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Immortal

I am cursed with life

None shall ferry me

They tease me with death

Shall never give me peace

Will not let me stop feeling

I am cursed with love

Though all shall leave me

They taunt me with their joy

While leaving me in tears

I am cursed with thought.

Never relenting.

Always drowning 

Forced to live

To feel

To think

Please stop

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The Wish…

I wish I didn't have a heart.

I wish I didn't feel the things that I do.

I wish my mind wouldn't race with thoughts of you.

I wish my fingertips didn't yearn to reach out for your hand.

I wish I didn't want to hold you close to me and feel your heartbeat next to mine.

I wish my lips didn't dream of kissing yours.

I wish I didn't love you. 

I wish I didn't, but I do.

I feel everything, and it hurts.

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Happiness

Your happiness is important to me.

So I will not tell you about the feelings I have, or how strongly I feel them, because, if I do, it may make you unhappy.

All I want is for you to be happy.

I want everyone to be happy, with or without me.

I just wish…

I wish someone would be happy with me…

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I Don't Want To Make It Weird

I don't want to make it weird,

but what else would you call this?

How else would you describe the feeling of bursting at the seams to tell you how much I love you?

I don't want to make it weird. 

I don't want to tarnish what we share by admitting that I may care more, or that I wish you cared more. 

The truth is we can never know if we care more,  or if we feel the same way at all unless we talk about it.

I don't want to talk about it.

I'm scared. 

I don't want to make it weird. 

It'd be so much easier if you just wrapped your arms around me, kissed me and told me you love me as more than a friend. 

For all I know,  you're thinking the same.

I don't want to make it weird, but here we are…

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I ached for you today.

I ached for you today.

I clawed, and screamed, and drowned.

Then you appeared, pulled me to the surface, and I drowned in you. 

In your smile 

In your laugh

In the way you make everything around you spark to life with the joy of being in your presence.

Still I ached. 

I was selfish. 

I wanted you to myself.

That your light would sear my flesh and raise me up on invisible wings.

Yet even when we were alone I ached, because there is still distance between us. 

A bridge that I am too afraid to cross lest you fly away forever, and leave only the ache of your memory stained upon me.

I ached for you today, and tomorrow,  and yesterday, and all days to come. 

I ached for you. 

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making this on my phone with very little sleep or consideration, but i think the point stands

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[Tweet from @/fozmeadows: "human gender and sexuality are very much like animal taxonomy, in that both look structured and simple on the surface, but once you start investigating, it turns out there's actually no such thing as a fish despite the fact that we all know what a fish is, and that's okay"]

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you’re not too sensitive. you’re not overreacting. if it hurts you, it hurts you

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Elliot and the Spider

The world was starting to cool down. Or at least, that was what the weatherman had said. It still felt far too hot for Elliot’s liking in his cabin. All of the windows were open as he tried to get the cool sea air to at least keep it from being so stuffy. It was hot enough that he had shed his jacket and vest while inside.

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Amazing and relaxing 🕊️

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tHEEEEEEEEEEEEM

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This started as a doodle of sun’s hand to practice hands- then I got carried away Idk whats happening eventually I just decided its Sun curing Moon’s glitch or some shit IDK JUST TAKE IT