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Thank you.

You articulate your thoughts well and it was very helpful to me as I struggle.

Thank you for putting in the time to express your thoughts to aid others.

if you have the energy try to read this

I need to explain something very complicated but very important. I almost don’t know how to approach it, other than to preface it by telling you a little bit about my mother. My mother is a therapist who specializes in reprocessing traumatic memories with people with post traumatic stress.

She uses several techniques, most prevalently EMDR and I have learned a lot about how these techniques work and about trauma and the process of recovery, and the symptoms of trauma all along the road to recovery.

My mother is an abuse survivor herself, so she thoroughly understands the symptoms and the process of recovery, both through her extensive education as a trauma therapist and her personal experience and struggle with it.

What she has explained to me is that nearly everyone has experienced trauma at least to some degree in our lives. We are particularly vulnerable in the early stages of our brain development, because it is here that an earth shattering experience can most fundamentally shape our view of the world, of the people around us, of ourselves.

I’m going to try to explain all this with an example:

A 3 year old girl watches her little sister drown. She blames herself, even though she was powerless to do anything. This self-blame is actually a defense mechanism that her brain uses to protect from the experience of complete powerlessness. The experience of utter powerless is too much to bear, so she reshapes her reality such that if she had only done something differently, she could have saved her sister.

This perception of reality comes to shape her life into her adulthood. She is driven, constantly takes on the responsibility herself, determined to never again let someone down, as she had let her sister down. And yet this entire approach to her life is based on the false premise that her sister’s death was her fault. However, because this approach protects her 3 year old brain from experiencing that utter powerlessness, she holds onto it, at nearly any cost.

Now, this woman will have many relationships in her life, and she will share her experiences and her life with usually either a partner or her therapist. And these people with whom she is sharing her intimate experiences with, will start to notice the negative cognitions that she has built her life around, see them for what they are - essentially bullshit - and they will start to poke at them, call her on them.

What her brain does at this point is extremely drastic, and very irrational, and completely uncontrollable. That first experience of powerlessness is still too much to bear, and she now associates either that therapist or her partner as a symbol of that powerlessness. Her brain is now in survival mode, anything to protect her from it, even if it means completely demonizing the person who is trying to help her.

So I asked my mom if we should all be getting treated for trauma, if we all have it, and she said probably not, because it’s such a scaling thing, and the severity is completely dependant on the individual. However, what she said was a really important and underrepresented piece of this, was the cultural awareness about how trauma can affect our understandings of the people in our lives, the people that love us, as we project on them the pains that are to crippling and earth shattering for us to face.

I know this was long, but I felt compelled to flush it out, I know most of you won’t read it all, but its important to me, to start to spread awareness, and to understand our sometimes incredibly violent and excessive reactions to the things in our lives.

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“Small World isn’t It?” A crossover between animorphs and FMA. You know, its surprising how Alphonse and Tobias are so much a like and yet no one seemed to noticed. I mean, they’re both boys trapped in a non human body. Both were orphaned. Both had dirty blond hair. Both are fairly quiet but still protect those they care for. Both have soft spots for cats. And both got stuck the way they are through breaking the laws of the science they were meddling with. What do you guys think? Let me know!

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How I imagine sixpenceee in real life

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Make it down to Sakura con for a hot sec. Thanks everyone! ❤️

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Thanks for the picture charmeleon!

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Reblog if you would date an Andalite. I am not an Andalite I am just asking for a friend. I have a mouth.

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@141-point-12

happy early birthday

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😂💪❤

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where was this when i needed it most?

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Reblog if you are Bisexual, Gay, Trans, a werewolf, a girl, a guy, a psychopath, an asexual, an aromantic, a witch, or your name is Marsha

Have fun figuring out who is who…

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There, fixed it.

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What if:

we’re in the trump presidency because a time traveler went back in time to stop the assassination of president Obama? Then he went back to the future to find out that Sanders didn’t win the election and that the state funded lab that created his time machine was now just another abandoned Wendy’s parking lot of the Trump presidency.

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you: happy april fools day

me, an intellectual: happy birthday fred and george weasley

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#team fake it till you make it

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I was at the zoo the other day and there was this fucking goose trying to act likE A FUCKING FLAMINGO