1x was feeling, thinking- they were the spitting image of telamon. and if anyone knew telamon best, it was. well. telamon. perhaps it didn't register to him that just maybe, 1x was their own sentient being with their own personality, emotions and wants.

1x, in my headcanons, just wanted to be acknowledged and heard. never taken seriously by telamon, they felt very outcasted. most of the things they were taught by telamon weren't things they needed to know that would help them in the long-run, and telamon was also, at the time, very absent because of work. i think that they were very sheltered, probably even isolated, and didn't have anybody to talk to. no outlet or anything. this, overtime, led to very poor coping skills, with no idea how to regulate or manage their emotions. i think you know what this eventually leads up to. on top of this, there was always that nagging fear of failure and not being good enough in the back of their mind. they were the creation of a deity- would telamon settle for any less than perfect, or whatever he had set his standard to? 1x wanted to equate to something, anything at all that made them worth it.

when telamon took on the form of shedletsky, i only think it got more complicated from there. the whole reason telamon changed his identity was to run away from his problems / past, or to stall time to eventually fix it. being hired by builderman and then eventually falling in love with brighteyes would've been a huge wake-up call for him, and thus became the end of an era and the beginning of trying to rectify what he had done. 1x didn't see shedletsky as their dad, or their creator. their creator was telamon, so who was this newfound persona that he had conjured up out of the blue? despite this, shedletsky no longer taking on the role of telamon meant he had more time to spare for them. this would've been a good thing, if 1x didn't spite him for not being there earlier.

i would type more but gooooodness i feel like this is long enough maybe !!! also did some doodles to add to this ....

but thank you for listening if u actually read all of thsi. i don't normally type thought-out headcanons so my wording is probably definitely a little iffy but i hope you enjoy it nontheless !!!

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hi guuuys i doodled a little design of 1x1x1x1 pre-forsaken when he was still just little

a creation of telamon !! being made to fit telamon's image, he instead reflects parts of his creator that are disliked or frowned upon. shown nothing but resentment when he exhibits traits that telamon himself usually tried to suppress, he didn't understand why he was so different. yes, being made by telamon obviously didn't make him apart of the crowd, but why wasn't he treated as such?

it would be so fun to go more into detail about their relationship. i see so many takes on it that are so awesome i wanna try it myself ....... hoping to make more art of this guy soon and maybe also telamon. sad familial tropes have got me

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Androgynous presenting Chance is so funny because What if

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two parter to a previous post Hi Don't bludgeon me to death guys Thank yiu

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haha. You guys are goinmg to hate m,e for thsi One comign up soon.

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Jane doe in my style <3

Im prolly just gonna switch between this design and her actual canon design alot

Shes so cool guys

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then when he's gone

there's that odd melancholy feeling

and a sense of guilt i can't deny

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no elliots were harmed in the making of these drawings (thank you jane)

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wait oh my god. chance connor dbh skin. wait. think about this. WRITE THAT DOWN WRIT ETHAT DOWN dude they both fucking flip coins. and have a fucking gun i'm gonna go insane oh MY GOD. i don't know what hat fix would be though . maybe smoothing his hair back or somethuign?????????

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making a Thing. may or may not post the wip if i like how it turns out. i probably will but we will See

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"mass neglection" or what ever 1x4 says after his creator neglects him or something. first time doodling them be nice to them world

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I lub ur art so much..,,, especially the yeslo and 118o8 ones,,......,,u so cool,,,

OHHH YOU'RE SO SWEET thank you so much !!! getting inbox stuff like this really motivates me to keep drawing... thank you for taking an interest in my art !! it means a lot to me!

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"You came into this world so softly, and left it just the same."

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i know it probably seems liek a small number but What the HECK Thank u guys for 70 followers WHHHAT. Thats like. 20 more than 50!!!! crazy Math ..... i didnt even expect to get up to 50 let alone 70 so THANK U GUYS Ur all so Epical !!!!

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tha c00lest kidd in town!!!11!1

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that he/they and their boyfirend Or What ever. Happy Pride for everyone but these two

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hi i hope you all like my 118o8 and yeslo slop. + height chart in the second image. ohh bluudud you pudgy little thang